Saturday, July 11, 2015

Human Beings Live only when Immersed in Bliss

The doctor first diagnoses the disease and then prescribes the course of treatment. So too, you must submit yourself to the diagnosis of your illness, viz. misery, travail, and pain through Self-Enquiry. Investigate fearlessly and with care, and you will find that your nature is bliss (ananda)! You have falsely identified yourself with the temporary, the frivolous and the paltry, and that attachment brings sorrow. Realise that both joy and sorrow are passing phases, like clouds across the blue sky. Learn to treat prosperity and adversity with equanimity. Just as fish lives only when it is immersed in water, so too human being lives only when immersed in bliss. You must have bliss at home, in society, and in the world, but more than all, in your heart. Your heart is the spring of joy. That spring must be touched by constant recitation of Lord’s Name and dwelling on His Glory. Never give way to doubt or despair.
Baba

If we listen to Baba’s words and think it over it is like a hidden truth and message in his words. If Swami tells ‘mental depression’ we have to listen to understand it right and to get the message in his words. It is a disease and what we think depression is in the West is not the same, but when we see it in the light of his words, it changes. What does he call a disease? It is carving for worldly stuff.  
It feels still kind of stunning to see the image of a treat, of a swindler and what didn’t make sense, it just switches inside and becomes the picture of deception and I called it an impostor before, but it is different if we call it like that or when we get the picture of it, because it is reflected in his words.  

The doctor first diagnoses the disease and then prescribes the course of treatment. So too, you must submit yourself to the diagnosis of your illness, viz. misery, travail, and pain through Self-Enquiry. Investigate fearlessly and with care, and you will find that your nature is bliss (ananda)!

We enquire and think it over and Swami did the first the diagnoses of the disease and he said already what a disease is only afterwards he prescribes the course of treatment and he said already that it is due to craving for worldly things, that is the illness, we have to get aware of it through self-enquiry and we didn’t listen, even if he said that it was a sickness, at that time for whatever reason, we didn’t hear it. In thinking it over we get to the truth of it and the right answer.

You have falsely identified yourself with the temporary, the frivolous and the paltry, and that attachment brings sorrow. Realise that both joy and sorrow are passing phases, like clouds across the blue sky. Learn to treat prosperity and adversity with equanimity. Just as fish lives only when it is immersed in water, so too human being lives only when immersed in bliss. You must have bliss at home, in society, and in the world, but more than all, in your heart. Your heart is the spring of joy. That spring must be touched by constant recitation of Lord’s Name and dwelling on His Glory. Never give way to doubt or despair.

We know this is for everybody the same, if we are identified with the temporary, but Baba didn’t tell to all about disease and that it was a sickness, he said it to that person only and that he had mental depression and he didn’t do anything about it and that felt kind of strange.
We didn’t know how to listen to his words and we didn’t hear the warning about sickness, it means it is much worse than we thought it was. It was all present and that is why he was blaming others to hide behind it so that we should not get aware that we were fooled by him.
Swami is telling us that we should always seek what is truthful and joyful and avoid all thoughts with are untrue, sad and depressing and that these are not traits of a spiritual aspirant or devotee.
Getting to the conclusion looking at it or seeing it in the reflection of his words is not the same and here he confirms it that this is not a trait of a spiritual aspirant and that he is not a devotee. We find the confirmation about it reflected in Swami’s words.   

It is not the nature of a spiritual aspirant to search for faults in others and hide their own. If your faults are pointed out to you by someone, don’t argue and try to prove yourself right, and don’t bear a grudge against them for it. Reason out within yourself how it is a fault and set right your own behavior. Rationalising it for your own satisfaction or wreaking vengeance on the person who pointed it out —these are not the traits of a spiritual aspirant or devotee.

What does he tell us here, that is why he was looking for the faults in others so that he could hide his own and what are that, taking advantage of it what means he was a fraud, a trickster an impostor. Swami is also telling us that it will harm our practices and that it did and that it will bring ill-luck and that it did as well.  

Depression, doubt, conceit —these will harm one’s practices and are akin to Rahu and Kethu (planets which bring ill-luck). When your devotion is well established, these qualities will be easily discarded. Seek always the truthful and the joyful, and avoid all thoughts which are untrue, sad and depressing. Always be cheerful, smiling, and enthusiastic under all circumstances. This pure attitude is most desirable. Never get inflated when praised or deflated when blamed - be a spiritual lion!

In the last thoughts for the day Swami was telling us that people crave for worldly happiness and that craving is the disease and we have to think it over to get the real meaning in his words or the hidden truth. He is calling it disease and sickness and we have the diagnoses of the disease and we know that Swami told about ‘mental depression’, a disease. If he mentioned disease it is a sickness or the ill health is in reality craving for worldly happiness and he is as well telling us that he will not change, there is no time and space to have a desire for the divine.
If it would not have been a sickness, he would not have said so. Swami is always telling the truth.
He would not have called it disease and mental depression and if we would have known about it we would have been more careful. It is craving for worldly happiness, the craving is a disease. We didn’t listen otherwise; we would never have gone into it.
We were fooled into it and the craving was the disease and still is. Now it does make sense and we feel his words we know what craving means and also what sufferings as the drugs we take. In fact such a person is drugged with sufferings and he doesn’t want to stop that suffering, otherwise, there would be no more reason to crave for the worldly happiness. As Swami is telling us the craving itself is the disease and the suffering is the drug what makes us go on and if we are in that, there is rarely the desire to attain divinity and that is why I asked what he did in Swami’s presence, he never had the slightest desire to attain the Lord, it was just about cravings and hoping Swami would give what he wanted.
The more we think we know, easier it is to deceive us.

People crave worldly happiness; this craving itself is the disease, and sufferings are but the drugs we take. In the midst of these, one rarely entertains the desire to attain the Lord.

He tells us also why we have to analyze and discriminate and it is not possible to renounce without discrimination as he said it is not possible to get detached without self-enquiry. If we think self-enquiry is just asking questions and thinking about who we are, if we don’t actually know who we are, we are wrong, that is called illusion.We look for the answer on the wrong level and in the mind where it does make sense seemingly, there we can see and we think we find the answer but it is the wrong level.
Do you know the story of the old wise woman looking for the needle outside of her hut and the villagers came and asked, ‘what are you looking for’ and she answered, ‘I am looking for my needle’. The villagers were sorry with her and began to help her searching for the lost needle. Finally one asked, ‘but where have you lost it?’ And she answered, ‘inside in the hut’.
And he said, ‘but you must be a bit troubled because why are we looking for it outside of your hut if you have lost it inside?’ She answered, ‘but isn’t that what you all are doing? We have lost the self inside, but there it is dark and we cannot see and therefore, we are all looking for it at the outside’. That is how she was teaching a lesson to the villagers. 
Self-enquiry needs a mirror and in the Atman we have that mirror and in listening to Swami’s words we recognize that his words reflect the same truth reflected in the mirror of our own self. Without that analyzes we have no spirit of renunciation.

However, it is necessary to analyse and discriminate, for the spirit of renunciation is born out of such analysis. Without enquiry, detachment cannot be obtained.

As everything is based on untruth he is a swindler, a fraud, he pretends to do spiritual practice to deceive others so that he can take advantage of it and when we get the point of it his, because his ignoble behavior doesn’t make sense in listening to Swami’s words he is telling us indirectly why he is blaming others and never looked for the fault in himself, because he was deliberately hiding behind it.
He makes others believe that the fault is with them, not to feel better, what I thought first, not because he is helpless, but it is all acting only and it is to hide behind it because nobody should notice that he is a cheat and a fraud. If we get aware of his mask, he cannot take advantage of it anymore.
In his attitude we see miserliness and Swami calls it the behavior of a dog and if we question the dog we get the picture and why behavior of a dog, but it is difficult to get it and to understand such a sad truth.
Anger is the enemy of the spiritual aspirant. It was all there, anger, miserliness, untruth and theft. These words match nearly perfectly. It felt that disgraceful and dangerous and it was not possible to be ourselves and he just said, ‘can you blame me’, pretending we were the reason for him hiding behind it, it was all not true. It was fooling others and it was dishonest and also better to not say anything at all than to risk an exchange of words and an explosion, it felt too dangerous and I always wondered where that came from, it didn’t make sense. Swami is telling us that untruth destroys all vital powers; therefore, it leads to mental depression. If we think it over we get the truth behind Swami’s words. If we would have listened, we would have known better.
It is not a matter that we didn’t know at that time how to listen, it is about listening in general, we didn’t listen and therefore we made a big mistake going into fraud and we were taken advantage of by a swindler. That is also why the feelings were dangerous and it felt like if it would explode someone could get hurt, it was better to not know actually, the fraud was that immoral and shameful.

Miserliness is like the behavior of a dog; it must be transformed. Anger is the first enemy of a spiritual aspirant. Untruth is even worse - it destroys all the vital powers.

If there is ‘mental depression’, what means a disease and a disease is due to craving for worldly things as he just said, if we listen and think it over we get the truth if, but not if we don’t hear it and we didn’t hear it and we didn’t listen at that time. It is much worse than I thought it was, it is actually real bad and most of all that I was not aware of it.
If we have to live with an attitude of miserliness and the spirit behind it is to take advantage of it, what is that behavior, the behavior of a dog. There was also anger and untruth, because nothing he said was true as he wanted to not be seen, that is how it does make sense. He is a swindler, if we would have known we would not have gone for it. We didn’t listen yet to Baba and he was actually already telling us that he was a swindler, that is why he had a personal interview, of course, he was eager to tell everybody about it and that was also clear that he would tell that Baba said he suffered of ‘mental depression’ a disease of craving for worldly stuff. That is what he did to make it obvious only we didn’t listen. He suffers from the disease of mental depression and that can only be if there is untruth and all vital forces are destroyed by it and if there is craving for worldly things and so he still sends not inspiration about spiritual things, but book about think and get rich.  
What felt confusing was that Swami said that first he gives what we ask for so that we can take what he came to give us. I thought it was part of it and that he would change, but that was wrong.
There is also theft. In the mind attitude only taking advantage of it, is also steeling our life and he fooled us into something which couldn’t possibly work and it was the direct path to ruin.
It was in the insight as ‘ruin’ and twice and not only once. First insight was about the homeless beggar woman on the streets and ruin in the air, in that moment it was not even clear anymore that it was about an insight and not just a nightmare.  The second dream was after we left and he was standing in a ruin and said, that is all I could get in garage sales. It was cheap and the precious life we had experienced in Baba’s presence felt worse than rotten food.
In those words we find the reflection of it and if we listen, we also hear it, but if we don’t listen and we didn’t know how to listen, otherwise, when Baba said ‘mental depression’ and it was a private interview,  and of course it was outside level and the first thing he told us, about the private interview and the mental depression, he had a disease and if we would have known, we would have been more careful than to be fooled and going into it, but we went into it.   
If we would have listened and understood Baba’s words as he said that his health was not good and that he had mental depression, it would have been a warning, but we didn’t know how to listen. Everything was a warning, also the personal interview.
That is why everything what he tells is always on the wrong level, because he never has the right attitude. Swami explains it. Swami was present with vampire teeth in the dream, he explains here why, because untruth destroys all vital powers. The disease was craving for worldly things.
He went to Swami and didn’t know what was doing and he just took advantage of it, he is a swindler, he is a cheater and he made us think it was a Baba Lila, no conscience, no moral values and he doesn’t take any responsibility, therefore, he blames others for it so he can hide behind it. That all makes sense now and now we know why he talked like that. He looked for the fault in others to hide behind it that we should not get aware that he is a swindler, he slimed himself into trust with Baba and his boss behind it in which room he was living.
He is a liar and a cheat, that are the synonyms if we look over cheat: deceive, trick, con, swindle, defraud, bamboozle, take advantage of and bilk. Some of it are new to me like bamboozle and bilk, but Baba said that he took only advantage of it in the dream, that are the synonyms.
It means also dupe or fool someone and it means we were fooled and we don’t get easily the image of it as we looked at a Baba devotee first and even a meditator. When he said that he never did it, it was like a shock and it just didn’t make sense, we were not used to think that bad in Baba’s presence.
It is difficult to get the picture and to get aware of it how it really was.
He was neither one nor the other, but a trickster and he fooled us taking advantage of it and we listened to it at the outside mind level and thought that we should trust and not put it in question, what was wrong understood by do good, see good, be good, we thought moral values were the outside teaching.
When we get the picture, it is like aware of a different person and a complicated background and why it was appearing like a spiritual aspirant in Swami’s presence when it was that behavior of a dog and that is what Baba is telling us here, it is not the trait of a spiritual aspirant or of a devotee. Swami is with these words confirming it no trace of a devotee in someone who has the attitude of miserliness but it is the behavior of a dog and not a devotee.

Theft ruins life; it makes the priceless human life cheaper than rotten food.

That was the experience of it, cheaper than rotten food, only garage sales, that felt cheaper than rotten food and the precious time with Swami in the ashram had turned into something cheaper than rotten food.  That was it, when he was standing in a ruin and he was wearing a red woman skirt and a black fur jacket and he said, ‘that is all I could get in garage sales’, it felt like that - cheaper than rotten food.
Swami knows the right words to describe it.
It is much worse than I thought it was and that is the mud hole. What Swami is telling us is with the mud hole, all efforts are of no use, no traits of a devotee, no door, no windows, but a mud hole and every expectation that he would change was in vain and time and energy lost.
There is no answers on that level and nothing to expect from a dog, only stupid answers blaming others to hid behind it because he want us to stay in the delusion that he is a devotee and a nice guy if his disguise as devotee is gone, he cannot take advantage of it anymore.
It is not in his interest that we see truth, so he goes on in the disguise of a spiritual aspirant for future opportunities to come so he can again take advantage of it and that he did already when he wanted to come here to open up a money box. 
He doesn’t want to be seen as cheat that is why he also came back at the time with that woman he went into arguments and fights and he said, ‘what have you done?’ No doubt it was in purpose putting the fault on someone else so that he could hide behind it and not one word he said was true as usual. We should not get aware of the fraud and that nothing was okay what he said. If we would have been able to look behind his disguise he couldn’t anymore take advantage of it.
And that is the advice Baba gives us if we are in that situation, we have to go on with self-control to get out of it, as such a dog behavior is only creating troubles and harm.

Moderate food, moderate sleep, selfless love, and fortitude will help in the upkeep of the health of both your body and the mind. Whoever you are, in whatever condition you may be, do not give room for dispiritedness! Be fearless and remember the Lord with unshaken faith and without any ulterior motive, all suffering and sorrow will fall away.

And it was not on that level we could get right answers, it was a mud hole, no windows, no door, no transformation, no change and no hope that something would change, but he looks at himself as a nice guy talking advantage of it. All he said, ‘can you blame me’, he thinks he is clever.
If we listen to Baba’s words and think it over we get the message, but we have to listen to it to be able to absorb the truth in his words.  
What happens when the higher values are not used for a higher purpose, but just to take advantage of it, we don’t have any more higher values and what was the most precious and great before has lost its value and it is no more magical and charming as it has been, it is no more priceless, but cheaper than rotten food.

Theft ruins life; it makes the priceless human life cheaper than rotten food.


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