The Principle of Atma is Always the Same

People are engaged in exploring space but do not make the slightest effort to explore the Divine within. Of what use are experiments in space when there is no genuine cultivation of human qualities and the practice of basic virtues such as acting in reverence with the mother, the father and the preceptor? People today are living in human form but are filled with beastly qualities! Scriptures declare that people can attain immortality only by renunciation (tyaga) and not through actions, wealth or progeny. What must be renounced? Renounce your bad qualities. To manifest your inherent divine nature, cultivate love for God and fear of sin and adherence to right conduct (sangha niti). When you fear sin and love God, you cannot indulge in immoral acts, automatically ensuring morality in society. God can be known only by experience and not by experiments. Hence follow your chosen spiritual practices diligently and sincerely.

I am still amazed by that feeling of ‘the same’, that feels like magic.

Today I woke up first tired, but the meditation was good, it is like it always has been. It felt like thoughtless and feeling that ‘same’, for a long time in question, now it was ‘the same’ it is like kind of thought and speechless. It is like, no problem, what do you have?

Oh, it took us only thirty years to get aware of it by insights and listening to Swami’s words that it is ‘the same’ and now I know even why it was that difficult to understand, it is actually not really possible to understand it.

There is no logic in that feeling of the ‘same’, there is just no time and no space and it transcends all limitations and we feel it as his divine presence and that is ‘the same’. The divine presence is the same, the principle of the ‘I am that’ is the same, even if it was only mediation before and no contemplation, it was adapted to the West, it is nevertheless the same.

Veda is the same and cannot be different ever. If it is about the same ‘principle’ no matter how and whatever we do and look at it, in the end it will be his divine omnipresence and the ‘same’.

Between us in the air on your birthday morning was ‘I am that’ and that is the same.

Whatever Baba did and does, in the end it will be his presence and that is omnipresence, it is the divine level and he has never been the body and therefore, it is the same, he is still present.

Nothing gets lost, the only thing what gets lost is if someone only takes advantage of it, because that is only the mind level, that is not the same, that is not his Lila and that is not omnipresent, because it is only the mind and not the right level and that explains why he said in his dream years ago, ‘I warn you in that room you will not get the right answer’.

If there is no divinity it will not last and not be the same again.

In the leader it will not be the same, because he was just an actor and that is not part of the divine. But in someone else who was in the study circle I noticed already that it is the same and I was surprised to feel it and probably he also felt it and he got scared of it, I didn’t see him since it makes too many things come up.

During our meditation time we learnt good manners, we always said, ‘yes, but …’ we never ever said no, because we never knew what was in the mind of the other and we should not make them feel bad. So we always agreed first and said, ‘yes, but …’, but with Sai devotees that is not the same, they tell what they think and feel and not 'yes ... dear, but ...' and that is difficult to take. And we had to dress up nicely and no hippie attitudes were allowed. That is the only time in my life I was wearing skirts and dresses, usually I wear suits and pants.

We will never understand that part of it, getting aware of the omnipresence, if it is there, whatever that was we experienced before, but it is back again, everything what felt like pain, is still here and nothing is gone and is living in him actually.

Our inner relationship to our parents, no matter how they have been, they didn’t know better and they were living on the mind level anyhow. It is present in his omnipresence. That is how it felt after the interview, there was no difference between that devotee and she told me about her son and it felt like my sister and my parent’s house, it was the same and it was kind of amazing why it was the same I wondered and how was that possible?

In that holy and healthy environment of Baba being our parents all the past problems with my parents seemed first very far away and done with and then when I thought it was done, it began new again and everything came up, but in a different way and for a different reason, we have to get aware of it.

And after everything came up, now I can remember again my mother the way she really was and not colored by attachment and pride and with an abyss between us and stuff like that, in a difficult neighborhood. She is present as the positive person she had been and she was seen like that by her family and lots of people in the village.

Probably the extremist experience was that disturbing neighborhood and how that guy died and how the inner master said in the dream, whoever digs a pit to others, falls himself into it.
It was like divine law. He was not innocent, he was guilty and he had disturbed my life actually more or less all the time, with him I left and because of him the disturbance went on and I didn’t wanted to go back and get my visa in my home country, I went to Singapore and on the way to Singapore he was in my dream and said that he will come back and marry me.

But he was married and it didn’t make sense, but his intention said that he was still present and he didn’t move away. He was always felt in the neighborhood and in my family, only not in a good way and after I fought to the end, we have to finish the game and getting aware of it is still finishing the game, but in the end we will feel Baba’s presence in our life and even during the childhood and in the parent’s house and whatever happened with the parents is there because they didn’t know better.  

That is what I told you at the beginning, ‘it is the same’, we have to get aware of Swami’s divine presence in the now and wherever we are and if we get aware of it, whatever we had lived with Baba during the time he was in the body, whatever we liked and cherished and loved in that time, it will be back, it is still the same, we are only not able to get aware of it, because we are too much in the mind.