There are two very important statements in the Bhagavad Gita, which you must take to heart and profit from: Shraddhavan Labhate Jnanam (The one steady in faith gains wisdom and liberation) and Samshayaathma Vinashyathi (Doubt leads to perdition, spiritual ruin). Dwell on these axioms and practice the spiritual disciplines of repetition of the Lord's name and meditation on His form. Gopis of Brindavan yearned for the Lord with purity in their hearts and attained union with Him.
That is how I woke up today so peacefully and happy. To get aware that brother means devotion and that our real brothers are connected to us in the 'I am that', there we are all the same, with other devotees we can get aware of it and otherwise we cannot.
You too must fill your mind with His beautiful form and contemplate on the glory of the Lord. Then you can attain Divinity.This is the pursuit that is worthy, not the pursuit of fame, nor the friendship of the famous.
Baba (thought for the day)
Steady faith gains wisdom and liberation. Doubt leads to perdition, spiritual ruin.
To practice that and to inside aware of it, that was quite some work.
Yesterday we had a relaxed study circle and finally I enjoyed it very much.
As had as it seems to get aware that my worldly family is not on the right level, and it was kind of painful to get aware of it, I looked at our circle in the light of, 'here are my real brothers and sisters'.
It means spiritual level.
It was great and it is always different, but this morning waking up was like new born. I woke up this morning in joy. It felt great, like something very great had happened and it reminded me when we woke up and went to Baba's Darshan and how simple and beautiful my life felt at that time and how we were waiting for Baba and sitting in the rows and finally when he was standing there looking at us before he came to see people, taking here or there a letter or he gave some vibuthi to someone and all were streching out their hands and wanted als some.
And after Darshan I sat usually there and waited until Bhajans began, during that time I was mostly in meditation and only after Bhajans I went for breakfast. Or we went to have a coke or an ice cream and usually we met others at that place, we sat and talked and enjoyed being in the ashram. It was such a beautiful time.
That is a level of Sathva, we can share only on a devotee level.
And the day began yesterday all differently and it felt very hard.
In the inner view already long ago it was that my brother, body level, did the worst he can do. I was worried about him and didn't know how to understand it.
But as it turns out after all that time, it is only disturbing and dark night, Tamas. It feels like, he does the worst he can do making fun of the spiritual path and why? It felt like it didn't make sense, why should he do something like that? I had once even initiated him in TM. It feels like it should be possible that we can talk, but it is impossible. It was kind of troublesome, unpleasant.
For some reason, wrong level and no devotion.
Instead of being affected by it and going into that, we have to get aware that there is a difference between brother when it is the level of Sathva. Baba said in the inner view before he left the body that 'ABC' always be careful and in another dream he was present as two Babas, one is the insight and the next step is him as well.
Our own vision we have to command and if it is tamasic and only disturbing, there is no way to get along with it. It feels like the need to separate the dark from the light and only now it feels like done.
When Baba asked in the interview room three time, who I was and to whom I belonged and what our relationship was, exactly that was in question. The first level is always body level and the question is still, 'who am I?'
After all it ended with recognizing that I don't belong to them and it had to be communicated if we command our vision.
Not only it is about the Karma related to it, if identified with it, as it is on mind level, we have to face the untruth. If I am identified with that, we are part of it and in reality we are not and don't want to be.
As he does the worst he can do, whatever that is, it is not possible to go along with it.
The good thing about telling the truth, if we don't belong to them, we get aware of reality and who the real sisters and brothers are and it is on that level we are one. It is only possible with other devotees. It felt different after the study circle and today in the morning I was enjoying it. It feels like the reality of Baba's Darshan, for some reason like it was in Kodai in Baba's presence, more free and not so strict like in the ashram. To feel Baba's presence is precious. Together we can get aware of it.
Still now writing it down it feels in touch with Baba and his Darshan.
How wants to be bothered by people creating doubts, doing the worst they can do and getting into spiritual ruin, we cannot afford that on the spiritual path, that is the worst what can happen to us and that is on that level.
Also my ex was opposed to Baba's teaching, even though he claimed to be a Baba devotee, he was stupid, the action was not that of a devotee, but the opposite. In the end it was perverted and as we didn't listen, we had to get a divorce.
He was stupid, he didn't know what he was doing. It was enough that we began to doubt everything and asked us, why that happened to us, and why me? And that is just how the doubt began and in the end it felt like ruin, that means it was just that, ruin on the spiritual path.
Doubt leads to perdition, spiritual ruin.
That is why Baba got us out of it. But he didn't know what he was doing, he went on as before .
I thought I did everything, I followed Baba and I thought it was a Baba Lila, but why didn't it work? And I tried to do the best and I wanted to live up to his teaching, but it seemed like everything happened just upside down and it ended in ruin.
Baba said later in the inner view, you didn't listen. So first I answered, but I did listen... but now I got aware that listening it not the same as we think when we listen, not like with worldly parents.
We didn't listen, because we didn't understand the dreams.
Baba had said in his dream when we met that he warned him, that in this room he will not get the right answer and it felt that far away. I knew it was about our relationship, but we thought as always things will get clear later on, and when I realized where we went, it was too late and we were trapped in that state.
Now we listen and got aware of it why he warned us, but not without making the bad experience first. As he said it will end as perversion, therefore, as we didn't listen, we had to get the bad experience of perversion.
After all it is not that easy to listen. It needs self effort to think it over and to absorb. We need to get aware of it.
Because we don't listen, if we don't inquire or if we don't put it into practice. We don't listen if we don't hear it. It is like in the Bible it is also stated that the one who has ears can hear it and the one who has eyes can see it.
We didn't listen carefully enough to get it or we didn't know how to listen yet.
We thought it is a Baba dream and a warning, but we thought also it will get clear later on, because it was a Baba dream and we had to listen really - listening and not just go ahead and at that time, we were not able to do that and that is how we learn.
But in the mean time we understand the warning and know why.
Because we didn't listen we went for it, even if he warned us. Whatever we did, we thought we did the best, but we didn't listen, doing the best means we have to have eyes to see and ears to hear it.
Doubt leads to perdition, spiritual ruin.
Telling the family somehow that I don't belong to them, to make a point, to give me a break and also because it is true.
The 'I am that' is beyond the physical body, an universal principle and the question is, 'who am I?'.
That 'I' is only possible to be realized if we are the same and that is only possible on sathva level.
If someone is doing the worst he can do, it is going against it. He is divorced from someone who was spiritually inclined and I guess that didn't work, and he takes it out on me, when in reality he had troubles with that other person. It helped me to understand it that it made sense that he does the worst he can do. But there is no way to change it, I tried in vain to reach him, it was impossible.
And finally, whatever, we can try to explain it, on that level it is done, when it is in the inner vision and there is no sense to expect something else. The inner view is as it is, even if we don't know the reason and even if we don't like it and it is difficult to take, as much as I know it just gets confirmed.
Doubt leads to perdition, spiritual ruin.
It is in the vision we command. If the inner vision tells that the sister died and I cannot find her, it is the inner vision and there is nothing else to expect. We cannot change the inner vision, but just go by it.
It all lies in the vision that you command, that you have equipped yourselves with.
Yesterday in the study circle there was a sentence about Dharma and it said that if we follow the inner master, we are living Dharma and it was for someone difficult to grab, because it was translated as the inner impulse and we got to the conclusion that it must be a bad translation.
The inner vision we command it not just an impulse and often we have to consider that Baba spoke Telugu, it was already translated into English and we translated it again. It depends the translator, how he understood it and the words he used.
The inner vision is level of inner sight, the result of self-inquiry and following the inner master. It makes us aware what we deal with, and it is usually colored and shows the level of the mind and that is Baba and the next step after that vision is also him.
But sometimes it is not that easy to communicate it, but we listen and observe, and in time we get the possibility to communicate it.
It is the vision, it is magic, it feels like Darshan and Baba's presence. We follow the inner vision and if we live it, he is present. I enjoy to feel like Darshan in Kodai today, it is the result of yesterday's study circle.
After I had to get aware of that difference and why it is important to get aware of our real brothers and devotion, I was in the study circle thinking about it that these are the real brothers and sisters. That feels today just great.
The Bhajans alone wouldn't have done that, because it was not about getting into singing and feeling and only heart level, but it was about getting aware and level of discrimination, separating that what is real from that what is not real of that what is untrue from that what is true. The feeling is rewarding. We command our own vision.
Our real 'I' is not limited by the body and the mind and is therefore not real on that level. But it seems for someone who doesn't do that work, it was kind of difficult to understand what was meant by it.
The one steady in faith gains wisdom and liberation.
I remember how it was for at the beginning, some time ago, but it felt just like that, we didn't understand it, that felt kind of frustrating, because there were those subtle differences and impulses in our consciousness. We were not yet able to do it.
But it changed, and now we found a way to listen to his words and dream and we get the insights.
Follow the master, fight to the end, finish the game.
You too must fill your mind with His beautiful form and contemplate on the glory of the Lord. Then you can attain Divinity.This is the pursuit that is worthy, not the pursuit of fame, nor the friendship of the famous.
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