Embodiments of divine Love! As long as a person is conceited and egotistical, no one will like that person. Even their wedded spouse and their own children, though they may appear to respect them externally, will not be happy with an arrogant person. As long as one is filled with ego, one can never be really happy. Therefore, at the very outset, you should get rid of your ego (ahamkara). If one is filled with anger, one cannot experience joy (Krodham hithva na sochathi). Only when anger is subdued, happiness can be experienced. As long as one is filled with insatiable desires, one cannot feel really wealthy. The moment the person gives up desires, all riches will come to them. Till the moment a person is greedy, they will be a stranger to happiness. When you give up greed, you will feel endowed with all riches.
Experience it and feel it and how do we experience it?
Embodiments of divine Love!
What comes in our mind? Do we feel uplifted in our life? Do we feel cleansed in our emotion and our ideal, because that is what we want?
Swami's Darshan and the insights are in his words if we listen to it. We have to feel it, experience it, and do we remember a speech when he was talking to all the devotees sitting at his feet? What is in our mind, what memory is there, what are the thoughts coming up when listening to it, do we remember?
As long as a person is conceited and egotistical, no one will like that person. Even their wedded spouse and their own children, though they may appear to respect them externally, will not be happy with an arrogant person. As long as one is filled with ego, one can never be really happy. Therefore, at the very outset, you should get rid of your ego (ahamkara).
How do we feel it, we have to feel it.
Listen, think it over and absorb, and we feel it, we are part of it and how?
If there is some bad experience with it and now they all seem not good enough, we punish really ourselves with it, without devotees we cannot get his experience, he has never been the body and the mind.
Not they are the problem, the mind is it. We have to feel it, what feels like conceit, too good to talk, too proud to explain, too arrogant to share, nobody will like such a person. What is the ego and what is not ego? We have to know how to get out of the ego to know when we are actually in the ego.
But that is clear, Swami is telling us, if there is ego, we can never really be happy and it is not pain or something with relationship problems that make us not happy, it is just the ego and therefore, we think it should be in our power to change it, but what about the shadow and all that ego stuff we have experienced before and it is still coming up?
We begin to feel it and it is no more just an idea about egoism, but it is a feeling of it and how it can come up and what we face if we face the shadow and not just the idea of Swami is God and great is great and we are special because we had met in that life time, that seems also part of the imaginative faculty of the mind taking advantage of the characteristic delusion of the universe to be into self-elevation.
In reality we know divinity only if we know our own higher self and our own divinity, as long as we don't have the experience of it, we also don't know the divinity of Swami.
We have to feel it.
If one is filled with anger, one cannot experience joy (Krodham hithva na sochathi). Only when anger is subdued, happiness can be experienced.
That part is about anger and how do we feel it?
Do you remember some hot anger coming up in you and you didn't know why and how and what did you do about it?
Just two days ago I was able to look at the shadow and what came up, but only today by writing it down I got aware of it that it had been provoked by that guy standing there and that is why I reacted the way I did.
Another time I would probably not have reacted at all and just gone around him, but the way he looked at, looking for confrontation and I joined the fun, I didn't ignore it and I didn't drive back and just around him, but I went into his game and probably he enjoyed it that he had upset someone and if not, he didn't deserve better.
Do you notice when we feel it we actually talk about something that has happened and not just the idea of it. We feel it, we live it, we experience it, the hidden aggression coming up in the air with that guy blocking my path pretending that I am blocking his.
Such situations in action films are shown usually in such a way that the guy who gets mad is getting out of his car taking the other at his collar and giving him a blow with the fist. That is how it felt, that was all behind on the energy and emotional level only, but it is the shadow and we have to follow the shadow.
As long as one is filled with insatiable desires, one cannot feel really wealthy.
Swami is talking here about insatiable desires and after he talks about greed, the problem seems here frankly that the desires are not only desires but insatiable desires, that means no satisfaction what so ever and that reminds me at that sentence of my ex said after he came back from that deal with the school, we had prepared for years ahead already and he said, 'what have you done' and I was not present in that fickle moment when it all ended and was done with and he said, 'I will never give that woman any satisfaction …' That was the result of years of preparation and as she was a devotee, it said to me – no support, it is doomed and not Swami's Lila.
Swami asked me three times and in three different interviews, 'how do you feel' the last one I said, 'you know Swami' and he didn't answer so it was right, but how do we do it?
How do we practice to be able find that mirror?
Listening to his words, thinking it over he is the mirror and in that mirror we get aware of it and we can see how we feel actually, but it means he knows, he reflects it in the mirror and we don't know.
And it the meantime we also know that it was good and that it would have been awful and never worked out with that school and also because of that mind attitude, he blow it in no time.
And when Swami talks about the ego, that comes to my mind, because that is just what it seems to be and nobody really likes that also his family not, because it is arrogant and blind and stupid and if there is ego and it is exactly as Swami is telling us here, he never will be happy, he is his own worst enemy.
The moment the person gives up desires, all riches will come to them.
I told him when we met that he has not the attitude of a rich guy, as he had insatiable desires as it seems, only that I was not aware of otherwise I would have run as fast I could and if we don't give up greed and desires, what good can happen?
But it seems he was too stupid to realize it, he goes on dreaming about being rich and he is for sure not listening to Swami's words, he is not able to. If he mentions success it is a dream and when he speaks about failure it is real.
In such a way our thinking turns into failure and it was already installed when we met, we were only not aware of it, the way he took advantage of it had already failure in it, if he would not have been that stupid, he would not just have taken advantage of it, but we cannot change that, what is done is done.
But that is how we get a feeling for it and it is on the feeling level and as we have to feel it, Swami is telling us here, the moment a person gives up desires, all riches will come.
Till the moment a person is greedy, they will be a stranger to happiness. When you give up greed, you will feel endowed with all riches.
Greed is on a material level and we probably can call it the inner enemy, but we should not take it to light hearted and think that it doesn't matter, it is part of the shadow and every action has consequences.
If there is greed, it means we are strangers to happiness.
What does that mean 'stranger to happiness'? How does it feel to be a stranger, it means not being at home with happiness, not knowing happiness really.
If we experience just that and nothing else, we get into a feeling of being a stranger and not at home, a stranger to happiness.
Whatever Swami is telling us, on the inner level and in our heart is the reality of it, he makes us aware if we feel like a stranger why there is no happiness, he tells just what is true and how it reflects in our heart as stranger of happiness and if we think it over we get a feeling for it. That is happening when we listen, think it over and absorb.
Therefore, if we listen to his words, we also get aware of the result in our experience if there is greed and we get aware of the suffering which is present being strangers to happiness, what is all the wealth good for if there is no happiness and we are in fact strangers to happiness and that should give us a feeling for our own dilemma.
No matter how wealthy we are, we are not rich really, because all richness we find if we give it up and find a way to give it up and that alone is not yet renouncement, that is just the first step in giving it up to be able to live a happy life and to be our own self.
Renouncement and getting detachment has something to do with that constant focus on the divine only and the mind having no more hold on us, we are just focused on the divine reality and that all are one and there is nothing else but the real existing values and the individual is as with Swami's words a barren field and if we see farming as holy we don't really like barren fields.
We have to listen to Swami's words and feel it, taste it, absorb it in our own life to get the feeling for it to get aware of the mirror and to see the reflection of his words in our own life, only then it makes sense that he is the man in our dreams to awake us.
It is the way that awakening is happening and if we don't listen to his words and we don't go deep into it we feel it and we are in it and enjoy the thought and the feeling of it knowing we are in the field of Atma and it reflects, reacts and resounds ...
If we don't listen to Baba's words and enjoy it, we cannot see the mirror in our own self and we will not wake up.
We can only wake up if we listen to him and we do what he is telling us to do and we don't get to our own mind conclusion and call that Swami when in reality it has nothing to do with him, but with greed probably and the mind not being able to settle down and to get rid of it.
We have to use his words, like that we avoid confusion.
Till the moment a person is greedy, they will be a stranger to happiness. When you give up greed, you will feel endowed with all riches.
A stranger to happiness, only when we are able to give up greed we will feel endowed with all riches.
What is all that wealth good for if we are just a stranger to happiness?
And only if we listen to his words, we get aware of it why a stranger to happiness ..., we can see it reflected in his words, if we listen and we feel his words and we go deep into it and touch with it ..., we feel it, and we are it and become it and that is how we will see it, it becomes insight, and Swami said in the dream that he is the insight and he is the following step.
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