Sathya Sai Baba has left the body

On Easter morning we were singing Bhajans and it went on singing until the announcement was made that Baba he left at 7.40 AM his body.

Till then everybody had expected him to come back. 

Since then all shops closed, not possible to use the internet.

TV, the police and the military was here to take care, it was difficult to get in the ashram, there were lines which seemed never to end, but somehow we managed.

The sadness over that ashram is that big, but it goes on smoothly. Yesterday the TV was still here in front of my hotel, and I wondered what they expected?

It just settled down and today it is all calm again. 
Yesterday was his burial, in India sages are not cremated, they are buried.
His body has now a Samadhi shrine at the place where he used to sit. It is incredible sad and therefore, not possible to write, not yet.  

The inner unity is all there is

Today was again a very good experience during Bhajan singing. It doesn't really matter if I am in or out of the ashram, it is as it is.

Wake up, and ashram rules

One more talk with accommodation, and forget it. 

Personal matters, the bill

More than twenty years looking after his daughter, being deprived of the presence of Baba, I sit in front of the ashram, and Sai Baba, who has his whole life given darshan, is not here. I am exactly in the time here, it looks like I am going to just miss him.

The child in us and the eternal story

I have to get used to it. It feels like a childs dream getting real and by it also realizing the child in us.

A level of immortal beings

Yesterday evening singing was different. A guy was singing loudly and too fast, on the mind level, just mechanically repeating. He overpowered everybody else.

Inside peace and presence of Baba

Yesterday night I went into the Western canteen. For me it is like I am discovering the ashram again. At seven they began to sing a Baba mantra, and I thought it would be for ten minutes, but it was for an half an hour.

I was such a strong experience. I felt I had my eaten already, it was more important than food that inner food of the soul.

Ashram life, and always be careful

Today I bought some new saris and thought, what's the matter, why old stories, just to be finished and done with it for good. 

Today it is cloudy and only about 36 C.

After Baba made in the dream steps in the heart, it feels like the pace maker he got, next day Baba was there and said, ABC, always be careful, or the steps he has made to get me ready and prepared for it?

Nightmare

When calamity approaches, discrimination departs.

Baba

Yesterday was Akanda Bhajan, singing all day. There was a lady I know long time ago, unity was in the air. On the spot I felt totally home. 'I am that' was in the air above her and then it extended to all the singers in the hall. It felt like home and one on that 'I am that'- self level and he is that, he is the one who gives the knowledge and he is the one who takes the step afterwards, the step needed.

We arrived in Prasanthi Nilayam

The flight was okay. I was surprised by Bangalore airport and the highway. I reached here  4 AM, we couldn't pass at the Sai hospital, out of saftey reasons, so we had to drive through the back country side.

The Watcher and the Lesson

You are not one person, but three:
The one you think you are;
The one others think you are;
The one you really are.

Baba

Baba always reminds us that he is not the body, and if we see him now that sick, he is sick, but as he is not the body, he cannot be sick, but the body is anyhow sick.

But as he was a lot in my dream, he is inside present; only on the outside he is not present.

They don’t know yet when he will come back to the ashram and everybody is waiting anxiously.

The Prince and the Vampire

Doing one's duty, however small, in an unattached manner gives rise to the awakening of self-awareness.

Baba

My colleague asked me if I fly alone. Most of the time I went alone.

We were joking and laughing about it, she is Malaysian and married with a Swiss guy, who is working also here and she thinks I should find some guy.

But I don’t think so, after that experience with the vampire Baba, what a strange look of Baba, I was not into relationship matters again. I knew that a relationship cannot be good, but that was not only not good, that was diabolic, we had to aware of how strange people were hiding behind the appearance of a devotee?

Vampir, a Bad Monkey Mind

See God in every one you meet; see God in everything you handle. Live together, revere each other, let not the seeds of envy and hate grow and choke the clear stream of Love.

Baba

I remember when coming back from Portland, a lady, she was from Canada and permanently living in the ashram and when we met she said that she would like to marry a Baba student. I looked at her and said, ‘oh yes, like me, they look all the same, only all men were wearing white in the ashram and you have no idea who or what mind state is behind it, because it is controlled by Baba. And as soon as you are leaving the ashram you will notice that you don’t know that guy you have married and it will be a hard wakeup.  

I didn’t wish to marry in the ashram, I would have liked to stay with Baba and he made it look like possible, but afterwards it didn’t work out.

We are the Watcher

Wealth that you hoard is not yours, wealth that you have given is really yours.

Baba

I asked my daughter, what happened that she got into such a fit of rage and if it was out of self pity, as she never did before. Maybe it is because I am soon leaving for some weeks to India, she is not used to it. And she corrected herself and was sorry that she went into it. So more or less, she excused herself for yesterday's behaviour. 

We are That

Action with Love is Right Conduct.

Speak with Love and it becomes Truth.

Thinking with Love results in Peace.

Understanding with Love leads to non-violence.

Baba

We are that, just That.
we know when we think of us, we see us and there are two, you and I and that is we. We would very much like to see us.

Freedom, Nothing We don't Want

Make your life a rose that speaks silently in the language of the heart.

Baba

Actually, I would like to go nowhere, being just us, having insight that we are that. And 'that' is our focus.

It has be Deserved

Prayer must emanate from the heart, where God resides, and not from the head where doctrines and doubts clash.
Baba

Too easy doesn't work, it has to be deserved.
If not deserved, the right answer or realisation will not happen. And the right motivation will not be there to live upto human excellence.

He said that it has to be deserved.

And how going there?

What is a mirror? Looking for the self, a relationship to get aware of it, above all love for truth.

Who is it?

Yesterday has deceived you and gone, tomorrow is a doubtful visitor. Today is a fast friend, hold fast to it.

Baba

I woke up because the door bell rang, it was dream, but I was wide awake. I had to look at it. Someone was a the door... I needed to take care. The question is: Who is there?

And the right answer should be: You are there.