Who is I, right focus

I have come to light the lamp of love in your hearts, to see that it shines day by day with added luster.

Baba

When the self appeared in sleep, it was a white light, reflected outside of the body. 
The body was asleep and dark. It was the reflection of light, all I loved, full and empty, all the same, whole and everything because nothing else seemed to matter, and nothing, as it had no substance.

My Flight is Booked

If there is righteousness in the heart,

There will be beauty in the character.

If there is beauty in the character,

There will be harmony in the home.

When there is harmony in the home,

There will be order in the nation.

When there is order in the nation,

There will be peace in the world.

Baba

It felt real. I began to be more free, and that was not it. I got so certain when thinking he is it. He is there and makes a step, and I get hilarious, now you can go on and follow, make not one, but three steps.

Difficult Times

The Grace of God is like insurance. It will help you in your time of need without any limit.

Baba

All planed and now, I don't know what to do and he will not be there.  
I remember how many tears we had when he had an accident years ago.
So I get aware of his love, it is in the air.

Baba is in Hospital

You cannot see Me, but I am the Light you see by.

You cannot hear Me, but I am the Sound you hear by.

You cannot know Me, but I am the Truth by which you live.

Baba

We got today the news that Baba is in the hospital.

My experience in the dream when he was holding up the door and there was nothing behind the door but darkness has a different meaning.

Safety First and the Mind Trap

Following the master in the beginning … direction of light.
It is not just waiting, it is a process. And in the end I got aware of unity.

But I projected it, helped to explain things.

We are the Same, don't let Us Down

If you strive to find your Self by using your mind, you will strive and strive in vain, because the mind cannot give you the Truth. You are that Self. All else is illusion of the mind's creation.
Baba

The relationship is him, he is the mirror. He is the doer, and he is the reflection. He is it and he is the insights.

Song of Love

God, if you think, God you are 
Dust if you think, dust you are 
As you think, so you become 
Think God, be God.
Baba

How much my heart is longing for you, it pains that much and how much it loves you, and there is that feeling of knowing you for a long time. 
You are the closest to me, dear and near.
I feel your touch and your intimicay, just being one.
My haert is longing for you.
Life is all about small things, like a touch, like knowing that we are one, a glance, holding your hand, my everything, and knowing you as fulfillment of my life.
Feeling you in the air, the silence around, is the fragrance of love and beauty and that is part of you, the beauty, the love and the light and the endless ocean.

Ready to Fly to Baba

Nations are many, but Earth is one;  
Beings are many, but Breath is one;  
Stars are many, but Sky is one;  
Oceans are many, but Water is one;  
Religions are many, but God is one;  
Jewels are many, but Gold is one;  
Appearances are many, but Reality is One.
Baba

At work it is quiet as usually on Monday moring. I am glad I have in such moments the internet.

With my colleague I was just talking about India, as will be flying to Bangalore Thursday in a week. I haven't been there for so long and since 89 I never went alone, that is kind of an unusual feeling to go all by myself and as I had that many Baba dreams I do really enjoy it.
Till now I was not even looking forward to it yet, but now I begin to enjoy the thought of travelling.

Self-Control - He is the Doer

You are not one person, but three:  
The one you think you are;  
The one others think you are;  
The one you really are.
Baba

Now this time we know for sure that he is the doer and it is about him being the doer and not we are the doer and if we are sure about it it begins to make more sense. 

We should trust in his Lila. There are so many situation and always it is the mind and we go on in that manner and we never get out of the mind, 

He is the doer, belonging

Ego lives by getting and forgetting;  
Love lives by giving and forgiving;  
Love is expansion; Self is contraction;  
Self is lovelessness; Love is selflessness.
Baba

Now I know why he asked that question. 
That was the question he had asked in the interview room, only I didn't know that he would give the answer. 

When he asked my ex with whom he came, with my wife. Who? 
She was not there, it was not real. That is why he told him in the dream, he lived a dream. 

The Gift of Unity

God is the Seed;
The Universe is the Tree,
Impulses and passions are the branches,
Intelligence is the flower,
Pure Consciousness is the fruit,
Love is the sweetness in the fruit.
Baba

This morning in waking up there was that unity, it felt amazing. 
I didn't want to get up to not get out of it, just stay in the feeling of being 'one', the same 'I am that' between us and it felt good, it is bliss.
That must be the inner unity, the inner husband. 

It is a mirror. 

Thank you for being a real person!
Whatever, just thank you that it is possible to do that. 
It feels like a gift, it feels great. 

Oneness, the Same 'I am That'

See God in everyone you meet;
See God in everything you handle;
Live together; Revere each other;
Let not the seeds of envy and hate grow and choke
The clear stream of love.
Baba

In  waking up was an amazing reality of oneness in the air. 
It was between you and I, there was a vision and we were the same 'I am that', it means we are the same. But of course, that is Baba, there was during Darshan the 'I am that' in the air and I had been meditating and I looked at it and I went on meditating afterwards and during meditation we were not able to think, we just repeated the mantra and when thoughts came, we went back to the mantra, so there was no thinking and that is why I didn't get aware of it, I just looked at it and the intellect was not working and that was due to TM and that was actually the problem. 
So I didn't realize that I was not able to think anymore and therefore, I didn't even realize that it was Darshan, I just closed the eyes and began again to meditate. 
Probably that was the reason that 'insights' were in the air like ballons and it was not possible to understand it, because TM made it impossible, we had lost the ability to use the intellect for anything else but meditation. 

So that is where it leads. He said to be ready the 25th at 3 PM and he said 'engaged' and now it was in the inner view the same 'I am that' between us. 
First he took the step and I had to follow him and be careful, ABC, always be careful and to always care. It was a Friday afternoon and at 3 PM I was at home and meditating and waiting. It had been in the meditation I had seen the 'I am that' and it was not possible to think anymore and to realize that the I am that was meditation and so Baba came from the inside and made it to meditation and we are the same, you have also been with TM, we are for sure the same on that level. 

First I began to write it down, tried to make some sense in my thoughts. It was not that calm inside. How to tell? What to tell? How to understand it? What is the next step to take?
That is quite something when Baba does something, but there is another side to it and I don't see yet, the time value..., now it is new and everything feels great and exciting, but what Baba does is for always, there has to be transformation. 
What it all stirred up and made come up in my mind. I hope it will calm down and we will again be able to think...

I listen to the Gayatri and am amazed that Sai Baba seems to express the rhythm of it in his movements, when he walks it feels like he hears it inside of him. 
That is why I prefer Bhajans to other songs, because in the rhythm is the harmony of an awakend consciousness.
But I listen to it to calm down the mind, not very calm, but on the other hand also fulfilled. It feels like bliss. 

Miracle and Picking up Needles

Where there is Faith, there is Love;  
Where there is Love, there is Peace;  
Where there is Peace, there is Truth;  
Where there is Truth, there is God;  
Where there is God, there is Bliss.
Baba

That is the relationship with Baba and what I hoped to get years ago with my ex, so I had been in a mud hole and there was ruin and he got me out of it as it seems and into another relationship to make it okay again. 
How did that happen? But there is something so peaceful in the air and a certain quality and depth, we cannot find usually and it feels that good. 
It felt before like that was all lost lost, it seems it was not lived on the right level, what do I know why it didn't work out - I did my best from my side and I had to take care of the child.

Cultural Differences

There is only one religion, the religion of Love;  
There is only one language, the language of the Heart;  
There is only one caste, the caste of Humanity;  
There is only one law, the law of Karma;  
There is only one God, He is Omnipresent.
Baba

Once I was in Bangalore at the YMCA and someone told me to join the marriage celebration in the house and it was a Muslim marriage. 
It was a strange experience, because that girl had a sari over her head, there was a man, a taxi driver, he said he was her cousin and he explained to me what happened. He said she was married to a cousin of hers and that she knows him and will be enjoy it after all, but in that moment she didn't know it yet and she was sobbing, it was not joyful and when I thought of our marriages it was such a difference, she felt to me like cattle that had been sold, like a cow on the market. 

Scared

Life is Love, enjoy it;  
Life is Challenge, meet it;  
Life is a Song, sing it;  
Life is a Dream, realize it;  
Life is a Game, play it;  
Life is a Goal. achieve it.
Baba

Why do I worry?
Those past memories of mothers sickness came up, the mourning time and that felt not reassuring and that feeling created by it just doesn't go away, it is like in the air.
I am worried, and don't know really why.
It feels like in my self I know that all those dreams with Baba have a meaning, but my mind doesn't want to see it or it is too bad to be able to see it.

A New Beginning

If wealth is lost, nothing is lost.  
If health is lost, something is lost.  
If character is lost, all is lost.
Baba

It is quite something. 
He really said the 25th and 3 pm..., and during meditation to be ready I meditated at that time, it was still a big surprise when he said engaged. 

Maybe it is because I had been in a relationship and we had met in Baba's ashram or better in Kodai. 

Engaged

Before marriage, he is half body. Before marriage, she is half body. Lady is always left side. Right side is gent's. 
The gent's body is always the right side of the wife. Now you have only one body. In Indian philosophy or custom, this is called ardhangi. (Ardha means half.) Wife before marriage is only ardhangi, half body. Now the left side is joined with the right side and you are full body.
Baba

It feels like marriage. 
I need inner space and peace to get to insights.
He is engaging me to you, feels like inside committment.
He was waiting at the door and is the husband, right side.
Maybe he doesn't want to leave me back alone in the world, because he said 'engaged'. 

He had said the date and the time before, it was two day ago, he said it in my dream in the inner view. He said, March 25, 3 PM and I meditated at that time and what was there, that was only a word.

Genius and Pyramid

Renunciation is the power of battling against evil forces and holding the mind in check.
Baba

There was in the dream a pyramid, it is also an insight. 
It is a triangle and it has a special quality. In astrology equilateral triangle has a harmonious value. 
I don't know yet what Sai Baba it telling me with it. I am trying to find and answer and I am afraid that I am looking too far, but there is no way than to look at it until we get an answer to the insights.

It was the path and it was as pyramid, a geometrical form, reflecting the path, just a form, and that has harmony and depth.  
The word genius was in the definition, the mythology.
And I have to follow that to find the meaning of it behind.
But it is also expressed as healing. Crystal healing and the chakra colors it works with the pyramid.

More Baba Dreams

Life is a bridge over the sea of changes. Do not build a house on it.
Baba

He was there in the dream, standing at the door, behind is not he, but nothing, just darkness ... 
The door is wide open.
Baba is standing at the right. 
Love my uncertainty, that is all what comes in my mind.
There was another picture, I was at darshan, people waiting, but I couldn't find him, where was he?
Why was he not there?

You Love to Fly

True devotion must not get dispirited; nor elated or satisfied with lesser gains; it must fight against failure, loss, calumny, calamity, ridicule and against egoism and pride, impatience and cowardice.
Baba

I dreamt of you and it was about the time in Neuchatel and there was Carl, he liked to fly, as he wanted to become an airpilot. 
That was a passion of him that flying and I could fly with him. 

I don't know

I don't know? Do you know?

I have the feeling it made sense, but now I have the feeling I don't get anything at all. That last part, I don't get.  

Ganesh Mantra - Obstacle Breaker

Here a ganesh mantra to break through obstacles.
Do you think it is easy and powerful enough, to get through obstacles?
I guess it would be much better than leaving it to mother nature.
A bhajan I cannot repeat like that. I will try and see where it goes. 
Facing changes that goes directly to a new level, what on body level can be complicated.
The chanting has to be so intense that it becomes a part of the self. We have to be it and become it to break through obstacles in the mind. Constant repetition gets part of the self.

The Song of Devi (Devi Mahatmyam)

O Devi,

you are Bhagavati, the highest wisdom,
you are the cause of salvation ...
You are the highest knowledge,
maintained by the wise, their redemption and hope ...
You are the soul of Brahman.
You are the source of the pure hymns in the Vedas.
You are Bhagavati embodied by the three Vedas.
You are the food that sustains life.
You're the one who takes away the pain of the world.
O Devi,
you are the wisdom that understands the importance of the Scriptures.

Actually, we should never forget it and she will be there.

Patanjali's sutra, and the not right path

We have three levels: Knowing, known and knower. Patanjali has also three levels: Dharana, dhyana and samadhi, that is samyama. (Focus, flow and merging)

Patanjalis' sutras used for results

I was in Paris, we lived quite happily, went in the cinema until morning, slept on the floor, had no furniture but a TV, and we had a cat. He belonged to the Hare Krishnas and they tried to live with nothing.