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Baba
Baba explains in the Bhagavad Gita II and his thought for the day, that karmas take man to dizzy heights or throws him down to abysmal depths. All the good and bad of man are bound by the karmas. By karmas we can perform sacrificial rites or charitable acts. What is the result of these karmas? To take us to heaven; only to that extent. But there is something higher than this heaven on earth; the period of one's stay in the heaven is not permanent. One has to return sooner or later. It is only a temporary camp. And we may think we can enjoy physical or sensory pleasures in heaven, these might be slightly better than what we had enjoyed on earth. Nothing more.
There is something higher than heaven. This is the divine atma tatwa. That is Brahma samyoga, the union with Brahman, constant integrated awareness of the atma.
To attain that Krishna advised Arjuna to perform desireless action. The highest level is to perform karmas with no desires at all.
I have seen former TM-people lost in abysmal depths, not only lost, but dying very soon after a certain time, because it was impossible to get an answer. After having lost the promised 'heaven' not finding their way round anymore, they got somewhere lost on the way..., and it was worth than hell. Nothing not permanent is worthwhile to go for.
I have to write I don’t know how often about it to get aware of it and it grows the inner understanding in holding our focus on it.
I remember how I wondered with TM where the husband had gone, when it felt like marriage in the air. Our commitment is different if we feel it like marriage, but because the master was not present, it got lost. The first TM-teacher, the one I went into and began all the courses, he seemed on a level of husband, but it was not the real husband, it was just the replacement Guru.
To understand that is very difficult. I went to Sai Baba and had an interview with him. We went with our group in the second room behind the first room and he asked; what do you want?
I had been with my boyfriend, who was the national leader, with the Maharishi before, something was wrong because above the Maharishi was ‘criminal’ in the air. So I tried to do it right and therefore, I said to Baba that my friend was with the Maharishi in New Delhi and I was with him and Baba asked me, who is your friend, is your friend with the Maharishi or is the Maharishi your friend? I didn’t know the answer and he said that it is very difficult to understand, I should just think about God and that TM is not the right path.
The role was changed, the leader felt like a friend and he was no friend and above the master was written ‘criminal’ in the air and it felt all upside down.
Now the husband role got lost with the first TM-teacher I went into TM with, it was not the guy who I got initiated, but the one I began to do courses with, I went on the Siddhis course and after I went for the TM-teacher and there was the feeling of ‘marriage’ in the air, but no husband.
What happen is the role of the ‘husband’ got lost, but also the role of the physical husband, because I had been together before with someone and with TM also that got lost. The Maharishi was there, but not as master. He was just teaching a technique, but in the insight it said that they were all puppets and the hand was not there holding them. If we make out of people puppets they are dependent on the hand, but if the hand is not there, it is projected to the one who should be holding the strings and that is the leader. Out of that reason I saw the leader as the friend and he was no friend, he was just worried about his role as national leader and not on the level of a yogi, so that is why everything turned in no time upside down.
They all appeared as enemies, when yogis should be out friends and I felt exposed to the leader, because he was not the real husband, but he could do with people what he wanted.
The worst thing is being lost in that. It is like the ‘husband’ is a replacement partner only and it is on the spiritual master, also a love relationship, but as he is not there, it gets projected on any guy who is there getting us into it and all relationships get lost behind it.
In an Osho book I read that he said that with TM people do get lost because the master is not at his place.
It is that difficult to understand, I don’t wish anyone to be in that. It took me years and years to get to the bottom of it and it was all there in that question when he asked, who is your friend, is the Maharishi your friend or is your friend with the Maharishi.
That is why after all it ended in a black hole, it is the missing husband. Feeling at home, where we are not really at home, not knowing to whom we belong and the relationship got lost.
I went step by step back in the experience through all the different relationships to get finally back to the reality that it was all upside down because the master was not there.
Puppets are dependent on the one who made them puppets, they have no real knowledge, it is all learnt by heart, so they are related to the person who was holding the strings and they automatically project the relationship on that person and that was the leader and he could do with people what he wanted to do and he got aware of it and took advantage of it, he didn’t realize why it was like that. So after all the marriage was based on the master, because he made us TM-teachers, so we were like puppets on a string and he was ‘husband’, but he was not there and the one I went into it was also not there, so it was projected on the leader and he was an actor only and everything went upside down.
It was an awful experience and it was even worse to understand. Without Baba I would never have understood it. It was impossible without the inner master to get to the right conclusion and to look at the relationship level, all those people involved it went lost with … without his feedback in the inner view it would not be possible to understand it.
Because it was about a yogi, when it came to that, it was like a shock, the thoughts stopped and it was not possible to get closer to that reality and why it was that upside down, it was not even possible to think.
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