When the Soul Shines in its own Divinity

Liberation is attained when the Soul shines in its own divinity. 

Liberation is not a nation or a suburb in paradise where aristocratic residents secure good sites. 

Liberation is the condition of one who has shed delusion. Shed delusion, then grief will be destroyed and joy established. Removal of Grief (Dukha-Nivrithi) and Attainment of Bliss (Ananda-Prapthi), happen at the same time. Your mind is the villain, its other name is desire! When you pull out all the yarn from a piece of cloth, there is no cloth. So too, pull out all the desires from the mind; the mind disappears and you attain freedom! 

Grief and joy are the obverse and reverse of the same experience. Joy is when grief ends, grief is when joy ends. Just as you must set the table for two when you invite a blind person for dinner (the blind person and his/her companion), so too, grief and joy are inseparable.

Baba (thought for the day)

Last night we had a talk about discipline and it is kind of a hot topics, but it ended well, even though it seemed kind of a miracle to me first, but I guess it depends the knowledge and it was somehow great. Whatever it was, but it felt like blissful ...

Behind that self-discipline which is required to get to sathva is also a loaded tensed energy. Listening and thinking we understand it is just the first step and the second is to think it over and to get aware that what we first thought as all understood is not that and it is a challenge and there is movement and energy and Rajas, it is passion and hot and only afterwards we get to the experience of 'that' and Sathva, we get to the light and the reflection of 'that'.
It is about: Who am I? And it is about the answer: 'I am that'.
'From darkness to light'.
 

It was a great experience last night, but today it felt kind of up and down, probably because I enjoyed it last night. Usually I don't do that. I go into something else or I write and I don't just enjoy of it felt that right to be in that environment, I got upset where I was, because it just doesn't feel right. 

After our study circle it felt peaceful like Prasanthi when people were sitting and waiting for Bhajans or Baba Darshan, it was great. 

We had a lively study circle and in the end it was about 'you and I' and that we are 'we' and is He and that is the circle. That was great, because in that moment he was present, it was real in that instant.

It felt that quiet and peaceful alive as it did in Prasanthi, when people were waiting for Darshan and we were all in Baba's presence. 

It was a great conclusion and it was based on the thought for the day, if we just listen it is Tamas, dull and dark and we have to move into the light. But the question was, how we are doing that. In just staying dull and not doing anything? In not responding and refusing to communicate or thinking it is all done anyhow, what is delusion? We have to integrate it ourselves and that means we have to think it over. 

And that was the point about self-control and that we cannot just talk out our mind, because in thinking it over passion is coming up. And someone was feeling it that passion and not happy about it that we talked about a circle and discipline and self-control and that is just what is happening. The people who are used to the study circle and participate always they took it easy, we are laughing and sharing and having a good time.

And after going round and round in the circle, we finally got to that conclusion, you - all the people present and whoever and I are We and we is He. He is the circle. 

It was great how it felt. That was incredible to feel that peaceful and awake inner presence of Baba in the midst of the group. We have to get that experience, there is no other way.

He is alive in the experience of it - 'I am that', it is direct experience of his presence. 

This time I really came back happy it felt nearly like nothing could bother me... until today at work... I got that tensed, I also had to use self-control and I said to myself..., what happened to me.
It was that difficult to take that environment here and it felt for a short while like I was sitting on dynamite. 

That is when I decided to open my email and to spend the rest of time I have to sit here in thinking about something better. As I have not looked at all thoughts for the day in the last few days...

And that is how the energy changed, because I am occupied thinking about it. 

It is the same with experience, we have to think it over and absorb, if we don't do that, we get lost in our own experience and that is 'not that'. The joy we feel is the presence of all, the group and that 'we' are 'He' is uplifting, but it is not the same when alone, it is not on that level, it has to be shared. 

 

Liberation is attained when the Soul shines in its own divinity.

 

That is how I take Baba's text and in thinking about it, I begin to do the same process again, thinking it over and absorb and by absorbing the experience of 'I am that' - 'that' is the level of 'sath', we get in the process of 'chit' and that is like a spiritual school, we have to learn our lesson to understand it right. We cannot just leave it that and all is done and if it is all absorbed, it will be bliss. 

To enjoy that freedom in the self, is also the freedom of the group, even though we experience it together.

In thinking it over we get to that inner focus which is needed to get back to our inner freedom.

Liberation is the condition of one who has shed delusion. Shed delusion, then grief will be destroyed and joy established. Removal of Grief (Dukha-Nivrithi) and Attainment of Bliss (Ananda-Prapthi), happen at the same time. 

In the moment we enjoy the last nights sathsang just as memory and we identify with it on our own, individual level, it is already gone again, because that is part of illusion. We have to get aware of it. 

In thinking about it and reflecting on it, we shed the delusion.  

Removal of Grief (Dukha-Nivrithi) and Attainment of Bliss (Ananda-Prapthi), happen at the same time. Your mind is the villain, its other name is desire! When you pull out all the yarn from a piece of cloth, there is no cloth. So too, pull out all the desires from the mind; the mind disappears and you attain freedom! 

 

That is what happened in the circle, we removed grief and attained bliss. There is the mind and the desires, what is the inner desire when remembering how great it was yesterday, to keep it going and if it doesn't, we get frustrated. But if we want it to go on, we have to know how to remove 'stress and grief' and it is not just meditation, it is also a self-effort to understand it. We begin again, follow the master, fight to the end, finish the game. If we pull out the yarn of the cloth it is the same as getting aware inside, not this and not that, (neti, neti), not the mind, not the body and that is how we remove it and get free. 

It is about the know-how. The ancient texts tell us how it is done. 

We have to be quite awake to get aware of out desires in the mind, because there are always desires coming up. 

Watch - words, action, thoughts and character. 

So too, pull out all the desires from the mind; the mind disappears and you attain freedom! 

Everything conceptual is on the level of 'not that'... If we remember a good feeling from yesterday it is 'not that', because it is a feeling and it was not a feeling when it came up in the circle. In the circle it was 'He', if we remember him as a 'feeling', that doesn't work, it is not the right level, we are in the mind. 

We have to get there and the process is, first step we should discriminate between what is real and what is not real. If we are not aware of our hidden desires, we will not get aware that it is 'not that' and we are caught in illusion. We can only attain freedom in getting aware of it. Think it over, watch, be aware, be alert, know the difference and at the same moment when the clouds go bliss is there. 

Grief and joy are the obverse and reverse of the same experience. Joy is when grief ends, grief is when joy ends. Just as you must set the table for two when you invite a blind person for dinner (the blind person and his/her companion), so too, grief and joy are inseparable.

If we feel joy, grief waits at the corner, because we have to lose it to find it again. 

It was kind of strange, because usually there are hardly ever emotions coming up when I am at the phone, but today it felt emotional and people on the other end get aware of it on the spot, not so pleasant. 

It was time to change and to find the reason hidden behind, what means to think it over and to think of something better than what is just around here. That is no nourishment for the higher self.
In getting aware of it, we get out of it, in removing the grief, we find joy.