Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Heaven and Hell, but the Observer is only real if Free

The source of all types of sorrow is ignorance (ajnana). The source of ignorance is identification with the body - the delusion that you are the body. This can be removed only by the acquisition of right knowledge.
To remove darkness, light is needed; darkness cannot be frightened away, nor can you make it yield by prayer or petition or protest. It will not disappear unless light comes in. When ignorance goes, grief too vanishes. That is why, in the Geeta, Lord Krishna tells Arjuna, “Attach yourself to Me and earn the light of True Knowledge and tread the path of ‘No grief’.
Baba (thought for the day)

The observer is in control. If we watch the interaction between the observer and the inner child, we are automatically in control. But it is not only watching but understanding it. If there is a trance which came out of fear, we have to find the source of it to wake up the observer to make it go away.
TM called them governors and ministers etc.
Transcending means going beyond trance, that is the observer and therefore, controls the environment, but with TM it is only the TM environment.
During Baba’s Darshan in the beginning I was surprised to see that he changed inside constantly. He was one with the people, but at the same time beyond it. It felt like lots of shades passing by in his face and he was always behind, that is what I saw in the first Darshans.
TM technique cleaned mind, it means no trance, therefore, everything is seen as stress, no trance can form.

But they are not aware of it and to get hold of trance, we have to realize what it is. And by that they recreate a new trance, the movement trance, not allowed to go to another master, not allowed this and that.


They are not in the observer, in the observer we are only if we are free to feel fear or to not feel fear, if we are free to go or not to go and that we are not with TM.

After I went to another master I felt outcast. That is why the Maharishi appeared as criminal, because inside I noticed it turned into hell.

What first felt like heaven on earth out of the sight of the observer, turned into hell, so I went through heaven and hell at that place. Heaven was building up, becoming a teacher and ended in Italy in a big assembly, when I saw it in the air. There I met the NL and it went down fast into hell. I was not aware that it was not okay to go to another master, for me it was clear that it had to be free, higher self is freedom.

There was Baba in the heart, therefore, it was clear I had to go there.

Those people appeared as puppets, enemies, hell opened up, what a nightmare. Because I went to another master the NL got engaged in three months’ time, even though, I had done nothing wrong. And he hoped he would be a big yogi, go on dreaming.

Later I went into the relationship with my ex, because I didn’t understand what had happened.

The observer gets aware and he created the wounded inner child, we have to wake up the observer. It is like with meditation, all stress only, but the observer has to wake up, all stress only is not waking it totally up, there is a part of it going on sleeping.

Lots of dreams have to do with the dark side of the inner child, with hidden fear and worries, the dark side of the child is the shadow.

The observer is aware of the inner happening in the inner child, if he goes asleep, the trance takes over. If we do TM, it cuts off from the inner child.

The aim is a state in which is no trance, they tell no problems, all problems solved. If the trance of the dark side is mastered, it becomes a state of no problems.

But it means not that there are no problems in life.
They don’t distinguish between the dark side of the inner child, the shadow and stress and the inner child, it is all the same for them. They don’t know the inner child, it is like throwing out the baby with the bathwater. Being aware of the observer is part of it. It is a different attitude if the observer is aware of it or not. The boss is the observer.
But as they are not aware that it is the observer, for them it is only meditation. But the observer can only observe if it is awake, if it goes asleep as it does with TM, it sleeps. It is no more in the observer but in the mind again, it is a TM-Trance created by transcending.
Lack of knowledge, the observer can only be real if we are free to go as we like, if we are free to feel as we like and TM is not free, everything learnt by heart, they repeat what they have learnt on and on, all wrong level of understanding - all problems solved.
It is only real on the Atman level, not in the mind and we live in mind and body.
They live an illusion, it is not real. And the same with the result of the inner child workshop, if there is no freedom, it cannot be the observer and then it is the mind level and taking power away.
There is a difference between the inner child and the dark side of it. Amma is the divine and beautiful part of the inner child, the dark side are the fears and that what they call stress. Hell is an awful state, and the inner child tried to avoid it.
It was not a great experience the memory of hell, all enemies, just puppets, no eyes, no ears, no brains, just puppets.
In the mean time I know it was a journey through heaven and hell.
But I don’t think anybody would like that! It takes far too much energy and too much time!
TM is cutting off from the inner child, ignoring the dark side of the inner child, they call it no problems, but the problem is, they don’t know what they are doing.
If we cut off the Atman on one side, we also cut off the opposite the abyss and hell on the other side. Evolution and stress means nothing else, but heaven and hell.
And it means also hell is cut off and no way out, that is why hell… it never ends.., an awful state of mind. It is only real on the Atman level, not on the mind level, and the observer can only be real, if it is free.

I was very lucky to be with Baba, because he goes with the ‘I am that’ beyond heaven and hell. And it is the observer and free!

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