Difference between Happiness and Peace

Everyone is after happiness. The hunt for comfortable jobs and positions of influence, the founding of banks and business houses, the growth of bungalows – all these are evidences of the eagerness to live in happiness. But there is no real eagerness to live in peace.
Happiness should not be confused with peace. No one rich, well placed, prosperous or powerful has peace. Peace cannot be found in passbooks or iron safes. You can investigate and verify this truth yourself. Peace cannot also be ensured by the piling of bombs and weapons. Mere terror and counter-terror will not establish cordiality and harmony. Realize that the physical is subordinate to the spiritual. The secret to peace lies in service and love towards all beings.
International peace cannot dawn until the minds are cleansed of hatred and terror; remove these two evil traits within each heart and plant therein love and service.
Baba

That means our motivation is different from the outcome. We look for happiness, but we don't get it because there is no peace. If we live in peace it makes happy.

When I met my ex I went for it because of Baba behind, I thought he would make sure it would go in the right direction. 
If happiness is not there, we quickly adapt and find another situation which seems to be happier, but peace is a spiritual training.
That was the difference between my ex and me.
I went for it in Baba’s presence to make sure I would not lose the aim of going in direction of peace and with the focus to reach peace.
As it didn’t work out, Baba called me to him to make peace with him.
My ex had no notion of it, not even when we were with Baba, disturbing the inner peace he cancelled our financial resources thinking that my parents should take care.
He was stupid, he didn’t know what he was doing.
Already when he said that 'I belonged to him' he didn’t know what he was doing, because I spoke of an interview question Baba had asked and he took advantage of it. He never asked himself if that was answering a spiritual question, and he couldn't live with it that it was not the right answer.
Tonight I went from one nightmare to the other.
When I was meditating I focused on the breath getting finer and on the sound of it ‘Soham’. As we know from TM it had to become finer to transcend. The sound is the main level to transcend. It felt alright.
The shock came up when that ended in a black hole and the question was, what had a technique to do with a black hole?
Even if the mantra and the becoming finer was right and it felt like it would go on forever. There appeared a black hole and that ended up in doubt, something was wrong and that made it not better, but worse. And there were no answers and no peace.

Acquantances and feeling at Home

Just close your eyes for five minutes and think of the profit your efforts have won for you. One wish always leads to another and this goes on like a never ending chain. Initially, you wish to marry, then you get a daughter or a son, after this you desire to finish their education, marriage and the list goes on and on. The joy one gets by fulfilment of any desire is imperfect, limited, temporary and pregnant with grief. The secret to true happiness lies in detachment (vairagya). The tongue has oil, fat and greasy substances rolling over it, but it is unaffected by these and does not become greasy.

The mind too must be tamed to be unaffected by the experience of success and failure, gain and loss, well-being and illness. Practice surrendering at the feet of the Lord at all times; let His will prevail.

Baba

Years ago I lived in a relationship with a neighbour and after it was finished, that guy turned into the opposite, it was not friendship but manipulation. After was disturbance in the air only felt by me. Everybody in the family said, what do you have, there is nothing.

Most of abuse are offenders acquainted with the victims; often relatives, brothers, fathers, uncles or cousins and other acquaintances such as 'friends' of the family, babysitters or neighbors.

Tell a Lie Long Enough and the Sheeple will Believe

Tell a lie big enough, loud enough and long enough and the sheeple will believe.
JS

We meditate here a lot. This morning I was meditating with the others and some TM memory came up and just for a moment I felt that sick, I had to stop and wait a while to go on.
After I wondered what did made it come up. Meditation is in general an easy exercise and we don't do any effort, but I noticed before that I got sick when TM came in my mind

The principle of Atman, Atma thathwa, is not changing and therefore, always the same.
It is an inner reality and we find it in consciousness.
The technique and the programs with TM are established to keep the teaching pure, it means the Atma principle, pure they understand as no change, but not inside, but on the outside and that doesn't work. Outside everything is changing, inside it is not and the master is not there.

Sacrifice or how we build the Roof

Perform abhisheka (puja, yagya and arati) to the Atma-linga (the Divine within), with the waters of your own pure mental impulses (Chittha-vritthi).
What is true yajna (ceremonial sacrifice)?
Giving in charity accumulated wealth is Dravya yajnam.
When all physical and mental activities are utilized for sadhana (spiritual discipline) it is Thapo yajna. (Tapas)
Doing karma (action) but yet remaining unbound by it, is Yoga Yajna.
When the mind (chittha) moves in one direction and the sense organs (indriyas) move in another, the person is doubly confused. So keep attachment afar. When you accomplish this, every act of yours becomes a sacrifice (Yajna).
Whatever you speak becomes a holy mantra; and the place where you plant your foot is rendered holy.
Baba (thought for the day)

 
My first reaction to that thought for the day was like, no that is difficult too many Sanskrit expressions. 
But that should just be a reason to at least try to understand it. If we look closer at it after all it is not that difficult.
Baba tells first we should do puja or yagna or arati to the inner higher self, (Atma-linga) is the inner God in the heart. 
And how should we do it? By keeping our thoughts and intentions in the mind pure. Therefore, what he tells is to keep purity in the mind and that is the best offering to the inner divinity. 

And then he tells us how to do real sacrifice. 
If we have lots of wealth, we can use it for charity.
If all our mental and physical intention goes in direction of spiritual discipline, it is called Tapas.
If we are performing action, Karma and are not bound by it and giving the result to him only it is Yoga.
But if the intention of our mind and the senses go into different directions, we get even more confused, double confused, because we see the mind in charity, but the senses are enjoying themselves and we think by the mind we go in direction of the divine, but on the sense level there is attachment, the result is big confusion.

The Core of the Problem, Hidden Intentions

Be in the world like a maid servant in a rich man's house. The maid servant deals with all the objects and things always knowing that nothing belongs to her and that this is not her true home.

Baba

The kernel was there in my dream as usual making me from inside aware of it.

First with the reality that everything is relative, we really cannot take anything with us and the question is not how much we have, but how we leave that world, how we die.

We don't have everything as long as we didn't realize the higher self. 

And my ex when he said that 'I belonged to him', he took advantage of the interview. Baba had asked to whom I belonged, and I spoke about that interview because there was no other way to get answers but by communication. It was not just there as insight, it had to be expressed. Like now if there is a picture inside like the core of it, it doesn't get clear by itself, but it brings up certain things and by that it gets clearer. 
But why did it happen, because my own father was like that, therefore, I was not aware of it and therefore, it was still a mirror to get it in the open. 
But I should not call it a Baba lila, because it is a conditioning and that has its own dynamics. These are patterns. It is not the divine will that it should happen, it happens because of illusion, because of the patterns. He is the mirror, the reflection in the mirror changes corresponding to the mind looking at it and the brain inferring. It is not his will, it just happens because of Karma, divine law. 

Cultivate the inner View

Everything in this world is ephemeral, transitory; it is here today, but it may not be here tomorrow. So, if you desire for something, seek the Lord, who has no decline. Instead, if you crave for progeny, wealth and all comforts, you will suffer untold misery when you are called upon to leave everything and depart. At that moment, you would lament, “Oh, did I love so deep that I may weep so loud?” In this transitory life, joy and pain are also perforce transitory. There is nothing here fit to be worshipped as eternal. So, to get immersed in this search for the evanescent and to forget the Supreme and the Everlasting is indeed unbecoming of man.

Baba

My hotel bed is that hard, I turn around and around and if not the bones hurt, so for sure something else.

In the first interview Baba asked, what do you want? I explained to him that my boyfriend was with TM and I was with him and that was my situation. What I wanted was 'understanding', knowing how to go on and he said, 'that is very difficult to understand'.

In the mean time I have understood that God is very difficult to understand because he is everything, but also not.

Baba asked everybody, what do you want? He explains that even if we had the best birth and a great childhood, we still have to get liberation from birth and death.

I know someone who said that when he asked her what she wanted, she answered, she had everything. I dreamt about it, it woke me up.

We never have everything, what is the use of all material values if we don't have health. And even if we have health, we still are not enlightened.

“The incarnations of the Lord are not accepted as such by many.  Even their parents, kinsman and comrades hesitate to adore them.  Only a very few sages, who cultivated the inner view through study and sadhana, know their reality.”

Baba

Kodaikanal and beautiful Moments

Baba at Kodaikanal

The Atma (Soul) is inherently devoid of attachment. It has no awareness of its own needs or nature of its possessions. It has no 'I' or 'mine' for these are the marks of ajnana (Illusion). Only those afflicted with ajnana will suffer from the ego or the sense of 'mine'. Though it may appear to ordinary eyes that ‘I am the doer’, the truth is ‘I am a non-doer’!

Not only this, the effect of action (karma) does not cease as soon as it is finished. Karma yields fruits; the results of Karma breed desire for them; and that in turn results in impulses for further Karma. These impulses bring about further births. Thus Karma can lead to the cycle of births and deaths; it is a vicious whirlpool, making you revolve round and round, and finally dragging you down into the depths. So do not put your faith on this world and the objects of the world. Cultivate and practice detachment!

Baba

My colleague had surgery today and when I brought her some food, I found her in tears and the sadness that Baba has left the body came up.

She is that much self-controlled, she didn't allow the pain to come up. The surgery brought it up. 
I dreamt also of Baba tonight, I saw him very clearly and when I close the eyes I see him walk around and that wonderful love which was in the air always.

She made me remember last year being with him. We were waiting for him to come back on Easter and they brought him back in a coffin.

She made it come up again, that moment. I was standing at the window and saw the ambulance bringing him back like that in a coffin. There are no words to tell how sad it felt.

Her sadness got it up in me too. 

I have never experienced anything more sad and that went on for days.

The Colours of the Rainbow

God is not to be spoken of as coming down or going up, since HE is everywhere.
Baba

We are in Brazil and it began to rain and it rained all night. 
Today was the first day at the Casa and it was a great meditation experience. There was the light of the chakras and the triangle I had in my dream some time ago, the pyramid. 


During meditation there was the light blue colour and I went up and down in the body and through the chakra colours. It began at the root and went up to the blue and there was the purple, blue and red together. 
It is a mixture of red and blue. 
It is an incredible spiritual place here, silent and undisturbed, I have never seen the colours of the chakras that clear. 


But I had to retire and absorb it, because I cannot meditate all afternoon and watch the chakra colours. 

Samadhi and Samyama; all Self-Control

One-pointedness is steadfastness of the mind.3.1
In that (Dharana) the continuous flow of similar mental modifications is called Dhyana or meditation.3.2
When the object of meditation only shines forth in the mind, as though devoid of the thought of even the self (who is meditating), then that state is called Samadhi or concentration.3.3
The three appearing together are self-control (Samyama)3.4

Patanjali Yoga Sutras Baba said to us in the interview room pointing at his dress, as we were all cold in Ooty and it rained a lot, he said, 'all self-control'. We were packed up in thick shawls.   We made between us and him a difference, put him high up above seeing him as God and us as human.  One-pointedness has something to do with being focused on truth only, on the higher self, on God, the observer, on Atman and not getting into the vagaries of the mind. (It means not just being focused during the exercise of meditation). Being focused on the observer, truth, we get to the second state of continuous 'flow' of a similar mental modification... (That was in the air when we met the Maharishi, a feeling of 'going on and on'. When trying to thank, he said that it was 'beyond thanks', but why he said it that gets only now clear in my mind - as the rest of the knowledge was not there. It was all about sutras and outer flying, it was not about samadhi.)

Stick to the right Path; Thousands of People...

Let me tell you that it is impossible to plumb the hearts and discover the natures of jnanis, yogis, ascetics, saints, sages, and the like.

People are endowed with a variety of characteristics and mental attitudes, so each one judges according to his own angle, talks and argues in the light of his own nature. But we have to stick to our own right path, our own wisdom, our own resolution without getting affected by popular appraisal.

Baba

I know the ashram as a place where thousands of people from all the world came together and some very disturbed minds. What do we expect from them, that they get it all? 
All that highest knowledge?

In the West if we have never seen such a big gathering, we don't even know how it looks, have not idea about the environment and therefore, we get a wrong impression.

There are thousands sitting together quietly and some have more disturbed minds. It is amazing that so many people can be together peacefully.

Samyama - Threefold Dicipline in Meditation

Listening

It is easy to criticise or belittle the "leelas" (plays) or infinite potencies of God. But it is very difficult to comprehend the truth about the Divine. The Omnipresent Divine is present both in Truth and untruth. He is present both in righteousness (Dharma) and unrighteousness (Adharma). He is present in good and evil. With regard to such an all-pervading Divine, how can anyone determine what is good and what is bad?
Baba

I can tell only from my own experience, my own truth.
Focus is for me self and self-realization, observing to know the difference between self and non-self until the self was there as inner light. That is experience of the difference and never changing truth.

Thinking it over

Absorbing

Focus is the first part of the threefold discipline. The second is meditation, flow, going on and on. If the focus was will-power and self-confidence, the second part is realizing on the feeling level it has no end, it is going on and on, no disturbance. And the third part of it is merging, Samadhi, it means even intellect and is the result of the two others.

What is not 'you' is luggage; less luggage, more comfort

Reduce the luggage you carry about when on the journey of life. Remember, all that is not ‘you’ is luggage. The mind, the senses, the intelligence, the imagination, the desires, the plans, the prejudices, the discontent, the distress - all are items of luggage. Jettison them, soon, to make your travel lighter, safer and more comfortable. Less luggage, more comfort.
BABA

All what is not 'me' is luggage? There was a baggage wagon with luggage in my dream and you were also on that wagon.  All what is 'not me', that is about everything. That is inside teaching.

Waiting waiting to find what was in the self, when everything seemed mind only.
Everything outside, if it was job, parent's house or the environment, it was not self-motivated. And here Baba tells it is in our thoughts and in desires.
What is 'me'? The self only.
Therefore, the mind the senses, the intelligence, the imagination, the desires, the plans, the prejudices.
And all the discontent... is also not 'that'. The self is light, love, beauty and truth, there is no discontent and distress.

Inner Light and Siddhi Powers

Remember always that it is easy to do what is pleasant. But it is very difficult to be engaged in what is beneficial. Not all that is pleasant is profitable. Success comes to those who give up the path strewn with roses and brave the hammer blows and sword thrusts of the path fraught with danger. As a matter of fact, no road is strewn with rose petals. Life is a battle field (a Dharmakshetra), where duties and desires are always in conflict. Smother the fiery fumes of desire, of hatred and anger that rise up in your hearts; it is sheer cowardice to yield to these enemies that turn you into beasts. Meet all obstacles with courage. Difficulties make you tough and strong.
Baba (thought for the day)

The memory of past meditations came up. That was the time with the TM leader, focused mostly inside into meditation. Focused on the inner light,

All these can also be gained by direct intuitive perception; (Or, by the practice of the threefold discipline on the inner light, all knowledge is gained). 3.33

Swamivenkatesananda Patanjali Yogs Sutras

He calls it the threefold discipline. It is not only meditation and going inside, it is inner focus, flow and unity to be Samyama, it is threefold. And a Patanjali sutra has to be practiced in the threefold discipline - Samyama.

Light-Beings (Homo Luminous) and the Bronchial Tube

Fill souls with My Light so that they may arise to life in Love!
I radiate Brahmanic Light through your Atmic Mahadoubles; They are like Light pipes!
The strata of the Absolute are your ‘clothes’, and you live beneath them.
Always perceive your new Atmic Bodies — to the Full Height! You have to learn to live with them; in this process, the physical body becomes divine and the soul’s control center moves into Paramatman — into the ‘I’ of God!
Baba

Every time we breath in we take in the light, with every exhale we get out the darkness of the ego and body identification, what is left - silence. In the light is only silence, it is calm and beautiful, but the result - we are light, it is the mirror.

Bronchial Tube

The sutra of Patanjali focus just on that bronchial tube where Prana is stored, we take in light and immortality. We exhale what is mortal and get transformed into light-beings - homo-luminous.
Soham, means I am that and takes in with every breath light. In the bronchial tube it is therefore calm and silent (Patanjali). And with Qigong we store the Chi, the light, in the navel.

Auspicious Breath and Meditation - Soham

The Divine, auspicious breath of soham emanates from a human being. Soham means “I am that” (Divinity). The sound of the breath in human being, i.e., soham establishes the nature of Divinity. If one tries to contemplate on the form without recognizing the sound, he will not be able to understand the nature of Divinity.

Soham is sathwic in nature. This sathwa guna is Easwarathwa (the Shiva Principle).

There is another principle that emanates from this Divine breath, namely, Vishnuthwa (the Vishnu Principle). What is the form of this Vishnu Principle ? The feelings in the mind. In other words, mind is the Vishnu Principle.

There is yet another form which emerges from the navel of Vishnu, namely, Brahma. Thus, the principles of Brahma, Vishnu and Maheswara are emanating from the Soham Tathwa in a human being itself.

In this trinity, Shiva is the Soham Tathwa, Vishnu is the Mind and Brahma is the Vak Swarupa (in the form of words). It means, every word that emerges from the human being is Brahma; every resolve (sankalpa) emerging from the mind is Vishnu and every breath coming out of the body is Easwara.

Thus, Divinity is permeating the entire human body. The body is living, as long as the life breath emanates from the body.

Baba (Discourse delivered on the occasion of Dasara Celebrations – October 12, 2002)

link Baba Discourse

Meditation on the form without the sound of the transcendental OM (Soham), the mantra, it will not be possible to understand the nature of Divinity. Instead of focusing on the form, we can focus on the place in the body in general, the bronchial tube, it helps to get away from the form if for some reason it should seem difficult.

Indestructible - truth beyond the ups and downs of life

Vibuthi comes out of the picture

You are pure and indestructible; you are beyond the ups and downs of life; you are the true, the eternal, the unchanging Brahmam (Divine Self).

Golden Shiva Lingam
 materialized by Sai Baba

A mere five-minute inquiry will convince you that you are not the body, the senses, the mind or the intelligence, the name or the form; but that you are the Aatma Itself - the same Aatma that appears as all this variety.
Once you get a glimpse of this truth, hold on to it; do not allow it to slip. Make it your permanent possession. Look upon all with love, respect and faith in their sincerity. Treat your servants kindly. Do not entertain hatred or contempt in your heart. Repent for the errors that you commit and decide never to repeat them; pray for strength to carry out your resolutions. Do not find fault with others. Purify your heart by being good to all.
Baba (thought for the day)

Inner light

Tried find an indestructible symbol. That is the golden Shiva lingam Baba manifested at Shivaratri by Baba every year again. And another indestructible symbol is vibuthy, holy ash. There are some pictures of his the vibuthi just comes out like in that picture above.

You are the true, the eternal, the unchanging Brahmam (Divine Self).

How to be beyond the ups and downs of life? To reach that we have to be convinced that we are Brahman, consciousness, the divine self. 
And he tells to hold on to it to make it a permanent possession. 

The Sun; and basic Existence to Self-Realization

What exactly do people mean when they say the Sun has risen or that it has set? It is so far as their vision is concerned; that is all, is it not? The Sun does not rise or set. The incarnation of God is also like that. In the Geetha, Krishna said: “I am not born, nor do I die. Men of ordinary intellect consider that I am born many times and that I do many deeds during each birth. Whenever there is a need for the uplift of the world, I become manifest, assuming a name and form, that is all. So I am conscious of all My appearances, all My manifestations. I am almighty, I am Sarvajna (all knowing). Not only I, even you know everything. But your Jnana (wisdom) is overwhelmed by ajnana (ignorance). I am Jnana itself. I remain as almighty and as Sarvajna as ever. I am birthless, immortal”.
Baba (thought for the day)

 

I am still taken aback by today's feeling home and I am not able to make a decision. 

Discrimination has to observe. It is the difference between the real value, sath, the self, the observer and the outer changing value, level of the sense objects.

The sun stands for reality, not changing like the self.

To get the experience is basic knowledge, existence and we realize there is a level in the self which goes beyond everything which is changing on the level of the senses. That is the foundation of the house we wants to get.

The Building of Self-Realization; every Mantra is okay

Unless the foundation is strong, a building cannot stand firm and last long. So, the foundation is very important. You can construct any number of floors basing on a firm foundation. Self-confidence is the foundation. These days many do not have self-confidence. They do not even attempt to do anything worthwhile as they have no confidence in themselves.
How do you expect them to be successful?
If a person has no confidence in himself, what can be done for his progress? On the foundation of self-confidence are erected the walls of self-satisfaction. A man with self-confidence alone can have self-satisfaction. A man without confidence can never have satisfaction in his lifetime. So, the walls of self-satisfaction rest on the foundation of self-confidence.
Then the roof must be laid. Self-sacrifice is the roof. Gaining satisfaction out of confidence, one prepares oneself for sacrifice. You cannot live in a building without a roof. The roof rests on walls, and the walls, in their turn, stand on the foundation. Then, we live in the house. Life in such a house is self-realisation. So, everyone must develop these four `S's' - Self-confidence, Self-satisfaction, Self-sacrifice and Self-realisation.
Baba
The building Baba is talking about is strong. What is self-confidence? It is not on the mind level. It is not what we think it is. It has to be real, it has to be true.

Self-confidence to get a strong foundation. The picture last year before Baba left the body was kind of a pyramid, I mentioned the pyramid. That what the building. Decisions have to be self controlled, not mind controlled, that the foundation will get strong.
What is the difference? It has to come from inside, beyond doubt then it is self-controlled. And sometimes it needs to be even confirmed by a master to be sure.

Wait and go only for it when there is no more doubt. As long as there is doubt, we wait. 
It has to be the self, otherwise, it cannot be self-confidence. Wait until it is sure, our limitations will be challenged, we have to face the mind to go beyond it. 

Self-confidence trusts and knows it will be there, we have to get to the level of truth, the never changing truth.
That is the foundation and on that level are the walls, self-satisfaction, knowing it is right, inner trust in that self-confidence and the mirror which begins to reflect in that light of the self. 

The Fire of Emotion and Equanimity

Let the wave of memory, the storm of desire, the fire of emotion pass through without affecting your equanimity.

Baba

Equanimity is a nice balanced state of mind and it helps to be aware that the fire of emotions are ‘not that’. Emotions have no real value. If it is there, it is like energy with just enough air to create troubles.
The same with the wave of memory.

Follow your heart, see the reflection of the inner being

Follow your heart. All you have seen and experienced in life will try to appear before your mind's eye in the moment you remind yourself. This means that the whole universe exists within you. All you see is a reflection of the inner being. Everything you say is an echo of inner thoughts. All you do is a reflection of inner actions.
Therefore, if you act in accordance with your own inner impulses, that is right action (dharma). If you tell what you feel inside, it is truth (sathya). If you contemplate on the experience of your heart, it is peace (shanti). And if you understand the impulses of the heart right, it is non-violence (ahimsa). If you respect everything that comes from the heart it is love (prema). Sathya, Dharma, Shanti, Prema and Ahimsa are expressions of feelings that come from the heart.
Baba
I am amazed, because he is telling that the inner being is all there is. For me are those inner reflections based on the outward experience, and not yet just an inner insight of the universe.

The Patanjali Sutra experienced, getting closer to reality

Acquisition of positions of authority and power, of skill and intelligence which can manipulate people and things, of fame and supremacy, of personal charm, of good health and happiness or of a large family with many children or wealth… none of these can confer liberation. You cannot attain liberation by undertaking sacrifices, vows, charities, pilgrimages or donations to holy projects. Though the objective world appears real, you must be aware that it is deluding you. You must give up yearning for deriving pleasure from the objects that appear and attract – both here and hereafter. Renunciation alone can lead to immortality. You will be liberated as soon as you renounce your attachment and desire.
Baba

Patanjali Yoga Sutras
In this link the sutras are translated in different languages, easy and understandable

Divinity is beyond the three Gunas

Assertions that all or any activity or interaction between Sai Baba and devotees is abuse is based on hearsay and hyperbole (rumour and innuendo) which has built up to hysterical proportion without sufficient investigation. It presumes without evidence that all who enter are abused. Patently false. The 'curtain of shame' is a fallacy, which fails to discredit and disgrace Sai Baba. This fallacy cannot both require the 'divine power' of an avatar or godman to conceal and at the same time dispense with and deny 'divine power'. This cannot be reasonably offered in denial of the divinity of Sai Baba.

link to - Sathya Sai Baba responds

Baba is beyond the three gunas. What does that mean for us who have human bodies and a human mind?

The band of brothers, but strength is gone

Devotion to the Divine will give you Bliss, Prosperity and Peace. It cannot inflict pain, perturbation or personal anxiety. It fosters love and brings all together as one band of brothers.

Baba

I was meditating with the TM people, but was not one of them. But it felt good not being alone. But that was finished after I came back from Baba.

Ignorance, Blindness and Death

When we want to go to a cinema, or for an evening walk, we get ready by putting on our shoes. When we want to visit a nearby town, we pack our clothes in a bag. But what preparations do you make for the ultimate journey, the voyage of death?

Baba

Years ago still in Portland Baba was in the dream with two different faces, one had vampire teeth, the bloodsucker and the other face had a very long nose.  

It is a reflection and not a good one, my ex wanted two things, career and wife, and I had met him in the ashram. But I who ever get the idea that a reflection could be that ugly and perverted?

When once Brahma asked sage Naaradha what was the most amazing thing he noticed on earth, Naaradha replied, 'The most amazing thing I saw was this: The dying are weeping over the dead.' Those who are themselves nearing death every moment are weeping over those who have died, as if their weeping has an effect, either to revive the dead or prevent their own death!

Baba