Heaven and Hell

Real love is when you are constantly watching the progress of the soul. 

As soon as you cater to someone's physical desires and bad habits you are not loving that soul anymore.

You are just pleasing that person to avoid ill will.

No matter how unpleasant it is to tell a friend that he is wrong, if you say it with love in your heart and stand firm on it, sometimes that person will respect you if you are right.

If you are wrong, even then he will know that you did it with sincerity, out of love.

P. Yogananda

 

Coming back from Paris I went on a TM course.

It was called invincibility, but it was not invincible.

During the course it broke in pieces, only we didn't know what 'it' was.

The reason we see invincibility in yoga is not meditation, but friendship. Yogis are our friends. It is the principle of sath, positivity, unchanging and unlimited eternal truth. Nobody thought that there could be something wrong, only when it broke into pieces something had to be wrong, but only to me. They were no friends, they appeared as enemies and that was upside down. But at that time I didn't know yet that upside down is Tamas, it was not true, not sathvic. It means we were not aware of the risk. But there was a risk, otherwise, it would not have happened. Enemies instead of friends, how strange, but no reason for it, but that the leader, we were in a relationship, didn't keep it private. 

Nobody aware of what happened. Yoga and meditation should be invincibile, because it is always true, never changing. If the principle of 'sath' is not present, it is nomore yoga.   

A relationship to a master is based on trust, pure love is highest trust and there was pure love in the air when I had met him. 
If we would have known about the risk, it would have been different, but we didn't. 
We were not aware of the risk. 

Trust in the movement was wrong as well, they went by the leader. It turned out to be wrong. We trusted in the master, but he was not there and that was wrong. 
It is not okay to trust people who don't know what they are doing, but that was the outcome, nobody knew what they were doing. 
It was about enlightenment, not about blindness, but there was no light in it, no enlightenment. 

No real knowledge, appearance only, wrong trust and blind trust.

The principle turned into the opposite.

There was an opportunity to see the master and he appeared as criminal, he confirmed it.
Afterwards it was clear beyond doubt, it was not okay.
The principle of sath and invincibility not understood, we had to begin all new again to understand it. 

Everything wrong, cut off, uprooted and lost, no answers and no questions, sh*t.
As I began to ask question, I felt like a rebel and I left.  

The leader as he thought invincible was just macho, beyond blame, someone had to be blamed, for sure not him.  

The master told him if he didn't hold up the light, someone else would do it, but he didn't get it, but it was clear that he was the one, but it didn't change anything. 

The master told him also that he should keep it private, it was already done. It felt like sh*t. 
I went to Sai Baba. And what to tell, it was about fighting the devil.
It was Tamas, upside down, not true and all Maya and we went through hell. All enemies, invincibility turned upside down. Nobody responsible, nobody aware of what happened, nobody wanted to know, meditate and all problems solved and it was not true. 

Felt like a nut's house.  

The leader cared about his image and got engaged as fast as he could to get the impression to others that he wanted to make sure that it was okay this time, made it look differently and all believed the appearance.  
It felt like being the scapegoat, if it would have mattered, but it had to be understood. It was upside down, not Sathva but Tamas. They were like sheeple, just following.

Coming back was no more home, nothing understood. It felt uprooted, cut off, lost, no answers and of course, no questions.
I was not yet aware that it was Tamas all upside down and that it was confirmed by the master telling him that if he would not hold up the light, another would do it. It was just tamas, but no way to go back or to understand it, but to jump over the ego what I did in questioning it. 

That is how we got aware of Tamas. 

No real answers, meditation didn't help, we met other lost souls and they died, going through hell is not funny.  

Baba said, follow the master, face the devil, fight to the end and finish the game.
He talked of the four pillars of life.

But the second one he didn't mention, because I already had to face it. Face the devil, we faced it, therefore, he didn't tell, but to understand that was also difficult, what they had sold as very easy had become very difficult.

The leader was not on the top of it, he was the problem and he didn't understand the master. The movement seemed to fall with him.

But for me it changed again, because of Baba. 

Today we know what happened and why it was possible to get mixed up like that. There are memories of the nice experiences. We only meditated, therefore, we had a kind of 'heaven on earth' for some time, but 'hell' followed. 
Only meditation, no problems, everything fine, but also hell on that level are still two sides to it, it is not yet unity.
Upsetting was that such stupid stories disturbed the invincibility principle..., like a joke, but no joke, it happened.
Even more difficult was to understand it because it was basic, Baba guided from inside. If 'that' is not there, nothing is there, the whole thing had lost its value. It is always positive, if it gets negative it is lost. The principle is not that easy to be realized as 'sath' and 'invincibility'. That made it difficult.
The first thing Baba did in the interview room, he took the idea of easy and no effort away. He said it was very difficult to understand.

With his inside guidance it was possible to realize it, but it was on the level of understanding and knowledge, and not just practice.
With his help it got clear, but it was by his inside presence and not just by regular meditation and technique.