It makes one Swell with Pride

One may know the 700 verses of the Bhagavad Gita by heart, but trust Me, the time that was spent in learning by rote and reciting it, is all a waste, if one does not resolutely act upon even a single verse. It is not the resolution that matters; it is resoluteness. Resolution is just a string of words.
In fact, that learning might even be a handicap as that skill can affect the head and make one swell with pride.
The price of sugarcane is fixed according to the sugar content in it. You evaluate oranges in proportion to the juice they contain, is it not? So too, one is worthy of honour in proportion to the knowledge of the Self acquired. 

This knowledge alone can confer steadiness, strength and real happiness.
Baba (thought for the day)

The time we utilize to memorize the text if it is that much, it is waste of time, because it is more important to put it into practice.
It is not just the intention of it, but doing it, doing it no matter what. Learning by heart takes time and effort, but if the text is not applied, what it the use of it? How can we take care to put it into practice?
There has to be perseverance and patience to observe. If we realize that we are the watcher, we are on the level of never changing truth. The observer is the mirror and therefore, not different from the watcher.

As Baba said, follow the master (inner master), fight to the end, finish the game.

In watching our thought, feelings, moods, w get aware that the observer is always different from the experienced object.
We get aware that listening to the inner master means that we have to listen differently, otherwise, we don't hear it.
Listening to the inner master without the knowledge we find in the verses of the Bhagavad Gita also is not really what we think it will be, because the observer is not exactly as we are used to see things by our eyes and sense-perception, it is different and needs kind of a translation and in the Gita we find that translation.
Thinking of observing we probably project it in the mind, but we will have to get aware that the mind doesn't know it and that it is not the same level if we observe in consciousness and if we are not aware of it and project it in the mind there will be level-confusion.
How is the inner master expressing himself?

If we listen to our inner voice we find the inner master, present in dreams, insights and related to the verses of the Gita we can get the reality and the right understanding. We have to understand it right to be able to put it into practice, that means, first of all it has to be understood.

To be able to get that hidden meaning in truth, as it is called, we take the insight and find the understanding in the knowledge. It is not yet absorbed if we have the inside view, in seeing it in the light of the wisdom it begins to makes sense and it is understood. In the light of our own experience it will be wisdom.
If we learn a lot by heart, we might think that we did something special and get pride of it, but that is the level of the ego and the mind.
Pride is seen in the light of the higher self as a precipice.
How is the experience of it?
If we read about 'pride' we have a certain idea about it, but how is the experience of it?

I had experienced it with my mother. She was proud of the work done and after a while if got real strange. When she came back from Spain, there they were retired and had a nice house, after father died, she came back and lived for some more years in a small flat.
We always recognized the work they had done, we had listened not nothing else but that for years. That was all they shared with us that they worked hard, but I didn't realize that it was because of pride in the background. It was not lack of respect for their life and work done, but we had to listen to it again and again. It was like we didn't notice it enough, as they had to tell it always new again. We could as many times as possible tell her, but 'yes we know – now, you tell always the same thing', it was never good enough. She didn't hear that she was annoying us by repeating the same old thing always new again.
Once we were sitting together with the family in a restaurant. I sat on her side and we were talking about a neighbour who just had died.

In the inner view, behind my mind's eye, I noticed a 'precipice' in the air. That means she was not reachable behind the precipice.
As daughter it was not a nice experience, whatever we tried, it was no enough to get to her, there was that precipice in between. But it was in no way clear why 'precipice' it needs a lot of self-inquiry to understand it.  
It made her live on the other shore, at the other side and whatever we spoke about it, she didn't get it.
She looked at things from her viewpoint and we could tell whatever we wanted, it was always the same response, you should not… or only reproaches. To realize that we couldn't get to her that was kind of hard. She was far away and strange, even though she was our mother.
That means the result of pride and attachment what went together lead directly into a catastrophe.
Often we all wondered, 'what is she talking about?' Out of the blue she began to talk about the TV, or the weather or something she had seen about politics and it always felt like she wanted to make herself important, she remembered in her head what she had done being proud made it impossible to be with her family and to share.
She was not really present in the family gathering and expected from our side recognition, respect and that she couldn't fail. It was for the family very disturbing and not a nice experience.
And if we said something, we always got the answer, 'but what do you have, there is nothing…'
She said it in all different situation, it was never another answer, problem or not, what did she care? She didn't hear it.

It was always about her and what she had done, and I wondered what she was actually talking about, it didn't make sense. It was not about sense, it was even dangerous and naive, unaware of situations and people's problems around her. She was just proud of what she had done, there was nothing else but that. It consumed her. There was no real communication possible and in the end the feeling of emptiness. On the level of mother she was not present, but for us she looked like present, she was only a constant deception, she let us down always. She was never there for us, but only for what she had done. She was like possessed by that thought of what she had done and we were never able to do what she had done…

When you get aware of the 'precipice' inside in consciousness, you might think it is 'nothing', like a dream. It is just the opposite, you are the dreamer if you don't see it, if you are not aware of it, because in reality it was there.
If the mind is too strong we will not notice, we think we are awake, but in reality it is a dream state, because reality is hidden.
We dream the dream of life, we don't see it as it really is. But if we see it we have to understand it. That precipice didn't make sense first.
If we don't relate the insight to wisdom, we don't understand the insight. There is a precipice, but it needs a Baba to tell us what it means.
Baba tells us that 'precipice' is pride, storm is desire, avalanche is attachment, ego is a volcano and whirlpool is greed.

If we are not aware of the teaching and wisdom, we will see a precipice and not get it or just forget it again. It has to be understood of the context of her life and that is not just there, it grows, there are inner pictures and in the light of the self it finally gets clear, that is about truth. Truth is always hidden and not obvious, it means we have to find it and it is not just there, it gets revealed and in thinking it over and by self-inquiry it is possible to get closer to it.
A mother should not be on that level, mother is on a self-level, we don't see her on the other side of a 'precipice'.
If we don't know the teaching, the heart refuses to acknowledge it.
For the heart it is pain to have the mother on the other side of a precipice, it doesn't make sense. It is not joy, but pain to feel that whatever we say it is not understood, she doesn't get it. We try to explain and she thinks it is a reproach, we try to share and she feels offended.
If we get aware of the precipice it is established and will not just get away…, it needs insight to get away or therapy work.

During the inner child work, the insight said that it was too late for my mother, she was too old.
If there is a whirlpool that is greed. Could be it is just a level where lots of people and greed. 

If there is a whirlpool in the inner view, do you think there is no reason for it? Not thinking about it will not make it go away, it is still there. It is a mind reality, maybe too many people in that. If you would see what I see, you would think about it…
If there is pride, we are not able to get insights, because it keeps us on the level of the mind, all those qualities have the tendency to blind us. Pride, attachment, ego, desire and greed.

"Desire is storm, greed is whirlpool, pride is precipice, attachment is avalanche, ego is volcano. Discard desire and you are liberated."
This is inner view, it is seen in the light of the higher self and the truth in it is growing. 

There is enough to think about it and to reflect to get the truth of it.
If in the inner view between the 'father and the son is gold', what do you think, is it positive or negative?

If it is positive it is divinity, if it is negative it is mind and physical gold will result in one of those issues. It can be seen as a storm (desire) or as a whirlpool (greed) or it could be present as avalanche (attachment).
What do you want in your life, truth or being deluded by the mind? 

If you want truth you have to think about it and get aware of it.
You will agree that it is only mind if it is like that and not the level of Baba or the higher self…If it would be a higher level there would be light and love and it would be no issue and it would not reflect a whirlpool.
When my mother died there was an avalanche and the inner voice said, if a mother falls, all children fall with her. If it is not realized, the problems come up always again.

You evaluate oranges in proportion to the juice they contain, is it not? So too, one is worthy of honour in proportion to the knowledge of the Self acquired. This knowledge alone can confer steadiness, strength and real happiness.

The knowledge of the self is a higher level of consciousness and if it is understood as Baba tells us, the juice is the integrated awareness, everything else it not the self-level but in the mind and it is not obvious, because it is about truth. Truth has to be realized and out of that reason there is enough reason to think about it, but really non to not think about it - or Maya (illusion) takes over.
Whatever the conditioning of the mind, we have to get aware of it to be able to change it.
As long as we don't see it, we are blinded by illusion and think everything is fine, but we are living a dream-reality, because it is not okay and we have to find truth to be able to distinguish between the higher self, the mirror - or the mind conditioning. 

My mother was on a business level proud of what she had done, even though their achievements were in no way of yours or what others did and still it ended in pride and attachment.