The Lesson must be Learnt and Digested

A merchant calculates the debit and credit at the end of a week or month or year, and draws up the balance sheet to arrive at one figure — their earnings. So too, in the business of life, the end may result in some earnings, after the receipts and disbursements are tallied. At the point of death, if one yearns to cater to the tongue, it is proof that throughout their life, the tongue has been the master. Thus, of the inborn desires (samskaras) in life, some are stronger than the rest and stand out to the last. Life is like that; this lesson must be learnt and digested well. The net result of all this living and toiling is whatever comes to memory at the last moment of life. Therefore, direct the current of life towards the acquisition of the mental tendency (samskara) that you want to have during the last moment. Fix your attention upon it, day and night.

Baba (thought for the day)

The thought for the day is just enough words of Baba to think it over, not too little and not too much. Here Baba compares business of life with business and he explains the samskaras, inborn desires or tendencies in our mind and some are stronger than the rest and stand out. We have to learn the lesson of business of life and he is telling us that the lesson has to be learnt and digested well.

But how do we know when a lesson is learnt and when it is digested?

If we look in the mirror we see our own reflection, but for that we have to have a mirror and Baba takes care that we have such a mirror.

The net result will come to memory at the last moment of life. If we think only of business that will be there at the last moment and if we think of business of life if we are lucky, divinity will be there at the last moment.

Business is the calculating value, but business of life has to do with Karma, it is not the same, one is in the mind, the other goes beyond the mind - if we do it right.

Therefore, direct the current of life towards the acquisition of the mental tendency (samskara) that you want to have during the last moment. Fix your attention upon it, day and night.

If we are able to go beyond the mind and to see the mental tendencies in the inner view, that is the mirror of Atma, it reflects in that mirror as pictures, as he explained also in a thought for the day. 

The insights are reflections, the objective relative world is mirrored in pictures and in the dream as the man who is in our dreams to awake us is Baba and it always has to do with the reflection and sight of truth, Darshan.

There was an avalanche coming down after my mother died, the reflection of attachment and before had been a precipice in the air what is a reflection of pride. If we listen to Baba's explanation we get aware of it and it does make sense, if we don't listen we probably think it is a dream and miss it. 

Also my car wend down with the elevator and I couldn’t find it anymore, it was a sign that the self-power got lost, because they had let me down. They didn't care about finding with me the real reason why our neighborhood didn't feel okay, they just didn't wanted to know and the reason has to do with attachment and pride and that is how it makes sense what didn't make sense all my life and I had been a teenager at that time and it was also Baba who said in the dream that I had been let down by the family.

That is how we get the right insights. And if there is a whirlpool it is the reflection of greed.

The vampire was the reflection of taking energy away and taking advantage of  it and the long nose Baba in the dream was a reflection of falsehood and that is how we get aware of the insights by thinking it over.

In listening to Baba’s we begin to feel it, the wisdom reflected in the dreams.

If there is a storm in the inner view it is the reflection of desires and if there is a volcano as it had been also present once and we had to run for our life and it was my daughter and me and it was pitch dark night it rained ash and there were hot lava streams flowing down at both sides of it and we had to run. The volcano has to do with ego. 

But what was scary that was the darkness and how real it felt because it the ash fell from the sky and it all was grey and awful actually. 

We had to run for safety, for sure it had to do with family and the awful reflection of ego and the same way there was a mud hole and the reflection of a disturbed relationship without any opportunity of change, there were no windows and no door, only a mud hole and we lived in that hole and I tried to make the best out of it thinking it was a Baba Lila and we had to learn from it as I was thinking that we followed the inner master and it was kind of a shock to find ourselves in a mud hole. When it began to rain the mud got liquid and came in very fast and it was awful and dangerous and the small child was playing at the wall and screamed, 'let's get out of here' but it was already too late, the mud had already covered her and only a small hand was reaching out for me and I had to get out if I tried to help her it was too late, I would also perish in the mud and behind was only Baba's voice and he asked and what now?

It was one of the scariest dream I ever had when he asked me and what now? 

Later that mud hole was in the insight as the disturbed relationship with my ex. He said it was perverted and went to Baba and thinks he is a devotee, but he sends his daughter books about 'think and get rich'. He is kind of nuts, he really think that if he would have know that before, he would be better off now and rich. He is dreaming with both eyes open and he doesn't listen to Baba dreams and even if he told him long ago, 'give, give, give, I will not give, you lived a dream that is your problem not mine', he still thinks it would be different if ... and it is always the others mistake and never his. 

It is not that easy to get along with such situations and insights and it ended upsetting and disturbed and I was that scared when he asked, and what now? I was at that time in Prasanthi and I called my daughter on the spot because I was worried that something had happened to her and I had to know that she was okay. 

Why do we get in such perverted situation and sick situations and all good intentions are in vain, he didn't get aware of it how stupid he was. 

He still goes there for about five weeks a year and he still thinks the same stupid way, he has not changed a bit, but as Baba said when we went to him that it was 'perverted'. 

It began with the idea that he also was a meditator and spiritual and a Baba devotee and it all looked good and it ended when he said that it was perverted and that we didn't listen and we had to get a divorce. When he said that I knew there was no way it would get better as I still hoped before and the mud hole was probably he expression of it, still hoping that it would change, but in a mud hole nothing can change, but the mud can come in that was the only change possible and was a very dangerous situation and we were not aware of it. I lived still in the idea that it was a Baba made relationship and that destroyed my last hopes, afterwards I knew it was not and that he just took advantage of it and whatever he said was not true, that was the long nose Baba in the dream and the rest was the vampire, talking advantage of the situation. 

Such insights are awful and until we have some kind of feeling for it or are able to live with it and to accept it, it seems it takes much more time than we thought it would. 

Insights are the reflections of the relative and changing object in the mirror of the Atma and when he was in that mirror as ‘I am the one’, it was a different reflection of the divine, but when we think it over and listen to his words only after some time it begins to make sense. We have to use his words to finally understand it right. 

In the dream he was as two Baba's, one was the insight and the other was the following step. 

The present reflection in the insight has to do with truth, but we see it in the mirror of the heart and that mirror is present in mirror writing, it is backwards and only if we listen to Baba's words and we see it in our own life and think it over it begins to make sense and we are actually finally able to see the situation in the insight light. 

I was meditating regularly and there began the insights, but there was no way getting the meaning of it or that it made finally sense. There were always more insights and as it seemed no answers to it, they felt like pictures, but that was only the mirror we needed some kind of explanation to know what the pictures said. 

We had learnt that with mediation alone we were able to solve all problems, only insight without the right translation and language so that we are able to understand why insights we have even more problems and there has to be an answer. As he said, he is the insight and the following step. 

My ex went on in his dream, even if Baba said to him in the insight that he lived a dream, he didn't change, he didn't listen, he didn't hear it, but I got aware of it that it was not right and Baba told him that it was not Baba’s problem, but his problem if he lived a dream, but he is still living his dream as he is not listening there is actually nothing happening on the insight level. He ignores it and he goes on in his mind patterns without changing.
We from the dreams already that he doesn’t know the divine heart, but we still hoped it would get better and finally we had to face the disaster of it.
It is simple and stupid, he projects everything outside of himself and he goes on in his habits without getting aware of it. 

Every year he is five weeks in the ashram, he spends his vacation, but he doesn't take anything in and we got even more stupid letters about 'think and get rich' only a few months ago, so he gets worse and not better as older as he gets. It is awful to see like that how inflexible the mind really can be. 

If we think it over and are by that able to see it in our own life there is something like and inside transformation happening. And if we do not see it in our own life, we cannot understand it and Baba is telling us that as well. 

We thought if we meditated we would be able to get answers. But he didn't meditate, he said he did, but it was not true. He didn't care about truth as well and that was reflected in the vampire and the long nose. It was kind of a shock to see Baba like that in the insight, but it was also a warning because I didn't see it as I was in a relationship with it. I had to take care of the child and I didn't realize that we were in a mud hole and when I realized how dangerous it really had been, it was like a shock. There were quite a bit of shocks in that awakening with him in the insights. 

If someone is not meditating, we were used to take care of our stuff and problems with meditation or it took care of it by doing it regularly and he didn't, so he was just taking advantage of it that I actually went for it with him into a mud hole thinking it was a Baba Lila. Not so nice to get aware of it. It was about taking energy only from the beginning on and he never intended to do his best and to actually take care of the family, he expected us to take care of him. It was the opposite way around. 

So that reality was present in the vampire, but it still didn't tell me why I was in such and awful situation. It felt like everything turned into evil and he went to Baba to take advantage of it and not to learn something. It was like that attitude was there at the beginning and it didn't change. There was no use of talking common sense and all the nice ideals we hat met, it was not there and after a while finally it was clear that it would never be there. We had to accepting truth that it was not able to change that situation, as he went there to take advantage of it, it went on like that. We had to accept 'right action' and that was the divorce and by that we got aware of it that he was not listening, it took seven years to put it into practice finally. That was based on falsehood. He never listened to Baba, otherwise it would not have turned out like that and the result is after all we can see it more real and the person we met makes more sense, when he looked to me at the beginning like a devotee and he was not and he still is not it.  

I also realized only much later that most of it what he said didn't make sense and I hoped that it will make sense later one and it never did. The insights help that it does make sense now. We can see all those moments when it was not clear and we didn't understand what had happened and he took only advantage of it. 

Therefore, direct the current of life towards the acquisition of the mental tendency (samskara) that you want to have during the last moment. Fix your attention upon it, day and night.

If we want to be with divinity in the last moment and go home or be with him as our best friend, we have to focus all life on truth because he is only alive in truth and character.

As Baba said, money lost, nothing lost, health lost, something lost, character lost, everything lost.

If there is no character and nothing left but an empty Western shoe, there was also no best friend and no Baba experience in him. It was a dream and as his thoughts turn only around money he is not able to understand Baba's teaching. 

God we think, God we are, dust we think, dust we are.

The empty Western shoe is dust, there is no value in it. He said that in the insight in the moment when he left the body. If we have an old pair of shoes we throw it away and get new shoes with old once we cannot walk anymore. There will be no change in him and I also don't expect it. If we don't listen to Baba it is also not his problem but it is ours. Baba tell us again and again that we should listen and be careful, ABC, always be careful.

We make a step towards him and he makes a hundred towards us, but if we don’t make a step towards him, we lived a dream of developing the imaginative faculty of the mind that it was actually him when it was not. That was the dream. He was not in it and I guess we thought he was in it, because it felt better. That is how he made us aware of it that it had nothing to do with him after all, what was even more difficult to understand and it was based on falsehood, pretending of being spiritual and it was not right. 

That is how we get aware of the demon in us and not what we hoped to find - divinity. 

It was about taking advantage of it and destroying others lives and not divinity and not self-effort and not self-sacrifice, but taking advantage of the others that they are ready to do self-sacrifice. 

Baba tells us, ‘help ever, hurt never’ and it felt like opposite, ‘help never, hurt ever’ and it is kind of difficult to accept that we were foolish enough to be in that.

At the last moment of life facing death he will get the balance of business of life, with other words Karma and if it is only business and not going beyond the mind and living the business of life in going for good tendencies in the mind, what will be there is exactly that and nothing else.

There cannot be Divine grace if we don't accept truth and we don't go for right action and we don't do any effort to understand peace, there will be no pure love and there is no non-violence. What we met was the opposite, instead of truth it was falsehood and instead of non-violence there was violence and cruelty and instead of right action there was only taking advantage of it and that is how we made the experience with a bad example instead of with a good one and there is attachment and hatred and not 'pure love' and if there is no pure love, there is also no divine grace.

Thus, of the inborn desires (samskaras) in life, some are stronger than the rest and stand out to the last. Life is like that; this lesson must be learnt and digested well. The net result of all this living and toiling is whatever comes to memory at the last moment of life.