The entire Universe is suffused with Divinity. Since your mind is
steeped in Prakruthi (worldly objects) you are not able to
see Paramatma (Divine). Just as when you focus your attention at a
necklace, you shut your eyes to what it is made of, similarly as long as you
look at the world with a materialistic attitude, Divinity shuts itself off from
us. Once you gaze at the world with a divine attitude you see only Divinity.
Who are the thieves that steal from every human being their peace and joy? They
are the thieves of desire, pride, greed, infatuation, anger and jealousy, who
rob a man of all his riches. But the worst of all thieves who inflicts the
worst damage is matsarya (envy). We must win over our internal
enemies and turn our gaze to Divinity who pervades the entire Universe.
Baba (thought for the day)
In this thought for the day Baba talks about the entire universe
suffused with divinity and if we focus on the world, divinity will shut itself
off from us.
The difficulty is, the mind cannot get it.
The whole universe is everything around us and it’s huge, but when
Baba is telling us he is God, we have a person in front of us and only love and
if it is about the universe, there is nobody. He is an entity in a body
and the universe not.
He is love and we experience that love in him, but if the entire
universe is love, why we don’t experience that love, there should be only love.
I remember the time in his presence I went back to Zurich and wondered why in
his presence was only love and in our world we don’t even know that it exists.
All those questions coming up in just reading the first sentence,
hopefully he will tell us later on why.
And how do we get an answer to all those questions coming up
already in the first sentence? We have to go on listening, he will tell us, but
maybe not today, but maybe tomorrow.
If we listen it can be now that we get the answer, but also in two
or ten years, thus we go on listening.
Since your mind is steeped in Prakruthi (worldly
objects) you are not able to see Paramatma (Divine).
Our mind is occupied with worldly things, with family, work, politics,
economics, worldly stuff and if our focus is on that only, what is mind, we
cannot go beyond the mind, if we don’t let go, we cannot go beyond it. And we
learn how to let go with meditation. .
Just as when you focus your attention at a necklace, you shut your
eyes to what it is made of, similarly as long as you look at the world with a
materialistic attitude, Divinity shuts itself off from us.
The focus on the necklace is too strong to think about it that it
is made of gold. And if we see the world with a materialistic attitude,
divinity is not there.
Is it is possible to think, everything is God and to still have
materialistic thoughts? And how do we know that it is divinity and not a
projection?
Do you think that is the reason why Baba materialized necklaces
and rings etc. to make us aware that he is the doer behind and that it is all
part of divinity?
Could very well be, couldn’t it?
What we know is, if we have a materialistic attitude, divinity
shuts itself off from us.
We can ask what is a materialistic attitude and how can we
transform it and when is it divinity and when mind?
Once you gaze at the world with a divine attitude you see only
Divinity.
How can we understand that right?
Lots of questions in only a few sentences and without
discrimination and listening to him, no answers.
If there is no discrimination, we take it for divinity, we are on
the wrong level, the materialistic focus is going on.
We have to know somehow if it is right and if it is not
right.
And as Baba said before we have to refer to the scriptures to know
what is good from what is bad and what is right from wrong, scriptures are for
us the words of Baba, he explains the scriptures and without him we don’t
understand them anyhow.
Therefore, we listen to him to know when it is right and when it
is not right.
I went in that relationship with my ex and Baba said, ‘you didn’t
listen, you have to get a divorce’. First that didn’t make sense, I thought I
listened and followed what he said inside and outside, I translated speeches to
get it hopefully right and I was constantly in meditation, so it didn’t make
sense to me.
But he said that he meditated and it didn’t came to my mind that
he could just tell to make himself look good and to get us into it and it was
all decided much too fast.
Getting a visa every six months, what had to be done, was no
reason to listen and going back and earning some money before coming back to
Baba, was also no reason to think it over, it had to be done.
I first watched the breath or remember the Soham to not forget it
and afterwards I remembered constantly that it is ‘not that, not this’, because
everything we get with the senses and sense-perception is mind and he is not
the mind.
With a mantra we go beyond the mind. He said that every mantra is
okay, so it was okay. We closed the eyes and repeated it and we went beyond the
mind. With constantly thinking ‘not this and not that’ we actually also go
beyond the mind, only it needed more time.
One day it was present as, ‘you got it’. I don’t remember the
experience, but it was a feeling that everybody outside was ‘that’ for just a
moment only. At that time I was focused on dynamic meditation to get away
a bit from silent sitting.
And when he said I should stop dancing, I stopped and I also
didn’t go into ‘not this and not that’ anymore and we forgot about it.
With Bhajans we go beyond the mind. First it felt boring all that
nice singing and good people, nice behavior, good girls and nice and boring
etc. I listened to that, closed the eyes and went beyond it, when we felt
boredom, from inside we went beyond it.
It changed into dynamics in singing.
After he said, ‘you got it’, it changed again.
At the beginning it went beyond the mind. In the mean time we
focus on the ‘I am that’ and all are the same. If we go too much into sound, we
have to go back to the self as we did with the sutras, we do not get lost in
it, if we get lost, it is also mind.
That is how we get strength, if now we are in the mind.
Focused in the awareness of the ‘I am that’ knowing we are all the
same, it is possible to keep the rhythm and we shouldn’t lose strength, but get
stronger from the inside.
It is possible to get aware that all are part of that as we are
not different and the same ‘I am that’. It is an expanding state of awareness,
it expands to all and there is only one left.
Who are the thieves that steal from every human being their peace
and joy? They are the thieves of desire, pride, greed, infatuation, anger and
jealousy, who rob a man of all his riches.
When Baba said that it was passion, Rajas and stay alone, I didn't
go to make sure to be alone and to follow it. And I was also scared of that
Rajas thing. But until now we didn’t think it over. I was scared because it
felt that negative. If there is passion, all those thieves behind seem somehow
present. And they rob man of all his riches, they make us poor.
It explains probably why we can feel like a beggar. When sending
greetings from Brazil and we had been with a friend for a visit to John of God,
I didn't want to let her go alone and it couldn't harm, but my own brother used
those greetings getting into abuse, telling us that we were again looking for another
Guru as Sai Baba has left the body etc.
As I had an insight before that my brother does the worst he can
do actually, I sent the greetings to him also, it was provocation, knowing
there would be a negative reaction and I wanted to know why he did the worst he
can do, but it was much worse than I thought it would be.
It was in my dream that my brother is doing the worst he can do
and first I was worried about him and later sacred. He was that nasty now we
have no contact at all, but afterwards I knew, but the insights are not
understood when they are there, it comes up again later on and it has to be
thought over. I didn't expect it to be that bothersome. It was a real pain in
the ass and we don't want to be bothered about that anymore.
He made fun of everything I had done and there were those thieves
taking peace and joy away, what was left was also the insight of a beggar
woman, naked even and over and over covered with dirt. If we see what those
thieves actually can do to us, we understand it why it is the worst he can do.
It was not a nice experience and ‘incest’ was also in the air, creating
problems for the whole family and finally it felt all fucked up as I thought
was the best expression on that level.
Real riches are on the inside level and in our relationship with
the divine. Baba said before he left the body that he is on a place where gold
and silver flows.
With my ex was ruin in the air and not only a homeless beggar
woman on the streets of New York, but ruin, with the bother it was abuse, ruin
was even more scary. The thieves they rob us of the most precious gift we got,
divinity.
And it didn’t feel very good and there was no way getting into
that again, we couldn't go back, it was much too dangerous, too big the risk,
but on the surface he made it look harmless and okay, but it was not, behind
were all those thieves. At that time I was so tired and not aware of the
difference between dream and insight, I thought it was a nightmare, if I would
have known that it was insight, I would have been even worse, but it couldn't
be changed at that point yet, the family didn't react, I was let down by them
as before already and that also felt bad. It felt like no way out of and I
always said, Baba did it, Baba will find a way. The ruin in the air was awful
and to realize that it was not just a nightmare, but real ruin, that is worse
than a nightmare.
In the movie Effie Gray we have something similar, that guy goes
on totally oblivious of what he is actually doing and the ruin is there.
As I thought it was a Baba Lila I still tried to make the best out
of it, it just didn’t make sense until Baba said in the insight that he took
only advantage of it, afterwards it began to make sense. I tried to keep it
with spirituality on a different level and I wanted to keep the family
together, but it ended in a nervous breakdown.
Only after we left we had to face fact that there was no response
and that it was not as I thought it should have been if Baba would have been in
it. So we had to go and make peace with Baba and sometimes we find a thought
for the day expressing just that truth and that past moment and it is in this
thought for the day.
After we went to Prasanthi, Baba said in the insight, ‘you didn’t
listen, you have to get a divorce’ and it was not behind, but still ahead of us
and I had no idea how difficult that would be. He also said that it was
perverted, also that didn’t make sense to me, but now I understand it.
As long as we had been together we tried to make the best out of
it and also for the child and he warned her to not go back to her father,
because he would destroy, so it was actually the opposite, not good for the
child, but it would have resulted in self-destruction and in the mean time we
also know why. He never cared about the child and he didn't do any effort to be
in touch with her and now he begins to blame her for it.
He seems to be the most stupid guy I ever have met in my life, but
it is not a compliment to have been married with someone like that.
I still thought it would be possible to go on and to meet again,
because in Baba's presence it looked all different. We had met in the ashram,
but it was impossible.
He didn’t respond to anything.
I thought he was a Baba devotees and he thinks so, but he is
living somewhere else in a mind state and in fact Baba saved us from
ruin.
After the divorce it still got worse, the feeling of going
downward didn't end yet. Only now we had to get aware of the disaster of
such a relationship getting aware of it how it really had been and why and how
it happened.
After we left he went and took advantage of his sister. She had
invited him in her house, she got a big house, but he also took only advantage
of it and didn't pay rent.
And when she moved as she sold the house, he didn't help her, he
took only care of his own stuff. I thought that he had to get away from him and
knowing him I was not surprised. It would have been surprising, it it would
have been different.
The house was getting to big for her and as he was just living
free of charge and he sees all that as an opportunity Baba gives him so he can
take advantage of it, that is the perversion about it.
He goes on thinking that Baba is giving it to him and therefore,
he doesn't have to be grateful to anybody, but he can abuse and if we tells
something, he is responding with disgust.
No Baba and no love and only the thieves mentioned.
In his perverted mind Baba is giving him everything so he can take
advantage of it and he doesn't care if he hurts feelings and he doesn't change,
I guess old age has made him even worse.
So now he begins to tell that she is not the daughter he had known
and he begins also to harass her. He is upsetting in a way that we are actually
glad if we don't go into amok and begin to shoot around. She also thought she
would like to kill him, yes, that is the same guy who goes to Prasanthi for 5
weeks and he is acting out a Baba devotee.
Yes for him it is all Baba given, the worst mind state we can imagine,
perverted, old, inflexible and ugly, no over whatsoever. It is a joke that
someone like that goes to Sai Baba, but he didn't go there, he went there
because he former boss had sent him there.
That is the result of the thieves, they rob us of the inner
wealth, of the feeling of inner richness and let us back poor and desolate,
ruin our life in the name of God.
There is nothing more sick as that. It is not only upsetting, it
is disgusting to meet someone like that. He is such a sick guy, as Baba said,
if she goes back to him, he will destroy her as well and now we know why. I
mean for me it was a sign to not go back, but now I stand for the reality of a
total perverted mind and so sick that I am actually scared of it because we
didn't see it in Baba's presence.
It is such a perverted devotion that we get the shiver just
getting aware of it.
That was present in the movie, the character is very much the
same.
We cannot reach anyone on that place, he is gone and he thinks it
is his right and good fortune to take advantage of what Baba gives, and all
that is in his mind only. Baba told him long ago in his dream that he will not
give, but he didn't listen. We know now that he didn't listen, we had to learn
it the hard way.
He planned to come here taking advantage of us again opening up a
money box instead of seeing his daughter, that feels fun to him that he can do
that.
No consideration if he is hurting feelings or if is an insult to
her. Baba told her that her father is stupid and he doesn’t know what he is
doing and he is destroying himself and if she is going back to him, he will
destroy her as well.
Who are the thieves that steal from every human being their peace
and joy? They are the thieves of desire, pride, greed, infatuation, anger and
jealousy, who rob a man of all his riches.
The thieves steal the peace and joy, that is why I had to go and
make peace with Baba, because of the thieves, present in the insight as
vampire, Baba was there with a long nose and vampire teeth and we have to get aware
of it. They rob man of all his riches, the result was the insights and the
homeless beggar woman on the streets of New York.
Baba said in my insight, he is the insight and the following step.
At that time I didn't yet see the following step and that he was afterwards in
his dream telling him that I had to come and make pace with him.
If we would have known what we know today. It was the following
step that he was in his dream and said that we have to come to him to make
peace with Baba.
And in this thought for the day he is telling us why, the thieves
rob us of that what is most precious.
That guy is thinking only about money, but he is the poorest guy
of all as it seems.
I told him in the beginning that he has no inner fulfillment and that
he is looking for money always because there is a state of mind of not
enough.
It was much worse than we thought it was and only when we listen
and think it over what those thieves do with out life, we realize in what
dreadful situation we had been.
It was a mud hole, no windows and no door and it was not possible
to go out but through that same
hole in the earth and the child was the first to go when the rain came and the
solid earth got liquid and the mud came in very fast. Also that was a horrible
insight and Baba behind asked, and what now? .
But the worst of all thieves who inflicts the worst damage
is matsarya (envy). We must win over our internal enemies and turn
our gaze to Divinity who pervades the entire Universe.
Matsarya, Baba tells even the name. There had been jealousy with
his former wife and when he mentioned it, I didn’t know if it was actually him
or her the troublemaker and who had been the one in jealousy, but it sounded
not very good and sick and he also thought my parents should take care of
us, him as well and I asked him if he has lost his mind, he didn't listen. Next
day he said again the same thing and the next and next, it was like I run
against a wall. He wanted only take advantage of it and he was envies because
they had a great house, he had no scruples, no second thought, no bad
conscience and he never reflected about it, Baba is just there to give and he
is there to take and if it doesn't please him, he is disgust and he has turned
Baba’s teaching into no character.
After Baba told him in his dream that I should come and make peace
with him, we went and when we didn’t come back. A month later he was in his
sister’s place and I was sorry with her, as I know him it could only end in a
disaster for her.
And he went three years to college and now she told us that he
didn’t pass the tests.
It would be surprising if he would have, we had a Montessori
training and he would not have been able to do it, I did all his drawings and
writing etc. He was not able to draw one little thing and as it was
kindergarten age, we had to draw all the materials and it was lots of work. A
Baba devotee offered us to take over her school.
He would never have passed even the training if he would not have
had someone doing his drawings. We had four binders filled with pictures
and text how to use the material and we had to design it to get a better
feeling for it and he didn’t do one himself, but not one.
It was the requirements to work with such small kids afterwards,
so we finished the training and it still felt okay in that time until he got in
a fight with the school owner and he back with the words, ‘I will never give
that woman any satisfaction’.
She was also a Baba devotee and it was shier horror to listen to
that, as we are one on some level. So that was the end of it or the end of the
relationship, he had proved with all means that it was impossible to live with
him on a normal basis.
And that with my parents didn't work out.
He took only advantage of it. In his mind he gets everything from
Baba to take advantage of it, so there is no thanks, if we expect a thank you,
he is disgust. As Baba gives, he can abuse, insult, take advantage of it, he
owns it, all is his was pleases him and if it is not he goes into abuse and
insults.
It was not possible to feel his presence after that anymore, he
was the thieve and the worst example of it. It was a big mistake to get
together with him but there was the pressure of time and the opportunity to get
out of it, after all that waiting and Baba said he would take care of it, it
was too much waiting, I couldn't take it anymore.
And I checked it with the neighborhood and also there nothing came
out by it and that is why he said later that he is responsible.
Who are the thieves that steal from every human being their peace
and joy? They are the thieves of desire, pride, greed, infatuation, anger and
jealousy, who rob a man of all his riches. But the worst of all thieves who
inflicts the worst damage is matsarya (envy). We must win over our
internal enemies and turn our gaze to Divinity who pervades the entire
Universe.
Who are the thieves that steal from us our peace and joy?
He said he doesn't know what he is doing. I had met those thieves
also in my parent's house, there is was pride and in my father it was anger I
had met and that is also one of those thieves that take over and to rob us of
our inner riches. Of course we didn't know it, we were not aware of it.
Infatuation is also one of those thieves.
We don't know how bad those thieves really are and how they steal
peace and joy. With the neighbor it was probably infatuation and later it
turned into manipulation.
In the ashram I thought that Baba's presence would take care of
it, but in reality when one thieve finished the next began and like that it
felt like a vicious circle and when one was over it began all over again.
The feeling of Baba’s presence was gone in no time, it felt like a
nowhere place and a prison. It felt sick to listen to a perverted arguing and
in time it resulted in pain, because Baba was gone and when for a change I felt
good, he took care of it that we felt bad again, he didn't stop talking until
the energy went down again, what thieve was that envy or desire?
We went into it thinking that Baba would take care of peace and
joy and it feel today rather like Pandora's Box. The peace and joy were not
only disturbed but robbed by the thieves and he took away all riches and how we
had felt in the ashram in the presence of Baba and the feeling of peace and joy
was gone.
Just as when you focus your attention at a necklace, you shut your
eyes to what it is made of, similarly as long as you look at the world with a
materialistic attitude, Divinity shuts itself off from us.
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