Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Safety First and the Mind Trap

Following the master in the beginning … direction of light.
It is not just waiting, it is a process. And in the end I got aware of unity.
But I projected it, helped to explain things.

Suppose we would both be doing TM now.
I would not take note of his guidance, all stress only, would take the mantra, relax, do nothing at all, meditating, thinking all is done, all problems solved.
There would be no path, no problem.
If there is light, not question, I would not follow the inner master, and years later it would still be there, because the inner master is not going away and we would wonder why, cut off, as too much time passed, not noticed, the situation changed, it doesn't fit in, never answered.
And I would go on meditating, working with the leader, feeling exposed, not knowing why.
Just meditate and all problems are solved, we think we will know in time, but it doesn't go away, as it wants to make aware of something and TM ignores it, telling that is the right thing to do, all problems will be solved, but we do not understand the insights and get the message, cut off and it is because of the technique.
It gets only worse, he can do what he likes, supported by everybody and the master, we miss the real relationship, because we do not remember our real relationship, there was the feeling of marriage, but there was no husband, where is he gone, lost in TM. 
Counting on the master, the doer, a black hole is there. It is a shock and no way out, how did we get in that trap?
It is a mind trap. 
Therapy work helps to understand that a black hole means, the master not there, it is difficult to understand. It is in the mind, something missing always on the mind level, the black hole. TM turned into sickness. It is not safe, even if they tell 'safety first'.
The doer is never there. 
It means the experiences is cut off, there is no reflection of he object and every object has its reflection, it is called the Pratibimba. 
With TM the reflection of the object no matter what object is always the same, only TM, whatever we do, we get to the conclusion that we just need to meditate and there will be no problem. So the reflection reminds us that there is something else and not just a technique which seems to solve all problems. 
How did he do it that there is no reflection? The master is not present and therefore, no realized being is reflecting truth, no Darshan and only the top people war in touch with him. There is no reflection in the light of the self, if there is no higher realized self and that people have not realized the self, therefore, they don't look for the reflection of the object. 
The reflection reminds us that there is an object and not just a technique, the means to understand it is gone. 
If you strive to find your Self by using your mind, you will strive and strive in vain, because the mind cannot give you the Truth. You are that Self. All else is illusion of the mind's creation.
But there is Baba, we go to him, have to clear up past stuff, as the yogi is not there, the friend is not a friend, we felt exposed to him, and there was no confidence anymore, because the reflection is different from the object and what they teach, it is not what it should be and that doesn't make sense, the mind is trapped in thinking about science and search on mind level.  
Suppose there is the light again, we find it again after a long time, it was there, but somehow we had missed it… and it is still present in the reflection, but we cannot understand it, because the technique is making it impossible to think and if we are not able to think and enquire, we cannot understand it, we are cutt of the source, the object is cut off from its own reflection and on that path we cannot get any answer at all, because it is misguided on the wrong level in the mind and not in Atman.
How much time lost, for a not right path?
As it looks easy, simple, proved by scientific research, all safe, nobody noticed it. 
What is the outcome of it? 
It feels like time wasted, effort and life wasted, the question is what to learn from it, and how to go on. He really screwed it up.  

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