Difficulties and pain help one to nurse and build the capacity for patience and forbearance. However, due to mental weakness and ignorance, people invariably shun painful experiences and distress. Do not be weak; be brave and welcome troubles. Let them come; more the merrier. Only with such a courageous attitude can you bring out the kshama (forbearance) hidden within you.
Can you get promoted to a higher class without passing an examination? It is only when you secure the prescribed marks and pass the examination; you are declared eligible to advance to the higher class. While preparing for the examination you have to face stress and many difficulties but how sweet the promotion is! So welcome troubles as tests that prepare you for higher things and be happy when troubles descend on you, because that is when kshama truly blossoms.
Baba (thought for the day)
Nice invitation to go ahead and face every obstacle on the way and to not avoid it, but also to not go into it, to say yes and to say no at the same time.
It seems kind of normal that it is the tendency of our mind to avoid painful experiences and distress.
During the time being in a relationship with the National Leader of the TM-movement after a while I had enough, he created all kinds of problems just because he was, who he was, he plaid games and it was not harmless, what he maybe thought it was.
There was my sister involved and that made it real challenging, because when that thing broke in pieces, whatever that thing was, it looked like thin air only and probably it was because he was unfaithful, my worry expanded to my sister and it was not possible be sure he would not get her into that as well and that is how it turned into hell, because it was not possible to know what it was, what broke into pieces, it was about yoga etc., with whatever that had been in that moment, the whole thing – everything broke into pieces and that was the universe for us in that moment.
There was no safety, he could do whatever he liked to do as leader and the master was not present.
That easy it was for it to turn into the opposite.
How far my sister was involved, I didn't know and why she was not to be trusted, also not. Getting aware why it looked like that, with her in the background and family, it was I real problem, because I didn't want her to get lost in it and I couldn't trust it anymore.
And when his former girl-friend came back, because he challenged her with another lady, who happened to be me, I had just enough of it and I went on course. That means I said, go ahead, I want yoga, and I want answers and not that.
I didn't expect the whole thing to break into pieces because instead of avoiding the difficulties, I went fully into it, but it broke into pieces.
Probably my attitude challenged it.
But the insights from going into problems instead of avoiding it, they were afterwards difficult to understand. It went on and on and it expanded on all levels, but only in the inner view, like that mirage in the mirror, the reality is there, but nevertheless, it is upside down and not easy to understand.
We had to get the right knowledge first to be able to understand that upside down world and that knowledge is in Sathva, Rajas and Tamas.
Upside down is Tamas, darkness, ignorance etc. and like that it finally reached the master. Now it was clear, we had a problem.
And I went to Baba hoping he would help me to understand it, and he said, it is very difficult to understand, just think about God, TM is not the right path.
I left that interview and had the feeling to not understand anything anymore, how did I get there and why?
That was not no problem and meditation didn't help, it was all upside down and there seemed to be no answers to it. Because of a stupid leader who was playing games …?
It seemed that childish and had such awful consequences that it was like a shock to face the reality of it.
It was a problem in the inner view, because it didn't make sense.
But on the other hand it just said, you are not on the right place, nobody of those people goes into problems, they all avoid it and just meditate and believe all problems will be solved, as I didn't do that, it was different and not like the others and it seems I went fully into it facing the situation, because I wanted truth. What was that?
So one day the Maharishi was in my dream and said, I should not come to him anymore, because I don't belong to them and I know it.
It means I went into it facing truth, but what is truth?
It felt like nothing but mess, nothing clear, nothing understood, nobody looked at it, nobody wanted to know. I was a fish in the air, out of his own element or a bird in the water, but it was not possible to fly or to swim, it just felt awful.
Knowing it, what was that? It felt like we had somehow lost the feeling of knowing, it was more seeing, but I had to understand what It depended if we would be able to translate it and that means listen, think it over and absorb.
So it took time to understand why it was such a crash landing in the TM-movement, because I wanted truth in a movement who meditates, but everybody seemed to avoid truth. How that could be called yoga?
That was again very difficult to understand?
I guess it was more like a short cut and the promise of the heaven on earth, than the possibility to live that heaven on earth. It was much too easy and avoiding all problems cannot lead to Kshama, as we can conclude, reading the words of Baba in this thought for the day, it is exactly the opposite and if it would be possible to get there by going the path of least effort and just meditating regularly, everybody would do it.
In taking the path of least effort we will not develop forbearance and peace and that is the first step to get to divine bliss, therefore, with meditation alone we cannot get there, whatever they promised, it doesn't work.
Only TM-people believe that it is possible only by meditating to get to enlightenment and that turns out to be naive and dangerous. It is maybe possible to be like a vacuum cleaner just there to meditate to clean consciousness and by that help mother nature to develop, but it is not possible to get to enlightenment and nobody wants to get aware that they are only something like vacuum cleaners and therefore, everything is kept secret and they get big titles to make them happy, in reality they have no notion of yoga, they don't even know what they are doing.
In that environment going as Baba tells here in direction of difficulties and welcoming them, was doing the opposite and in challenging that thing it also meant to be ready to go through hell.
After all that seemed not such a clever thing to do, because all others didn't do it, but TM promised that it covered everything, so we knew only after we had made the experience, whatever that was.
But with Baba it is okay, he asks just that, to not avoid it.
Do not be weak; be brave and welcome troubles. Let them come; more the merrier. Only with such a courageous attitude can you bring out the kshama (forbearance) hidden within you.
Actually, in the meantime it felt like all strength gone, that was less good, it takes too much time to understand it or to get there, wherever we go.
I met a guy and he went the path of least effort and that doesn't work, of course, he is not facing troubles, he is also avoiding it.
I never went the path of least effort.
That means again I was just creating troubles for myself, because that couldn't work out and he was the person for a challenge, but not for a relationship, it was clear from the beginning that he would only go on avoiding it, if I would have known, but again we learn by experience and that takes the strength away.
Only with such a courageous attitude can you bring out the kshama (forbearance) hidden within you.
I have learnt to tell what I have to tell in thinking it over in writing it down. Without one word spoken it went on like that and with the people I am in touch with, cleaning it up.
There was a devotee, she was in the study circle and she said that she would like to not get that angry and it was just because she felt she was not allowed to bring in her ideas, because she was no aware that with giving up her duty she gave up the most important thing, duty is God.
That is Baba's teaching, but I also felt tired in the end, realizing that it was just about that and it was really no problem, she got another one and will be fine and can bring in all her ideas as much as she likes and she can even find more ideas, if she likes, just to be able to thinks that she can tell what she would like to tell, I hope she will feel okay.
I don't bring in ideas; I take them away to get to the essence of it.
Can you get promoted to a higher class without passing an examination? It is only when you secure the prescribed marks and pass the examination, you are declared eligible to advance to the higher class. While preparing for the examination you have to face stress and many difficulties but how sweet the promotion is! So welcome troubles as tests that prepare you for higher things and be happy when troubles descend on you, because that is when kshama truly blossoms.
Kshama is in my understanding a state of mind able to take it as it comes and to be able to absorb his words in inner silence and peace, if it is right understood, but we cannot just face troubles and problems, if we are not looking at it. We have to have the courage to face truth.
And after all it has to be real, we cannot just accept everything if it is upside down, we should realize why it went upside down and by asking questions and inquiry, we get answers and finally to the right conclusion.
I don't know how many times I write it down to get there, it is done when it is done and we go, where we are going.
And he is enlightening from the inside, somehow, we can absorb and we get to a conclusion we know it is right, and that builds up Kshama.
It helps us to keep the inner smile and going on like that - just keep smiling.
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