Light-Beings (Homo Luminous) and the Bronchial Tube

Fill souls with My Light so that they may arise to life in Love!
I radiate Brahmanic Light through your Atmic Mahadoubles; They are like Light pipes!
The strata of the Absolute are your ‘clothes’, and you live beneath them.
Always perceive your new Atmic Bodies — to the Full Height! You have to learn to live with them; in this process, the physical body becomes divine and the soul’s control center moves into Paramatman — into the ‘I’ of God!
Baba

Every time we breath in we take in the light, with every exhale we get out the darkness of the ego and body identification, what is left - silence. In the light is only silence, it is calm and beautiful, but the result - we are light, it is the mirror.

Bronchial Tube

The sutra of Patanjali focus just on that bronchial tube where Prana is stored, we take in light and immortality. We exhale what is mortal and get transformed into light-beings - homo-luminous.
Soham, means I am that and takes in with every breath light. In the bronchial tube it is therefore calm and silent (Patanjali). And with Qigong we store the Chi, the light, in the navel.

Auspicious Breath and Meditation - Soham

The Divine, auspicious breath of soham emanates from a human being. Soham means “I am that” (Divinity). The sound of the breath in human being, i.e., soham establishes the nature of Divinity. If one tries to contemplate on the form without recognizing the sound, he will not be able to understand the nature of Divinity.

Soham is sathwic in nature. This sathwa guna is Easwarathwa (the Shiva Principle).

There is another principle that emanates from this Divine breath, namely, Vishnuthwa (the Vishnu Principle). What is the form of this Vishnu Principle ? The feelings in the mind. In other words, mind is the Vishnu Principle.

There is yet another form which emerges from the navel of Vishnu, namely, Brahma. Thus, the principles of Brahma, Vishnu and Maheswara are emanating from the Soham Tathwa in a human being itself.

In this trinity, Shiva is the Soham Tathwa, Vishnu is the Mind and Brahma is the Vak Swarupa (in the form of words). It means, every word that emerges from the human being is Brahma; every resolve (sankalpa) emerging from the mind is Vishnu and every breath coming out of the body is Easwara.

Thus, Divinity is permeating the entire human body. The body is living, as long as the life breath emanates from the body.

Baba (Discourse delivered on the occasion of Dasara Celebrations – October 12, 2002)

link Baba Discourse

Meditation on the form without the sound of the transcendental OM (Soham), the mantra, it will not be possible to understand the nature of Divinity. Instead of focusing on the form, we can focus on the place in the body in general, the bronchial tube, it helps to get away from the form if for some reason it should seem difficult.

Indestructible - truth beyond the ups and downs of life

Vibuthi comes out of the picture

You are pure and indestructible; you are beyond the ups and downs of life; you are the true, the eternal, the unchanging Brahmam (Divine Self).

Golden Shiva Lingam
 materialized by Sai Baba

A mere five-minute inquiry will convince you that you are not the body, the senses, the mind or the intelligence, the name or the form; but that you are the Aatma Itself - the same Aatma that appears as all this variety.
Once you get a glimpse of this truth, hold on to it; do not allow it to slip. Make it your permanent possession. Look upon all with love, respect and faith in their sincerity. Treat your servants kindly. Do not entertain hatred or contempt in your heart. Repent for the errors that you commit and decide never to repeat them; pray for strength to carry out your resolutions. Do not find fault with others. Purify your heart by being good to all.
Baba (thought for the day)

Inner light

Tried find an indestructible symbol. That is the golden Shiva lingam Baba manifested at Shivaratri by Baba every year again. And another indestructible symbol is vibuthy, holy ash. There are some pictures of his the vibuthi just comes out like in that picture above.

You are the true, the eternal, the unchanging Brahmam (Divine Self).

How to be beyond the ups and downs of life? To reach that we have to be convinced that we are Brahman, consciousness, the divine self. 
And he tells to hold on to it to make it a permanent possession. 

The Sun; and basic Existence to Self-Realization

What exactly do people mean when they say the Sun has risen or that it has set? It is so far as their vision is concerned; that is all, is it not? The Sun does not rise or set. The incarnation of God is also like that. In the Geetha, Krishna said: “I am not born, nor do I die. Men of ordinary intellect consider that I am born many times and that I do many deeds during each birth. Whenever there is a need for the uplift of the world, I become manifest, assuming a name and form, that is all. So I am conscious of all My appearances, all My manifestations. I am almighty, I am Sarvajna (all knowing). Not only I, even you know everything. But your Jnana (wisdom) is overwhelmed by ajnana (ignorance). I am Jnana itself. I remain as almighty and as Sarvajna as ever. I am birthless, immortal”.
Baba (thought for the day)

 

I am still taken aback by today's feeling home and I am not able to make a decision. 

Discrimination has to observe. It is the difference between the real value, sath, the self, the observer and the outer changing value, level of the sense objects.

The sun stands for reality, not changing like the self.

To get the experience is basic knowledge, existence and we realize there is a level in the self which goes beyond everything which is changing on the level of the senses. That is the foundation of the house we wants to get.

The Building of Self-Realization; every Mantra is okay

Unless the foundation is strong, a building cannot stand firm and last long. So, the foundation is very important. You can construct any number of floors basing on a firm foundation. Self-confidence is the foundation. These days many do not have self-confidence. They do not even attempt to do anything worthwhile as they have no confidence in themselves.
How do you expect them to be successful?
If a person has no confidence in himself, what can be done for his progress? On the foundation of self-confidence are erected the walls of self-satisfaction. A man with self-confidence alone can have self-satisfaction. A man without confidence can never have satisfaction in his lifetime. So, the walls of self-satisfaction rest on the foundation of self-confidence.
Then the roof must be laid. Self-sacrifice is the roof. Gaining satisfaction out of confidence, one prepares oneself for sacrifice. You cannot live in a building without a roof. The roof rests on walls, and the walls, in their turn, stand on the foundation. Then, we live in the house. Life in such a house is self-realisation. So, everyone must develop these four `S's' - Self-confidence, Self-satisfaction, Self-sacrifice and Self-realisation.
Baba
The building Baba is talking about is strong. What is self-confidence? It is not on the mind level. It is not what we think it is. It has to be real, it has to be true.

Self-confidence to get a strong foundation. The picture last year before Baba left the body was kind of a pyramid, I mentioned the pyramid. That what the building. Decisions have to be self controlled, not mind controlled, that the foundation will get strong.
What is the difference? It has to come from inside, beyond doubt then it is self-controlled. And sometimes it needs to be even confirmed by a master to be sure.

Wait and go only for it when there is no more doubt. As long as there is doubt, we wait. 
It has to be the self, otherwise, it cannot be self-confidence. Wait until it is sure, our limitations will be challenged, we have to face the mind to go beyond it. 

Self-confidence trusts and knows it will be there, we have to get to the level of truth, the never changing truth.
That is the foundation and on that level are the walls, self-satisfaction, knowing it is right, inner trust in that self-confidence and the mirror which begins to reflect in that light of the self. 

The Fire of Emotion and Equanimity

Let the wave of memory, the storm of desire, the fire of emotion pass through without affecting your equanimity.

Baba

Equanimity is a nice balanced state of mind and it helps to be aware that the fire of emotions are ‘not that’. Emotions have no real value. If it is there, it is like energy with just enough air to create troubles.
The same with the wave of memory.

Follow your heart, see the reflection of the inner being

Follow your heart. All you have seen and experienced in life will try to appear before your mind's eye in the moment you remind yourself. This means that the whole universe exists within you. All you see is a reflection of the inner being. Everything you say is an echo of inner thoughts. All you do is a reflection of inner actions.
Therefore, if you act in accordance with your own inner impulses, that is right action (dharma). If you tell what you feel inside, it is truth (sathya). If you contemplate on the experience of your heart, it is peace (shanti). And if you understand the impulses of the heart right, it is non-violence (ahimsa). If you respect everything that comes from the heart it is love (prema). Sathya, Dharma, Shanti, Prema and Ahimsa are expressions of feelings that come from the heart.
Baba
I am amazed, because he is telling that the inner being is all there is. For me are those inner reflections based on the outward experience, and not yet just an inner insight of the universe.

The Patanjali Sutra experienced, getting closer to reality

Acquisition of positions of authority and power, of skill and intelligence which can manipulate people and things, of fame and supremacy, of personal charm, of good health and happiness or of a large family with many children or wealth… none of these can confer liberation. You cannot attain liberation by undertaking sacrifices, vows, charities, pilgrimages or donations to holy projects. Though the objective world appears real, you must be aware that it is deluding you. You must give up yearning for deriving pleasure from the objects that appear and attract – both here and hereafter. Renunciation alone can lead to immortality. You will be liberated as soon as you renounce your attachment and desire.
Baba

Patanjali Yoga Sutras
In this link the sutras are translated in different languages, easy and understandable

Divinity is beyond the three Gunas

Assertions that all or any activity or interaction between Sai Baba and devotees is abuse is based on hearsay and hyperbole (rumour and innuendo) which has built up to hysterical proportion without sufficient investigation. It presumes without evidence that all who enter are abused. Patently false. The 'curtain of shame' is a fallacy, which fails to discredit and disgrace Sai Baba. This fallacy cannot both require the 'divine power' of an avatar or godman to conceal and at the same time dispense with and deny 'divine power'. This cannot be reasonably offered in denial of the divinity of Sai Baba.

link to - Sathya Sai Baba responds

Baba is beyond the three gunas. What does that mean for us who have human bodies and a human mind?

The band of brothers, but strength is gone

Devotion to the Divine will give you Bliss, Prosperity and Peace. It cannot inflict pain, perturbation or personal anxiety. It fosters love and brings all together as one band of brothers.

Baba

I was meditating with the TM people, but was not one of them. But it felt good not being alone. But that was finished after I came back from Baba.

Ignorance, Blindness and Death

When we want to go to a cinema, or for an evening walk, we get ready by putting on our shoes. When we want to visit a nearby town, we pack our clothes in a bag. But what preparations do you make for the ultimate journey, the voyage of death?

Baba

Years ago still in Portland Baba was in the dream with two different faces, one had vampire teeth, the bloodsucker and the other face had a very long nose.  

It is a reflection and not a good one, my ex wanted two things, career and wife, and I had met him in the ashram. But I who ever get the idea that a reflection could be that ugly and perverted?

When once Brahma asked sage Naaradha what was the most amazing thing he noticed on earth, Naaradha replied, 'The most amazing thing I saw was this: The dying are weeping over the dead.' Those who are themselves nearing death every moment are weeping over those who have died, as if their weeping has an effect, either to revive the dead or prevent their own death!

Baba

God knows no change, his instrument is the body and the mind is a bad monkey always changing

When you realise that God is not outside of you and separate from you, then you gain self-confidence. Then there is love, there is peace, there is truth and there is God. So first there must be self-confidence and love of God. What are you thinking about now? You are thinking about the body, but the body is just a water bubble. The body is just a dress, only a dress.

Devotee: Swami, you say that everything is God, but isn't the body also God? If everything is God, then the body must also be God?

Baba: You are asking about the body. You are thinking about the body, not of God. If you only think of God, then, for you, there will be only God. But now you are thinking of the body. The body is an instrument; it is made of matter; and matter is always changing. The world also is always changing, but God is never changing. God is the one unchanging spirit.
Sathya Sai Vahini

Mirror reflects, Mind perceives, Brain infers

“The fault is in the mirror that reflects, the mind that perceives, the brain that infers. What the mirror presents as true has no authenticity. The mirror is coated with dust and its face is not plain at all. God has no maya; He has no intention or need to delude, nor does He will that it should happen.”
Baba

What is reflection? In the case of my ex it is being lovely. That reflection has nothing to do with reality, he is not lovely in any way. In the case of the healer I mentioned under 'Bad monkey mind' is the reflection the wish to be an important healer, reflection it the need to be someone.
In the case of smearing minds, abuse and scandal in the Internet it is the same, only a smeary level of wanting to be someone and to know more than others do.

Bad monkey mind; break the silence

God is that friend and it is up to you to break the silence and bring Him into your life at every moment of the day.
God is love, and that is the easiest way to find Him, through love. If you keep your heart open and let love flow, God's love will fill you with divine energy and help you along the path, guiding you to overcome all obstacles.
It is a long journey, but it becomes shorter and easier once you share it with the Lord. He knows the path, and will guide you all the way to the very end, to ultimate liberation.
Baba

That is why Baba said inside in my dream, that it was a stupid thing to do.
I was talking with that guy, who has a bad monkey mind, about the interview, and I mentioned the questions Baba had asked the other, not me, that was a stupid thing to do. 
It is about the reflection of the mind.

Disciplining his vehicles - the koshas; how to understand it?

Education is a problem in consciousness. It is a problem in soul-culture. This aspect, training of the soul, the atman, is much neglected in many of the modem schools!
India has, through the ages, recognised the truth that every student is a soul, that beyond everyone lie experiences of many lives, that a teacher must be a man of moral power and spiritual intuitions in order to be able to help the student to evolve by disciplining his vehicles (koshas).

These "vehicles", "koshas" are five. There is anna-maya kosha, the kosha of matter, the physical vehicle. There is the prana-maya kosha, the kosha of prana, the "vital" vehicle. There is mano-maya kosha, the kosha of manas, the mental vehicle. There is the vignana-maya kosha, the kosha of vignan, the vehicle of Higher Reason. There is the ananda-maya kosha, the kosha of anand (joy). And when that vehicle is well developed there is that self-realisation which involves emotional experience of Unity with All.
Baba

You know what I wonder, on which level we are. The physical it the body.
Then there is the vital vehicle, prana, air and it is in the breath. The mind is the mental vehicle, emotions must be on that mind level and going beyond it by higher reason or also intellect, discrimination.

Difference between calmness (self) and agitation (mind)

Can you calm down when you are agitated? Can you slow your breath when you are excited and are breathing fast? Can you silence your chattering mind for a moment so that you can listen to the intuitive messages that are waiting to break through the curtain of mental noise? If you can answer yes to these questions, you have already won your battles.
Let us face the person in the mirror.
For that is where change should begin.

Going beyond the mind, first the chattering of the mind gets louder before it calms down.

Don't eat without sharing

NEVER EAT ANYTHING WITHOUT SHARING IT WITH OTHERS

Baba narrated the story of Sudama - a co-student of Shri Krishna and Balaram in the ashram of their Guru Sandipani. Once when these students were collecting firewood in the forest, Krishna was thirsty and asked for some water. Sudama advised him not to drink water without eating something. Shri Krishna, therefore, rested his head on Sudama's lap and slept. After sometime Shri Krishna woke up and heard Sudama chewing something. Shri Krishna asked Sudama as to what he was eating. But, Sudama, although he was eating grams, told Shri Krishna a lie that he was not eating anything; but his teeth were chattering because of cold. Later, as a result of this, Sudama, although a churn of Lord Krishna, had to pass his life in utter poverty.
However, when he later offered Shri Krishna a handful of parched rice, earned by his wife with her own labour, Shri Krishna was pleased and gave him a golden mansion to live and enjoy.

Baba Himself never ate anything without sharing it with others.
Everyday He used to go out begging and whatever food was collected. He used to place it in the earthen bowl in the Masjid. Some beggars used to pinch 3-4 breads and dogs and birds used to eat out of it; but Baba never drove them away.
Whenever any devotee offered Him fruits and richly cooked food, He hardly tasted it and distributed amongst the devotees present. Every afternoon, when in the Dwarkamai, the meal was served and ready to cat, Baba used to call out for Bade Baba (a Fakir from Malegaon) and used to make him seat next to Him on His left respectfully as an honoured guest. Not only this, but after the meal, Baba used to pay him Rs. 50 as dakshina and walk with him upto 100 paces to see him off.

If alone, we should offer it to him to not eat only for the body and the senses.

I adore the fire, Agnimile purohitam

Agnimile purohitam yajnasya devam rtvijam hotaram ratna dhatamam.

• I adore the Fire, the sacrificial priest, luminous vibrations of Truth, the fierce warrior, the bestower of delight.
• We invoke the fire of enthusiasm, the gateway to higher knowledge, the slayer of the demon of lethargy and the bestower of delight.

Rig Veda

That was the basic Vedic teaching of the Maharishi and I loved it because it invoked the light, the fire. It is the first verse of the Rig Veda. And it was said, who knows it is a leader, therefore, he made out of TM people all leaders.

It was said that in Agni all basic teaching was contained.

A stands for the absolute

G for the stop for the relative manifestation and the

Ni was between the two and after the stop binding back to the self, to the A, the principle of the knower of the self.

The risk; how to get a right answer

I am absolutely fine. No pain at all. The accident happened while one of the boys was working near the door. When I suddenly opened the door from behind, he was caught by surprise and fell on me and so did the chair. You see, the boy is okay, the chair is okay, this happened to me. My hip joint was crushed. But, I have no pain and I am always happy.
Baba

That is what Baba said in an interview. He talks of himself always as beyond the body. If he is fine, it doesn't mean the body is fine too.
Atman is never sick, he cannot get sick and a Sai Baba will never identify himself with the body, that is certain.

Children of Bliss - and fraud in the air

 I expect from you only one thing i.e., you should transform yourselves into ideal children full of bliss, the very embodiments of Atma, proving all this to the world by your behavior and conduct in life. That alone is True Education. All other types of education are only its limbs and parts.
Baba

Baba's writings - Vahinis

I met my own impatience. Looking at it, my impatience, too much is written, too many people, everything seems too big. Writing my blog I go by what I feel and find a quote and write it down. It feels centered in me.
If I have to understand that fraud and illusion have the same pattern, that is an insight. It is the same pattern. We just didn't see it on all levels. 
But only to a certain limit.
After I can read, but my eyes don't see, I read, but I am inside too upset, too impatient to get it.
Why I mentioned it, because we both wrote at the same time about fraud? The question is why? But maybe there is no answer.
Why was it in the air? Will we know one day?
What is behind that word - fraud?

Why was it in the air?
We get aware of it and learn to look at it on different levels. 
The market level is the big picture. Has it invaded us? Or was it always there and now we have to face it?

Equanimity and Fortitude

If the senses keep to their places there is no reason to fear. It is only when they start to contact the objects around, the twin distractions of joy and grief are produced.
When you hear someone defaming you, you experience anger and grief; but there is no such agitation if the words do not fall on your ears. The attraction of the senses to the objects is the cause of grief and its twin, joy. So long as the world is there, sense-object contact cannot be avoided; similarly till the time one has the burden of previous births, one cannot escape the joy-grief complex. But of what use is it to wait till the waves are silenced, before you wade into the sea for a shower?
The wise one learns the trick of avoiding the blows of the onrushing waters and the drag of the receding waves. Wear the armour of fortitude (thithiksha), and weather the blows of good and bad fortune. Fortitude means equanimity in the face of opposites, that is, putting up boldly with duality.
Baba

It is impossible to not be in contact with sense objects. To not get identified with the sense objects is possible.

Reverence and Respect for the Vedantic directions

The three main Vedantic directions:

• The Advaita in essence translated as "That,"
which refers to the ultimate reality (Brahman), and 'tvam' (the individual self jiva) as exactly the same, unity.

• The Vishishtadvaita is 'that', the individual self, as part of the whole.

• The Dvaita interpretation 'atat tvam asi',
meaning "You are not that". It is practiced as "Neti, neti", that means 'not this, not that'.

The Advaita essence as 'that' we find also in the light, the inner light same light as the ocean of light, the universal being, therefore, they are one.
It has to be realized, it is not a state of mental speculation, but only real if realized.
There are three levels of realization of light.
I am in the light. The light is in me. I am the light.

Fortitude, waiting for the change

Generally, people seek only happiness and joy; under no circumstance do they desire misery and grief! They treat happiness and joy as their closest well-wishers, and misery and grief as their sworn enemies. This is a great mistake. When you are happy, the risk of grief is great; fear of losing the happiness will haunt you. Misery prompts inquiry, discrimination, self-examination and fear of worse things that might happen. It awakens you from sloth and conceit.
Face the dualities of life with thithiksha (fortitude). But be aware, thithiksha is different from patience (Sahana). Patience is putting up with something; tolerating or bearing with it because you have no other choice. Fortitude is having the capacity to overcome it, but yet, disregarding it - that is the spiritual discipline.
Putting up with the external world of duality with inner equanimity and peace is the path that will lead you to liberation. Bear all, with analytical discrimination - this type of patience will yield good results.
Baba (thought for the day)

‘Over the counter’ is for me still kind of hard to get, also to understand how it could get out of hand and become such a fraud.

I understand the principal of illusion seen as fraud better than the market.

Inkan Prophecies; are we part of the solution or part of the problem?

The Inkan Prophecies talk about a new human who will walk the earth; a human that is “homoluminous,” who glows with light.

Question: What are the 2012 prophecies?

Answer of the Shaman: They are indigenous prophecies of the Americas. You find them among the Hopi, Maya, Inka, and the Apache. December 21, 2012 is an astronomical alignment that is going to be the beginning of a new era of a new age. These prophecies are very optimistic. They’re not the apocalyptic prophecies of Christianity of the end of the world. They’re really the beginning of the world. According to the Maya, humanity first appears in the planet on December 21, 2012. So we’re still proto-humans.

We’re still half cooked.

They say that this is happening between 2012 and 2020. But, on December 21, 2012, what you have is the tipping point. We’re either part of the solution then or we’re part of the problem.
One of the interesting things the Inka say is that theres "no place in the world" that we’ll be safe. Absolutely no place. But there will be safe people. You can become a safe person.
A. Villoldo

The Catholic Priest and how sad to read that

"Here we have come to the end of my history as a priest. This is the chapter of my life which will now be filed away. I felt that I owed this explanation to the reader, even though the affair is of no longer of any concern to me: to be suspended from certain ceremonies, said to be divine, certainly does not preclude access to the Divine. I can no longer go to Mass, no longer lose myself in the warm atmosphere of a midnight Mass, to be moved by the sweetness of Christmas Carols, but I can always speak heart-to-heart with the Lord, pray to Him, love Him, meet Him. Everyone can, because of this, even 'atheists' know how to pray. This is the real consolation, which no one will ever be able to take from me; there is not a single person in the whole world who can pry you away from God."

From the book 'A Catholic Priest Meets Sai Baba'

Link to a catholic priest

Begin the day with love. Fill the day with love. End the day with love that is the way to God.

Baba 

Absolute and Relative Reality; only experience

Absolute Reality

According to the "Sarvasaara Upanishad", the first category, viz. Absolute Reality (Sath, or Paaramaarthika Sathya) is that which satisfies the following six criteria:

Unaffected by the past, present and future (Trikaalabaadhyam)

Pervading the past, present and future (Trikaalanusyuutam)

Always existing (Yadaasti thath Sathyarn)

One without a second (Ekameva Adviteeyam)

Free from differentiations based on intra-species, and intra-individual variations (Sajaati, Vijaati, Swagata Bheda Rahitam)

Basis for all manifestation (Sarva Kalpana Adhishtaanam)

This Absolute Reality designated as Atma or Brahman cannot be perceived by the senses and mind, but can be experienced only, in the transcendental state (Turiya).

Relative Reality

The second category, namely, "Relative reality", a combination of Sath and Asath (reality and unreality) is subdivided into two types: (a) "Vyaavahaarika Sathya" i.e. empirical (or Practical) Reality, and (b) "Praatibhaasika Sathya", i.e. Illusory or Imaginary Reality.

Sanathana Sarathi, September 1997

Teachings

Fraud is Illusion; self-deception

This Absolute Reality designated as Atma or Brahman cannot be perceived by the senses and mind, but can be experienced only, in the transcendental state.
Baba

It means what it tells: experience, experience, experience..., and not mental speculation. Reality only, truth, law, and mental speculation is illusion.

If we talk of illusion in the West it is like, what is that?

We seem not to know where to begin to understand it.

But if we look at fraud, we can copy it and see that it has the same result, only fraud is in conflict with law.

Illusion is a state of mind which doesn't know reality in general and is in conflict with truth and truth is an unwritten law, the law of dharma, of righteous living.

Watch your Words, Action, Thoughts, Character and Heart.
Baba

Fraud in the air (pressure, rationalization, opportunity)

Faith is like our life breath. It is impossible to live even for a minute in this world without faith.

Baba

Yesterday I woke up there was just one word in the air 'fraud'.

I was not sure I understood it right, it was in English and I drove to work with the intention to look it up and to Google it.

Empire of love

The individualism of man can be cured only by the potent drug called "LOVE".
The forces of BROTHERHOOD have to overpower the negative influence of every individual and promote unity and strength.
I preach only one religion- Love for all, which alone can integrate the human race into a brotherhood of man, embedded in the maturity of the Divine. This relates man to man and mankind to God, thereby creating mutual understanding, cooperation and community life in peace and harmony. On this basis I want to build one humanity without any religious caste or other barriers in a universal empire of love which could enable My devotees to feel the whole world as their own family.
Baba

It was black and white, black and white, it was a patterns as I had seen it before between pink and grey, pink and grey, positive and negative, positive and negative and in the end was 'and what now?'

Equanimity and inner peace, all differences dissolve in the light

The most precious possession is equanimity, that is something we cannot give to anyone, even if we own it. For everybody it is hard to get. But we can talk about methods of self-discipline to others, with the help of serenity and inner peace (shanti) it can be obtained. Equanimity we cannot get by a higher standard of living, clothing, transistor radio, couches, air conditioning, etc.
Baba

It is the equanimity which is in question if there is no peace. With the focus on the light I went in direction of the inner Master and the feeling of going on in the presence of the yogi made it feel safe. It felt close to equanimity, what they called invincibility and peaceful inside.

Subtle Difference between Light and Mantra

All spiritual practice must be directed to the removal of the husk and the revelation of the kernel.
Baba

If we are on the wrong place, we cannot expect anything good. Today looking back and realizing I always had meditated with light, witnessed the light, been focused on light, I was different from the others. But with TM, which claimed to be everything, the difference got lost, as everything else gets lost. I was not like the others, but I was not aware of it. TM is that taking over, being so simple it infiltrated into everything.

Observe and Wait; the strenght of an elephant

“As the food as the mind, as the mind so the thoughts, as the thoughts so the action, as the action so the destiny.”
Baba

Observing thoughts, feelings, life situations, I tried to get back to the inner self. It was not a question of understanding yet, just a question of where it had gone. Everything felt ouside only and had really nothing to do with the inner self, and I didn't know where it had gone.

Soham Meditation, take in God, leave out Ego

What is the inner meaning of the Inhalation and exhalation processes, i.e., 'So - Ham'? 'So' means 'That' (God); 'Ham' means I. The sum and substance of this is, we have to take God into us ('So' -Inhalation) and leave out Ahamkaram ,i.e., ego ('Ham' - Exhalation). This is called "Hamsa Gayathri".
This Inhalation and Exhalation process goes on continuously for 21,600 times in a day in us. This means, you welcome God into you and drive out ego from you as many times. So long there is ego in you, you will never be happy.
Baba

The exhalation feels like 'not that', only on the breath level. We don't even need to think it, the breath does it, but we still need to be aware of the breath.

The absence of something (Osho)

Here a text, the words of Osho about something missing. The absence is painfull, and he explains why it cannot be solved on that level, because it is something which doesn't exist.
What is missing that is the light, therefore, they don't fight darkness directly, because it is not real, but it shows problems.
The missing light has to do with right understanding. We are not even aware that we have those problems, that is the absence of self-awarness. The same with empty values, it is the absence of light and right values. It is of no use to fight the wrong values, because they are the absence of something else. Therefore, I like that text, it makes it so clear. 
What is missing in an 'empty Western shoe' is the absence of fullness, of real values and of light.
Baba tells that 'Yogis are our friends', because that is the missing light. With TM missing is the awarness of friendship, they just talk about technique. The missing link is the light, the relationship, if that is not there, what is left in the end is nothingness.
The text of Osho, a lot of text, anyhow I copied it. And don't worry about the contradiction, light is excluding darkness, whereas, in the dark the light is missing. The light never will be empty and the dark never will be full.
The body is the instrument and therefore, dark. But the self is awarness and observer and always light. The dark cannot see and the light is constantly growing awarness. And sexuality will always be on the mind level and the love of the higher self will always be in the light and go beyond it. That are basic things which never change.  

The darkness of loneliness cannot be fought directly. It is something essential for everyone to understand, that there are a few fundamental things which cannot be changed. This is one of the fundamentals: you cannot fight with darkness directly, with loneliness directly, with the fear of isolation directly. The reason is that all these things do not exist; they are simply absences of something, just as darkness is the absence of light.

Spiritual lessons, after putting it into practice we only can share it

"Mastering the spiritual lessons is directly proportional to the extent of one’s patience and intelligent skill.
The texts of India insist on the value of actual practice and the need to confirm the truths only by experiencing their impact personally.
After mastering the texts and gaining experience in putting the lessons into actual practice, you not only receive bliss and grace, but you can also share the wisdom and the joy with others."
Baba 

Tat tvam asi, I am that, Vedanta

The Mahavakyas are: (the big theorems)

1. prajñānam brahma - "Consciousness is Brahman" Aitareya Upanishad
2. ayam ātmā brahma - "This Self (Atman) is Brahman" Mandukya Upanishad
3. tat tvam asi - "Thou art That" Chandogya Upanishad
4. aham brahmāsmi - "I am Brahman" Brhadaranyaka Upanishad 

Kanchi Paramacharya, in reference to the four Mahavakyas.
Tat Tvam Asi, one of the Mahavakyasm, Vedanta. 
The self in its pure and original condition - is completely or partially identical with the "Ultimate Reality", the ground and cause of all phenomena.
The knowledge (jnana) determines the experience of Moksha (liberation) or healing that accompanies the mystical union.
Another interpretation is expressed that the outside world is identical with the ego. (Wikipedia) 
The three main Vedantic directions:
• The Advaita in essence translated as "That," which refers to the ultimate reality (Brahman), and 'tvam' (the individual self jiva) as exactly the same.
• The Vishishtadvaita is 'that', the individual self, as part of the whole.
• The Dvaita interpretation 'atat tvam asi', meaning "You are not that". It is practiced as "Neti, neti", that means 'not this, not that'. 

"This atman, which dwells in the heart, is smaller than a grain of rice, smaller than a grain of barely, smaller than a grain of mustard, smaller than a grain of millet, smaller than the germ which is in the grain of millet; this atman, which dwells in the heart, is also greater than the earth [the sphere of gross manifestation], greater than the atmosphere [the sphere of subtle manifestation], greater than the sky [the sphere of formless manifestation], greater than all the worlds together [that is, beyond all manifestation, being the unconditioned]." Chandogya Upanishad (Wikipedia)

And that reality is what Sai Baba represents. God is bigger than the biggest and smaller than the smallest, Atman the indweller of the heart.
Do you wonder why I know that? I have been twice nine months, alltogether eighteen months in a TM teachers training listening only to tapes during eight hours a day, there had to be something in that training.
During the time with Baba he made it a living reality from inside mirroring the teaching as 'I am that' being one with him, first only two and then expanding to the whole group.
I am that. Thou are that. All this is that. The final conclusion is, I am Brahman, aham brahmāsmi.

My big love, the error gone

Think now. Does error clog the free flowing Essence of My Being through you?

Ask Me this moment to reveal to you your errors
In the silence of your meditation.
Let old memories well up in you, from My subconscious in you...
Old patterns..., old forgotten feelings and thoughts.
Now plunge them into the Ocean of Light, burn them from the consciousness
So that you may be true emblems of My Being.
Sathya Sai Baba