To be free is your birthright! When you guide your steps along the path illumined by the universal unbound dharma you will become really free; if you stray away from the light, you will get bound. What you call 'freedom' is a certain type of bondage. Genuine freedom is obtained only when delusion is absent, when there is no identification with the body and senses, and no servitude to the objective world. People who have escaped from this servitude and achieved freedom in the genuine sense are very few in number. Bondage lies in every act done with the consciousness of the body as the Self, for one is then the play thing of the senses. Only those who have escaped this fate are free; this 'Freedom' is the ideal stage to which dharma leads. With this stage constantly in mind, one who engages in the activity of living, can become a liberated person (muktha-purusha).
How beautiful, to see freedom as our birthright, isn't it. We are not free and that used to it that we don't know what it feels like being free actually and if we don't have the experience of it, we cannot imagine it. I went years ago into dynamic mediation, it was also about freedom, but I couldn't find it actually. It was after we came back from our visit in the ashram with Baba and during that time he was holding during 14 days every day a lecture and we were sitting outside and listening to his voice and the kids were playing with their dolls in the sand. It was a beautiful time.
During that time listening to his words it was like feeling it that he talked about the same 'I am that' I had seen before during a meditation in Ooty and at once things made sense and it was like I had never really listened to his words until then.
It was amazing and how often he spoke about the principle of 'I am that' and it felt all different to listen to his voice when we had at once that feeling that everything made sense and it fell in place.
Afterwards again back I began with dynamic meditation to get out of the strict routine we adapted with the mediation technique. To get out of that strict routine as it had become a habit was not easy and when replaced with dynamic meditation it really worked, it was possible to get out of that conditioning, but later I began again with silent meditation, but it was different and mostly in the morning, to make sure that it would not again become just routine as it had been before.
During writing the book it got aware of it that it seemed not even possible to get aware that it was Darshan actually, it was during our Darshan in the air and it said 'I am that' in big letters above Swami's head, but as I was used to meditate in routine and automatically I took again the mantra and I was not used to question it, what happened was that I went without getting aware of it back to the mantra.
It felt like they were all thinking the same thought and somehow it didn't feel right, but I was not reacting, the intellect didn't work. I just looked at it and forgot it and was not even aware of it and I was not even aware that it was Darshan really, the sight of truth.
It was like all had the same thought and I didn't wonder about it or questioned it and I didn't think it over, we went on with the mantra in the established and convinced idea that it was right like that and that nothing needed to be done, but that. I went on with mechanical meditation, repeating the mantra in the idea that all problems would be solved what means if all problems are solved, there are also no questions. Just going on automatically convinced that everything was fine and done and that there was no problem and I didn't get aware that it was a wrong conclusion and it the mind only and as it seemed nobody got aware of it, we get lost in it and go on repeating the mantra thinking that by doing that the world is getting enlightened and that all problems will be solved.
It is kind of a shock getting aware of it, but it was not felt like a shock, because it took that much time getting aware of it.
We had three interviews with the country group in that week and that is how I got aware of it that it was special and that I should better not forget it and that was really not possible after three interviews and in one interview Swami was looking in my eyes until the thought was there, what is he looking for?
Only much later in thinking it over I got aware of it that it was Darshan and that the routine was established in the thought that everything was right and not wrong and that I knew how and it was a habit created by doing it and we needed only to repeat the mantra and forget everything else and all was fine and okay, only it was actually not, because that routine made it impossible to think and getting aware of it that something was wrong and that I didn't even realize that it was about Darshan, sight of truth, but I went on dull and without any reflection in that technique we had learnt before.
The intellect had no more function, but to know that the mantra had to be repeated and that was seen as true and in fact, we know it is not true.
Even if it was above Swami in the air and usually we know that we have inner view during a Darshan, I didn't get aware of it, I was too used to the technique and in a normal mind state we know it is Darshan and our intellect knows it and we think it over, but in that state of meditation, I thought it was right to not think it over and to just take the mantra and go on no matter what routine it was and even the Darshan went by unnoticed and that is probably the reason why Baba was looking in my eyes in that week we had three interviews with the Swiss group.
He made it an unforgettable moment with that experience of the 'I am that' and after I saw it in the air above his head, I thought all were thinking the same thought and I wanted to go back to the mantra and go on with my mediation technique.
That is how I got aware that if we do it as routine and we believe that all problems are solved if we meditate, we are not able to get aware of a Darshan, because we go on with the routine, that is why routine, there is no answer, no awareness of insight, but only routine and by that we are already back in the mind again.
I wanted to get out of the routine of morning and evening regularly meditating and I got out of it with dynamic meditation, it was deconditioning and getting me out of old habits, and it worked quite well.
And when I began with mediation again, I did it in the morning, that was enough and like that I was sure I would not get in the same habit again.
At that time with dynamic meditation what made me get out of habits I went into dynamic dance as well, only I was constantly thinking, 'not that and not this', constantly keeping aware of what is mind and not mind, every moment new again and the result was in the end nothing but rhythm, the music was still there, but everything else on body and mind level got transcended and it fell flat by thinking 'not that' and the result was an amazing, beautiful feeling of freedom, it was one of the best experiences I ever had.
To be free is your birthright! When you guide your steps along the path illumined by the universal unbound dharma you will become really free; if you stray away from the light, you will get bound.
A few times after such a dance it felt like a six year old small child, before school began, it was an incredible feeling.
But sometime after it changed and it had to do with love, there was no freedom and the insight said, 'stop dancing'.
The arthritic hip pain gets also not really better with dancing and sometimes after coming back it was difficult to get up steps, but during dancing I didn't feel it only afterwards, but the experience of freedom was incredible, it was like the inner self remembered that time again, because we went beyond all what had been artificially established before.
What you call 'freedom' is a certain type of bondage. Genuine freedom is obtained only when delusion is absent, when there is no identification with the body and senses, and no servitude to the objective world.
What they experienced as 'freedom' was a certain type of bondage as Swami explains it here.
We were used of love and they were not and it lost its innocence in that experience and it was all on the body level. After a while it didn't feel the same anymore and Baba said afterwards when he left the body, 'Osho's path doesn't work because older age needs more safety'.
That was the right answer, what I had used to remove the habits in my life worked and it was a good experience, but it was still not the right answer.
I went again singing Bhajans and with Swami we should experience that pure love actually.
People who have escaped from this servitude and achieved freedom in the genuine sense are very few in number. Bondage lies in every act done with the consciousness of the body as the Self, for one is then the play thing of the senses.
Listening to his words we get aware of the experience and also why there was no freedom, it was all on the level of body and body consciousness, they don't really go beyond the body, they don't think, 'not this and not that' and transcend the body and also not during dancing, it was all body consciousness. The purpose is to be free, but they cannot get there, as he said, it doesn't work, because older age needs more safety and in that sense too much freedom feels to them dangerous and not good.
Only those who have escaped this fate are free; this 'Freedom' is the ideal stage to which dharma leads. With this stage constantly in mind, one who engages in the activity of living, can become a liberated person (muktha-purusha).
If our Dharma is remembering that we are all one and near him, we can only get near him in being aware of that oneness. We follow the insights, the inner master and remember who we are and that we are not two, but we are only one. The awareness of it makes us feel close to him, because he is the one.
It is a divine family, not a family on the mind level, there are many families in that world, but there is only one divine family and we are all part of it, the whole humanity. Our duty is in that sense staying near to the divine, it is the duty.
If we sing a Bhajan and there are thirty people, we are able to hear thirty voices or only one and that is the divine voice. It needs a certain way of focus and wherever we meet with other devotees, we are just one, this is our duty. We have to hold on to that focus and his presence is everywhere and not in India, he is where we are, wherever we meet in his name, he is in the midst of it.
That is how we transcend historical and geographical differences.
What Swami is telling us here is if we follow dharma and in that sense selfless service doesn't mean going and help others on the outer level as all people think it is, but it means serving others in staying constantly near him.
With this stage constantly in mind, one who engages in the activity of living, can become a liberated person (muktha-purusha).
That is the stage we should reach all together and we get aware of it if we listen and think it over and absorb and follow the inner master, fight to the end and finish the game.
Only those who have escaped this fate are free; this 'Freedom' is the ideal stage to which dharma leads.
We engage in action as being the same, that is what we have to do, we have to keep the stage in our mind, there is nothing but that, we are all the same – you and I are we and we and he is I, the divine higher self.
Free means 'not that', not the body, not the mind, but being free in the universal and unbound Dharma and we become really free and that is the light and as he is explaining us if we stray away from the light, we get bound.
To be free is your birthright! When you guide your steps along the path illumined by the universal unbound dharma you will become really free; if you stray away from the light, you will get bound. What you call 'freedom' is a certain type of bondage. Genuine freedom is obtained only when delusion is absent, when there is no identification with the body and senses, and no servitude to the objective world.
This is beautiful and we have to understand that duty and it is not what we think we have to do, but because we have to be is who we really are and not identified with the mind and the body and by that we transcend all differences.
But it is the result of using the intellect and knowing right from wrong, we cannot get there by mechanical repetition of a mantra and not by a meditation technique, because the mechanics, the habit and technique will overshadow the insights and it means with other words, being back in the mind.
Nobody is able to understand it right without reaching who we are in that oneness, we have to get aware that we are one.
That wisdom about the universal oneness is what can make us free.
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