Difference between Good and Bad

Who is a bad person? Anyone who sees evil in good is bad; stay away from them. If you join bad company, knowingly or unknowingly, you will lose good qualities. Many have reaped poor fate due to bad company.

Who is a good person? Anyone who sees good, even in a bad person, is good. You must develop friendship with the good. There may be some evil qualities in you; do not worry or become weak because of this. Develop good qualities increasingly. God will always be in you, with you, around you and will take care of you.

Whatever task you undertake, discriminate carefully, follow the noble path and always do good acts. Keep your heart sacred and pure. Never fill it with bad thoughts and feelings. You must start early, drive slowly and reach safely. When you develop good qualities, your journey to the future will be smooth.

Baba

I was impressed getting the answer like that. 

That thought for the day was a highlight and it seemed to explain about everything. Following the inner light and the inner master trying to know how it got into self-enquiry in these words is the reason why some insights were good and others bad, why some were light and others dark. 

In the experience it is not that easy to get aware of it, it is even very difficult to understand Tamas, upside down, if evil is seen in good.

It was not as we might think how we get into self-enquiry; it was not a decision, but the result of watching. 

We didn’t go to Baba and he said, you have to do self-enquiry. 

It was by practice that we got into it. 

In doing we got aware of it. 

The insights were there, but not understood and he said in the dream that he is the insight and the following step.

It began with the higher self in the dream and it had to be understood, that was clear, only not where and how to get the right wisdom.

First time I had met the Maharishi, he was a yogi, I hoped he would tell me how to understand insights and there was one outstanding insight and there were others I was not even aware of it that it was the level of insights.

It went from one TM-course to the next, always hoped to find it in the next course and it was all in vain, only more insights and no answers and when I finally realized that there would be no answers at all, it was too far gone, no way back, it was just deception and illusion.

And finally after being with Baba, sure that it was at the right place, still there were no answers. 

And Baba said, ‘wait, wait, wait’ and time went by and nothing happened.

And in an interview he said, ‘follow the master, fight to the end, finish the game’ and by that it was clear that we didn’t know how to listen to the inner master, even less how to fight to the end and what about finishing the game?

It felt all like theoretical wisdom and the question was how to put it into practice.

As teenager I was writing a diary and there was the feeling of self-realization and the inner master was present, but I didn’t know how to follow the inner master and now I realized that it was kind of different if I began to follow the inner master.

In an interview Baba asked, why we were with him and nobody knew the answer and he said, ‘self-realization’ and that is how it began to work in my mind and I began to question why it was not present anymore, because it had been about self-realization, but it was gone and to get the answer I had to follow the inner master. 

We had to get answers and try to understand it and Baba said that I was let down by the family, now that was something I was not aware of and by questioning it we got aware of it. It came up in the dream and what we had to get aware of, and that is how it began.

The first boyfriend was in my dream, he said that he would come back and get married. I was taken aback by the way he was telling it. It was no question, if I wanted it or not and if I agreed to it, it felt like understood that I should do what pleased him and that is how in the inner master came up that it was all manipulation only. In the mean time he was married and living not far away from the parent’s house, his presence always felt, it means he didn’t ask his wife to marry him, but he manipulated her into marriage.

I had no idea how to follow the inner master, but there was someone who said that he knew and that I was the right one for him and I thought that we would get the answers together, as it turned out it felt like a kind of replacement partner.

It was not the right level and instead of self-enquiry, it lead to doubts and ruin, he took only advantage of it. 

And Baba said that we didn’t listen and therefore we had to get a divorce and it took years until finally also that was done, because he still was not ready to listen.

And in the mean time I had nearly forgotten about self-enquiry and I thought I would never understand it. Tired, fed up and doubts had become part of it and it went nowhere, instead of self-enquiry only upsetting answers. 

In coming back here Baba was holding up in the dream a book and following the inner master meant it had to be written and first it needed some practice, I had not done it for years and the skill was not there anymore.

And one night in the dream he said that I should tell what he tells and by following the inner master the thought for the day was in focus and that was a surprise, because by doing it we get answers and thinking it over the insights began to make sense and that is how it got absorbed.

Baba said it in the thought for the day to listen, to think it over and to absorb and it began to make sense.

And the insights with the family were dark. 

The inner master said that it was okay to go on in direction of blue light. After years it was only black and that felt also painful, but this thought for the day tells me way and how to look at it.   

Who is a bad person? Anyone who sees evil in good is bad; stay away from them. If you join bad company, knowingly or unknowingly, you will lose good qualities. Many have reaped poor fate due to bad company.

It is difficult to get the experience that someone sees evil in the good, because they are trouble makers and if we meet such a person, the experience is different from what we think it is. 

But it explains the experiences with family, dark or black and not good, the reflection present as abuse, but we had to get aware of it, because a visit in the hospital with the mother, in the dream was that my brother does he worst he can do and at that time I was worried about him and I didn't know what it was and now we know. 

If someone is seeing evil in good, it was pitch dark black and he tells us to stay away, and I guess we do not need to know what will be the result of it, it cannot get better, only worse. 

Sure it is not helpful and time and effort waste to do good, if it is seen as evil every effort gets destroyed like that. 

To see that level as bad company is also kind of difficult. 

It is not easy to get aware of that experience on the level of family. 

I knew it was Tamas and upside down, but I didn’t realize how bad it really was. If we go for the effort to do good, see good and bee good, what will happen if we meet someone who sees evil in it? 

It spoils the effort of being good and it is time and energy waste.

Many have reaped poor fate due to bad company.

We have to avoid bad company, but first we have to get aware of the bad company, especially when it is about family, it is kind of difficult, it was okay somehow as long as we were not aware of it.

With family it seems even more a problem, as we are ready to forgive and to look away, but it is a question why it was like that in the inner view and anyhow the result is that bad, that we don't want it, because it is not pleasant in any way, it feels upsetting, sick and disturbed. 

It is the battlefield in the heart, we know it from the Bhagavad Gita, the battlefield of Kurukshetra. 

Arjuna is looking at the enemy and doesn’t want to fight, because there are people he knows, his teacher, part of his family and his cousins and he would prefer not to fight and there is that pain of the heart. The Bhagavad Gita is the teaching of Krishna telling him why it is his duty and he has to fight.

In living that teaching and following the inner master we get aware of the inner meaning of the Bhagavad Gita and eternal wisdom.

Self-enquiry is practice and following the inner master. 

We have to go for it until we get an answer, and as usual it is an indirect answer, it is in the inner view and not on the outer level. 

There is a thought for the day and that are Baba's words and in writing down what comes in my mind it gets transformed into self-experience and it is self centered and we are able to see it in our own life and ready to go for it next moment again and we can be surprised that it gets us back to the source.  

Enlightenment does not mean to run away from the world. It means to run to you in the presence of the world, and just notice.  Not cynical.  Not hateful.  Just notice. Slightly insinuating who you are, and always being available to adapt to who you are in the next moment. Living by that rule, you will remember, for that law of nature brings you back to the source. (Mafu)