The Fault Within

If you wear blue eyeglasses, you see only blue, even though Nature is resplendent with many colours. If the world appears to you as full of differences, that is due to the fault within you. If all appears as one love, that too is only your love. The feeling within is the root cause. When you have faults within, the world appears faulty. When there is no knowledge of fault in yourself, no fault can be found even by search, for you wouldn't know which are the faults. Now the question may arise whether the Lord Himself has faults as He also searches for faults. No, the Lord searches only for goodness. He won't examine the wealth, family, caste, status, or gender. He sees only the righteousness (sadbhava). He considers those endowed with such righteousness as deserving His grace, whoever they are, whatever they are. Therefore, develop goodness. Live and act in joy and love. These two are sufficient; with them, salvation can be attained without fail.

Baba (thought for the day)

Today we have to get aware of the faults within and that the world appears faulty if we have faults within. 

 

If you wear blue eyeglasses, you see only blue, even though Nature is resplendent with many colours. If the world appears to you as full of differences, that is due to the fault within you.

It is depending to the glasses we are wearing. If it was in the insight that I had been let down by the family and he took only advantage of it, getting the insight it also changes the color, it is not only blue, but something else and only if we get aware of the fault in the mind, we can get aware of the faulty vision. In thinking over Baba's words and seeing it in our life the insights get deepened and it develops in the inner view. 

Baba tells us he is the man who comes in our dream to awake us and he said in the dream that he is the insight and he is the following step. 

Insights are reflections of images in the dream stage and we don't understand it just like that, it is inner view and that inner view is in the dream stage. 

The waking stage is what we know, it is the mind and sense-knowledge, outward directed into the objective world and the dream stage is inside directed and as Baba explained always self-contained. 

If we think it over, can we understand such an insight with the mind? Certainly not, because the mind is part of the waking stage. If we don't listen to Baba's words, we don't get aware of the difference between the four stages of consciousness.

How can we get aware of the fault within, that the world appears faulty? 

In the moment we are aware of the fault, it is no more faulty. 

 

Since I am thinking over Baba's word I had moments when the past was again in the present like it would have been yesterday and I wondered why it came back years later. It was like somehow not possible in the past to feel it as the situation has changed in the present, the past also has changed and is not anymore faulty. 

But for my feeling there was nothing fault and if there was something fault and it felt disturbed we didn't know what it was and we went on looking for it. 

That was the fault within. 

If we listen to his words and we have the insights, we get aware of the fault within and by that the see it differently, but it is kind of surprising that it is possible to see the past we had not seen because of the fault within in the past in the present, but now we see it right and it is not anymore based on the faulty vision. 

If there is fault within, the world appears faulty and if we think it over and we see it  in the light of the insights we recognize it in a different light and we call that getting right answers. 

 There was something wrong and in the meantime it was in the insight as manipulation only, there was a reason why it felt wrong. As it is with manipulation, we cannot see it directly and it is hidden, but we know and feel something is wrong and in the insight we get aware why it felt wrong and why we could not get to the right answer that we see the world right and not with a faulty vision. 

Manipulation was the cause of it and it was not possible to talk about it and now came up all the reason why it was not possible, there was the mother who avoided it and behind was in the insight attachment and pride. That is also the fault within and because of that fault within the world appeared faulty. There is a relationship in the mind between people and their fault within. Because of that fault within it was not possible to talk to her and she avoided it and the problem went on and it was not possible to talk about it until it was finally as catastrophe in the air, what is again based on insight. We have to get aware of the fault within to know why it was in the air as 'catastrophe'. If we don't now the fault within and why it ended up in a catastrophe, we don't understand the insight and the following step is that we see the world in a different light and it is no more untrue, but true. 

The master leads from untruth to truth, from darkness to light and from death to immortality. 

If we see the fault the situation changes, but it explains the family relationships and the difficulties between the family members. It is like turning on the light or like taking the glasses away and we see how it really is, only it is not done with the insight, the following step is to think it over and to listen to his words. In listening to his words we get aware of the reflection of the insights and by that we get aware of the fault within and the faulty vision, but that is not only our fault, but the fault is with the others as well and in the relationship between people.

The insight said that 'he is responsible', by that was meant the neighborhood and it had been difficult actually always as it was ignored by the mother, due to pride and attachment, what was also based on insight. One insight told us the cause of the problem and the other insight why it was not solved.
The fault within was also present when I tried to remember it and I couldn't, it was like the memory was gone or he had no more face and it was due to the unanswered conflict we couldn't talk about it. The fault was to find the reason somewhere else and as the manipulation was ignored, it was not possible to get aware of the real reason for it.

It feels like we put different glasses on and the fault within goes on not only for one but for all and it is what we call Karma, we are in a certain situation of a fault within and all go on in that fault and it is also called Maya, illusion, it is going on between people in their relationship. 

It is after all not only in the mother and the reason behind it that she ignored it and that it was not possible to talk about it, but it is also in the brothers and sister, they all took the attitude of mind of the mother and go on in that same color of the glasses and seeing it her way, for them it has become a pattern and that gets repeated and it goes on in all of the family members. It began with that unseen manipulation of the neighbor and the mother was ignoring it and the whole family is ignoring it. The pattern is that it was not possible to talk in the parent's house no matter what and it is also not possible with the family, what was a conditioning in the fault within in the parents is on the family level now a taboo and understood as right and has turned into a pattern, what is based on the fault within.

It began when I was a teenager and it went on and if we believe it or not it ended in the insight that it was a catastrophe. I had no idea why it was a catastrophe, it was all ignored and avoided and seen as normal the way it was and nobody wanted to see the reason for it and it ends in abuse, as the fault within was seen on the wrong level and it was projected on me because I put it in question and that is how I was let down by the family. It was not possible for them to get aware of it as it was avoided. 

For me it was like a shock that it was not about one parent after all not seeing it and avoiding it, but it is the whole family and it means in that sense that they all share the fault within.
It was seen as no problem and like it didn't exist and the manipulation had a result, it was possible and it happened. 

It was in the air as 'insights' after I got in touch with a spiritual master. It was present as ‘village consciousness’ and it was open why it ended in manipulation, but behind was the village consciousness and what is that I wondered? 

Getting aware of the fault within we get also aware of the reason behind it and we begin to see the situation as it really was. 

The fault within was present in the mother, she avoided it, she was holing up her perfect idea of ‘everything is fine and she was controlling it in her mind even if it was naive and also dangerous, what came out by it is dangerous. 

The fault within was based on pride and she was not able to see things as they really were and it was like she was wearing her glasses and they made it impossible to see it in a different way. 

Even if we tried with writing and looking at it over the years and we always questioned it what increased was not truth, but her fault within that we were only blaming them for I don't know what, she didn't look at it and instead of talking with me, she talked with others and the brother and it results in the fault within in him as well. About everything possible we tried and in the end it was too late. In the inner view it said that it was too late for the mother and that she was too old. .  

She always came to the conclusion, ‘ you should not and there is nothing' and it was due to the fault within. We had waited too long and we were just sitting and waiting, what felt also like a fault. 

It felt like she was wearing blinders, as she didn’t want to see it and she didn't want to face the reflection coming back. It was all based on the fault within and I had been thrown out of the house, because of the same reason. 

It felt at the beginning like nuts to me like a nuts house and   

It felt awful, like they had lost their minds, they put on the glasses that it was my mistake and that is how it got only worse and ended up in a catastrophe.
Every time I went there or as I thought 'home', I wanted to leave again, that was also the fault within or as it is often seen as the three gunas. Illusion is based on the fault within and if we see the world faulty our actions are also not right.  
That it was uprooting, that didn't come to my mind, it was always based on an apparent peace and of a world with no problems. It was even the same in the village, if we put things in question it was seen as not good, if we were a good villager we had no problems and we didn't ask questions, it was all understood the way everybody had to think and it was like an untold law of common sense or collective awareness that we did it like that and not otherwise and we had to fit in. That was behind it that pride was the reason that we couldn't talk. It is also the fault within and it is the rule of social awareness. 

The world appeared faulty,it was avoided, social awareness said that we were good and it was right action if we work hard, so she was working hard and running around and that were her glasses. She worked like always more and every effort was put into that only and she was running around and for other things she had no time. And if the reflection didn't come back as expected it felt to her like we only blamed and we would never be able to do what they had done etc. 

It didn't make anymore sense to me when she said things like that, I didn't understand her ways of thinking anymore. I had constantly troubles with her ways of thinking and I avoided her as much as I could. 

It changed because Baba said that parents are God and we had to for our own sake as it is all based on the higher self and therefore, I went to see my parents regularly anyhow and it turned into a feeling of trying to understand what had happened, but behind it was that reality of being uprooted, I went to them as visitor and it felt okay in the beginning, but later I didn't understand it anymore, I had no feeling for it. It felt like patterns, but there was no more feeling for the way of my mother and later it was all present in the insight only and not anymore because she had been my mother. 

She lived in an imaginary world of ‘everything fine and you would never have been able to do that and it didn't make any sense to me, it probably would have earlier and during childhood, but that was gone totally. But I would see it as the mind which is taking advantage of the imaginative faculty of the mind and it is nothing but self-elevation. 

During the time in India when I was walking back from Bhajans on the way I met someone he looked far away and very tall and I wondered where he was so far away and in that moment he smiled and there was only ‘love’, out of nowhere and just there without reason, that is Baba’s presence.

Only after I went to Baba I began to realize that it was wrong or better he said so in the interview, I had mostly to translate and once he asked, 'how do you feel?' In that moment in his presence I felt great and I answered, 'I am fine, Swami'. And he answered, 'that is not true' and for me it was like a shock that he said that and he asked me in the two following interviews the same question and once more I said spontaneously, 'I am fine', but the third time I said, 'you know Swami' and he didn't say anything and that was the right answer, only it would have been good to know that it was right, I somehow never really felt sure that it was right only in thinking it over I got aware of it that it was right. 

If the world appears to you as full of differences, that is due to the fault within you. If all appears as one love, that too is only your love. The feeling within is the root cause.

It is due to the fault within us. That is the fault within us. The world appears fault.

And if there is no knowledge of the fault, no fault can be found, but the fault will not go away if we don't get aware of it.
When we get aware of the fault, the fault is going away.
it didn’t feel right and that was because of the fault, if we get aware of the fault, it goes away and it is no more fault but right.

When you have faults within, the world appears faulty. When there is no knowledge of fault in yourself, no fault can be found even by search, for you wouldn't know which are the faults. Now the question may arise whether the Lord Himself has faults as He also searches for faults. No, the Lord searches only for goodness. He won't examine the wealth, family, caste, status, or gender.

We have to get it right. It is not right just ignoring it, right it is when we get aware of the fault. We follow the insights and get aware of the fault and that is how it goes away and if we don’t get aware of it, the fault goes on in the mind. 

He doesn’t search for faults, but there can be only goodness if we get aware of the world that appears faulty, as long as it is faulty and we think it is right, we live in delusion.

He sees only the righteousness (sadbhava). He considers those endowed with such righteousness as deserving His grace, whoever they are, whatever they are. Therefore, develop goodness. Live and act in joy and love. These two are sufficient; with them, salvation can be attained without fail.

We cannot develop goodness if we don’t get aware of the faults. And we cannot live it only with us alone, we have to share it. ‘You and I are We’ and ‘We and He is I’.

If we go on as only 'you or I' we are also in the fault within due to wrong identification with the body and there is no way we can get aware of it, if we don't go beyond the mind and the body first. As we are in the ego and mind and that is the fault within and wrong identification, we have to get aware of the fault within and that is not possible if we are in that identification, we have to go beyond the wrong identification to be able to get aware of it.

We cannot get aware of it if we stay in the 'you and I', we have to get to the 'we' first to get aware of the fault within and the wrong identification in our body and mind.
We (you and I) and 'he' is the divine principle - we and He is I -  and that is how we get aware of the fault within or the wrong identification and by that we get to 'I' or as Baba also tells us, 'I am I' or 'I am that', the Atmic principle and it is an awaking in the true reality of our being.

Live and act in joy and love. These two are sufficient; with them, salvation can be attained without fail.