True friends are
those who help in uplifting your life by cleansing your ideals and emotions.
Those who drag you into pomp, pedantry, paltry entertainment and petty pranks
are enemies, not friends. True friends cannot be won by social status, external
scintillation or verbal assertions. A friendship knit by monetary bonds is disrupted
as soon as you ask the loan to be repaid. So, when you oblige your friend with
a loan, the friendship too is broken at that very moment. How can friendship be
cemented by words or by coins? The feeling of friendship must activate every
nerve, permeate every blood-cell, and purify every emotional wave; it has no
place for the slightest trace of egotism. The companionship which seeks to
exploit or fleece for personal benefit cannot be elevated into the noble
quality of friendship. Perhaps, the only friend who can pass this rigorous
test, is God.
By getting the right
answer and insights our ideals are cleansed and our emotions as well, it all
happens unaware only in doing it and as long as we don't listen we will not get
it, because he is telling it in such a way that we cannot understand it without
thinking it over.
If we meditate and we
take a mantra and repeat it in our thoughts, we know we purify the mind and we
hope that the emotions are purified as well and if we listen to his words and
we think it over, what happens, our ideals get cleansed.
True
friends are those who help in uplifting your life by cleansing your ideals and
emotions.
At night in the dream
stage were two wild cats and we cannot tell a wild animal what to do and it
will not listen, if we try we will be ignored or moved out of the way.
The Maharishi said in
the dream not so long ago, we sat in the mountains outdoors in a coffee shop
and we ate Tuna and he said, 'funny that we eat meat to just not be different
from others'. That is the feeling and the picture of it and how powerful that inner
feeling of not wanting to be different from the others really is.
The wildcat was once
present during waiting in a Darshan, sitting there waiting in the air was that
wild cat behind my mind's eyes pacing back and forth in a cage, always back and
forth, back and forth, just waiting for a door to open to get out of it.
I want the second
time for Gurupurnima and it was in 86 and I came back in March 87 and in that
time were just waiting for answers.
I had troubles
sitting there and waiting, but I had no other choice and I had no idea of how
much more time we would have to wait for those answers. He said in my first
interview that it was very difficult to understand and in the meantime I know
how difficult actually.
Back here it was the
same, it was all gone what had been my life before. I had been with TM, but what
felt that good at the beginning had turned into something else.
I had lived in the
TM-center and worked for the TM-movement and was mostly in touch with the
national leader and with him in no time everything turned around and nothing
made sense anymore.
I noticed that it
should be friendship and that yogis are our friends, because the all felt like
enemies and it had turned into the opposite.
It was a traumatising
experience and even more so because it was not possible to get any answer why
it was like that, they were all puppets on a string and the hand was not there
which should be there holding them, so there was no way they could see it what
had happened, it means nobody was at my side and I found myself lost in a
spiritual nowhere land and the only person that was real in that was actually
Baba and now he said, very difficult to understand and I had not idea why and
how it turned into the opposite, 'enemies' instead of 'friends'.
When I came back it
was all gone and instead of friendship, they felt all like enemies and I had to
avoid them, it had turned into the opposite and nobody knew why and nobody saw
it as they were only puppets on a string, they had learnt everything by heart,
they went on like nothing had happened and I had just to get out of it, but it
was probably also the fastest way getting out of it and I knew already that it
was not the right path, but that didn't help to understand what had happened.
During the study
circle or with the study circle I noticed the same experience I had before as
meditation teacher and here he is telling us why.
We use Baba's words
and go deep into the meaning of it and that is the uplifting part of it and our
life by cleansing our ideals and we do it in the circle and it is cleaning our
emotions.
It is uplifting our
life and our emotions and it is the same effect in his words and therefore, it
is the same type of experience. So we find again what we actually thought was
lost. That is telling us
also why yogis are our friends.
The companionship
which seeks to exploit or fleece for personal benefit cannot be elevated into
the noble quality of friendship. Perhaps, the only friend who can pass this
rigorous test, is God.
Who will be able to
pass that test if it is that rigorous?
To go on as before
was after all those experiences not anymore possible, and I was there and I
thought, why me, why me? But I would still be there if it would not have
happened and it was probably the fastest and directest way getting out of
it.
If we don't know the
source, we cannot understand it and we thought we did it was all science and as
it seems logical, but in reality we didn't know the source, therefore, it was
not possible to understand it at all, even if we lived in the illusion of it
and went on trying again and again and all in vain and that happened not only
to me, but a lots of people who were with TM, they tried to understand it and realized
in a way or other that it was impossible or even as it seems some died of it
finally as there was no answer. It is not the intellect and asking the question
what is the problem, but that we don't know the source and therefore, we don't
know the right question and if we don't know the right question we cannot get
the right answer, but everything depends on that only, that we have to get the
right and not the wrong answer.
In reality was
repeated what had been learnt by heart non-stop without any real background
information, it just looked like it, but that was the biggest illusion, the
real wisdom was missing and they didn't know anything about it, not about mantras,
not about Patanjali, not about the yoga sutras and their reaction, the insights
and the wisdom related to those insights, about all of that, the real wisdom
was missing. We knew nothing about it and all was just learnt by heart and very
superficial and that means the source of knowledge was missing and if we don't
know the source, we cannot understand it, we don't even know how to ask the
right action if we don't know the source, how about getting the right answer.
That is the meaning of being lost.
A relationship can
certainly break into pieces, but it is not air usually and not on that spiritual
level.
With Baba we got
aware that, 'yogis are our friends' and that usually it is not meant like that
and it should not break into pieces again, but as it did, there was nothing but
pieces left. It made sense
listening to his words that the air broke in pieces, noticing that it had been
put together first and it was about right action and truth, they had been put
together and it is wisdom only accessible to the enlightened one, therefore in
Baba's words was also the right reflection of it and we get the answer only if
we listen, but we have to listen, reading alone is not enough.
When we know the
source and how we got there, we know why it can break into pieces and why there
can be only pieces left, it was not the right path.
But it is like with
the shadow, we have to follow it. It doesn't work if we don't realize that the
shadow is a shadow only and therefore not real.
As long as we see the
shadow as real, it has power over thoughts, emotions and feelings.
True friends are
those who help us to uplift our life by cleansing our ideals and emotions and
that is why the study circle is a great practice, as his words have that
powerful effect to uplift our life and clean our ideals and emotions.
With mediation we had
a mantra and it was repeated and it was not depending on anybody, they just had
a mantra to use. We sat down and we
meditated.
What we do in the
circle is at the same time sharing the wisdom and it is not only on an
individual level, but it is together with others that he is actually
experienced as present and omnipresent.
True friends are
those who help in uplifting your life by cleansing your ideals and emotions.
My memory looked like
a picture book without explanation to the pictures, the right answer was
missing. When Baba left the body, he asked at night and in the dream what had
happened when that lady came back during that time and what has changed
now?
He had left the body and he was in the dream stage and he asked me about what had happened when she came back in 84 and only pieces were left and why. I had to just wait for the answer so many years?
It was even before I
went the first time to him. At that time I didn't know Baba yet and I had to
all think it over again.
It was about the
right question. If we don't know how to ask the right question, we cannot get
to the right answer and as I didn't know the source, I didn't know the right
question.
It is like following
the track of an animal, if we don't know how to read a track, we will not find
it. We first have to ask the right question and that is finding the track of
the animal.
The Zen Buddhism's
has the story of the ten bulls and how we first find it, catch it, tame it,
ride it home and finally the bull is gone and what is left is the enlightened
mind.
It is also a way we
can understand how we follow the shadow and that the shadow has four legs. In
every picture of the divine we have an animal and with Ganesh it is a mouse.
Mother Kali is riding a lion, Durga a tiger, Lord Shiva is with his bull, it is
the body consciousness.
True friends are
those who help in uplifting your life by cleansing your ideals and emotions.
No comments:
Post a Comment