All the five elements have been created by the will of the Supreme. They must be used with reverential care and vigilant discrimination. Reckless use of any of them will only rebound on you with tremendous harm. Nature outside must be handled with discretion, caution and awe. It is the same with our inner 'nature' and internal instruments too! Of these, two are capable of vast harm - the tongue and one's lust. Since lust is aroused and inflamed by the food consumed and the drink taken in, the tongue needs greater attention. While your eye, ear and nose have single uses, the tongue makes itself available for two purposes: to judge taste and to utter word - symbols of communication. You must control the tongue with double care, since it can harm you in two ways. Patanjali, (The author of Yoga Sutras) has declared that when tongue is conquered, victory is yours!
Thinking about five elements created by the will of the supreme feels for me the divine like a 'person' or it is rather a feeling of how to get it right and as I don't know, it makes me not like listening. It makes the thought come up, the will of the supreme, what is that?
And we think maybe it is the way it is translated and it should be said in a different way that we can somehow relate to it. What is it that we don't know, about everything if we don't have the experience of it. There are texts I just cannot read it or listen to it, I get just tired and lose all taste for it when I just read a few sentences.
But he is talking about care and discrimination. It makes us ware that we don't want to listen really, that has nothing to do with the words, but with listening in general. It is good to know that we don't feel like doing it. And it seems rather nobody wants to do it really and in that sense we can tell, okay that is why we feel like that, it is normal and it has nothing to do with the words, but with inner resistance.
All the five elements have been created by the will of the Supreme. They must be used with reverential care and vigilant discrimination.
If we go on listening we get the information to use it with care, and if we don't do it there will be tremendous harm. We kind of should know that much to know how to do it and if we read it and we don't know, it makes us feel uncomfortable. In a way it is just common sense and everybody does the best to do it right. We more or less would like to do it right, wouldn't we if we know that there can be tremendous harm at least it make us be careful and he tells also always, 'ABC, always be careful'.
How frustrating if we would like to do it right, but we don't know how? We just go on and watch every step and think hopefully that is right and not wrong and in the end we are tired and we would just like to go on and forget about it. Is there that much resistance on the level of our inner nature level that we cannot listen?
We have to see it in our own life to be able to understand it and if we do that, listening is different. Listen, think it over, absorb.
Reckless use of any of them will only rebound on you with tremendous harm.
What is reckless use? How can we see it in our own life? That is what listening is about; we have to think it over to get to a right conclusion. If we understand it, we get a feeling for it and reckless doesn't tell me anything to me just now, but maybe at the end of it we will have more right feeling for that word and we will see.
Nature outside must be handled with discretion, caution and awe. It is the same with our inner 'nature' and internal instruments too! Of these, two are capable of vast harm - the tongue and one's lust. Since lust is aroused and inflamed by the food consumed and the drink taken in, the tongue needs greater attention.
And back to the senses, it is about self-control. We have to handle nature carefully; we have to use good judgment and the same with our inner nature and our internal instruments. What are the internal instruments?
Baba is talking here about the tongue.
We can be sure about one thing, those who know how to listen will be sweet, careful, loving and nice people usually and those who don't listen get us into troubles.
We talking about lust here, it is aroused with food and drink, it means watch the tongue and what we eat and drink.
It we have practice with the Patanjali sutras, we did with that practice refine the senses, but the tongue is at tool for words and communication.
If it happens to us and we listen to someone too soft-spoken, so softly that we can hardly understand it, we should be careful, because when that person gets into an outburst it will not be funny as everything seems suppressed really and it will be the opposite, instead of soft-spoken, we will have the explosion of a volcano and in another thought for the day he mentioned that volcano means ego, that is the man coming in our dreams to awake us, it will be present as volcano and it needs to be understood or translated and if we have such a picture of a volcano in the dream stage, we know it has to do with ego.
It is a dream scenery.
There was such a dream with the man coming in our dreams to awake us, it was scary, it was dark, there was ash all over and it was a volcanic eruption. The air was dark because of the ash, it rained ash and on both sides were hot burning lava streams flowing down the road and my daughter and I were running for life, that much have to do with ego. It was an extreme scenery of a terrifying nature spectacle.
There was a time I had in my regular meditation nearly ever day the pictures of suicide and it was before we left and we didn't go back. It was too cut off my own self that I was at that time able to see why it felt like that. It felt trapped in a relationship that felt like self-destruction, it destroyed the ideals of spirituality and life value, whatever we had done in the passed with the Patanjali sutras and meditation, whatever we had reached, was destroyed. It felt like everything went down the drain, had no more value and we went not upwards on the spiritual path, but it destroyed the ideal, it went downwards. Swami's Darshan is clarifying the ideal, that was destroying it. And I tried in vain to find a way out of it as I know now.
It was about sense control, we had to keep the emotions under control, there was a lot coming up behind it.
There was no communication, it was blunt, ordinary and dull. The man coming in our dreams said it was perverted and we had to get a divorce. It was not exactly a highlight on the spiritual path, it was Tamas and that needed to be destroyed, it is such an obstacle it turns into the opposite. It felt like self-destruction,there was suicide in the air and ruin, it was actually awful and I was not able to realize how awful it was until now looking back at it in thinking it over.
I wondered at that time how I got into that?
How had it happened and what went wrong really and the man coming into our dreams to awake us said, 'he just took advantage of it'.
If it is a Swami Lila it should be the highest, but it took some time to realize that it didn't feel like the highest, but it felt like the lowest really. It took some time and I just didn't believe it, it seemed impossible, but nevertheless, it was as it was and there was nothing we could do about it, but accept that it was Tamas and that has to be given up.
I just didn't get it how it could have happened until last February.
We know we should see it as a gift and be grateful for it, when it is a Swami Lila it is divine and a gift. But he also tells us, if the highest gets abused it smells worse than rotten food.
I had my duty and to do my best taking care of a small child, that is how we went on, there was no way out.
There is no change in the mind, it is still defaming and telling to just going there to make cheap vacation. We remind him what he said, he is blaming other or me for it and it goes into arguments, and no peace.
He is not the one who answered, 'you are right, sorry about that and it should have been different and we were not there for the last twenty years', it would have been a right way of seeing it as it just reflects reality and nothing else, but he began on the spot to argue about it and turning things upside down and in the end everybody feels like shit.
The words used are always again a shock; we never would go there for a cheap vacation. If we want cheap vacation we stay where we are and don't fly to India. But it is an example how we should make good use of our tongue, and isn't it just what Swami is talking about?
All the feeling of upset, troublesome, rotten, cruel, insensitive, with other words, it is bad and shocking, awful and deplorable, it is synonymous to bad monkey mind.
It is all contained in Swami telling someone, 'bad monkey mind', it is just bringing it to the point that it cannot expand to all. It is a bad, dreadful monkey, if we are used to use our sutras to get a good result and to refine the senses seen in that light it is a shit sutra and it turns everything into shit, bad habits, bad thoughts and bad feelings, everything what Baba tells we should avoid is there when he said, 'bad thoughts, bad monkey mind'.
While your eye, ear and nose have single uses, the tongue makes itself available for two purposes: to judge taste and to utter word - symbols of communication. You must control the tongue with double care, since it can harm you in two ways.
Here he talks about Patanjali, the father of yoga and self-control.
Patanjali, (The author of Yoga Sutras) has declared that when tongue is conquered, victory is yours!
Patanjali is the self-realized authority and we had an interview with Swami and he said in our interview pointing at himself 'all self-control' and then he looked at the women at the other side and said, 'you have no idea about it'.
I went on during the time at the ashram with meditation, always in the morning waking up before the other to get on with my regular meditation practice and at night before going asleep I also did my meditation in the midst of all the people present and in rooms with others always different people and I don't remember hardly anyone who had been with me in that time in the room.
We have the sutras, we have a meditation program and we did it regularly and we went on doing it. It is Patanjali that tells us how to meditate.
He tells in his sutras that the activity in the mind is constantly going on and we cannot stop it, it goes on in the background of our mind, therefore, we should stop.
How do we stop? We take a mantra and we repeat it and by doing that we get aware that thoughts are part of it. It was confirmed by Swami one day we had a meditation group and we sat in meditation and we watched the thoughts and then we began to think the mantra, effortlessly and we did it for twenty minutes and after that group meditation we went to Darshan and he took our group in the interview room and explained to us the Soham mantra, but he said that all mantras are okay and he talked about the meaning, 'I am that' or 'I am God' or 'I am Shiva'.
If during our meditation practice we get aware that we are not with the mantra, we are in thoughts there is mind activity back and we stop again as Patanjali tells us and go back to the mantra, easy and effortlessly.
We repeat the mantra again. Thoughts are part of it, but when we get aware that we are in thoughts and not with the mantra, we go back to the manta and that is how it is done for twenty minutes twice a day.
That is Patanjali and purifying the mind and getting aware of the thought activity in our mind. It is establishing inner silence and after such a meditation we feel relaxed and inner silence and it is deeper rest than in the deep sleep, because it is undisturbed and the mind gets silent, that is Patanjali.
And after that we used to think the sutras, we remembered the finest seeing, the third eye, the finest hearing, finest touch and smell and we get to finest taste what is refining our tongue.
Swami said to the other women in the interview room that they had no idea about it, they don't know Patanjali and the sutras, they didn't know how to refine the senses, they don't know Patanjali, the father of yoga.
And even if Swami said to him, 'bad thoughts and bad monkey mind', it has changed nothing, everything that is in touch with him seems to turn into bad taste really.
He uses the opposite sutra. We used the Patanjali sutras and it makes everything divine. And even if Swami told him, it doesn't make him aware of it.
We can talk for three weeks only good thoughts like we did in February at the ashram after the lectures and by thinking it over we got to a right conclusion and at the end he said that everybody is there anyhow just for a cheap vacation, as he does that and the Veda singing is just to keep the mind of those people busy and not for divine love.
So the ashram is saturated with divine love and with him, no matter what good thought we had before, the last bad and wrong conclusion destroys it all again and it is back to bad thoughts and as it had been before and that is why it destroyed all value.
It is a shit sutra and it turned everything into valueless crap really.
We went for a visit and the man coming in our dreams to awake us was a trolley with valueless crap on it, the result of bad thoughts. We are what we think we are. If he is telling us to see good, do good be good that is the way to God, if we do the opposite and we see bad, think bad thoughts and do bad, it is not the way to God, but the way to self-destruction and it looked in the insight like a trolley full of valueless crap like old iron he is dragging behind him.
As I had talked about Patanjali and the sutras we had practiced he said he learnt it from me and I said, who am I to be able to initiate you into it? Just talking about the value of the Patanjali sutras is not equal to an initiation. Initiation means practice and doing it and that is why nobody has an idea about it.
Only if we have practiced it we know the effect of it and what such a program can change in the way we feel, we have a feeling for Patanjali, the father of yoga only if we practiced it and we have the experience of it. That is about living enlightenment.
Thinking over Swami's thought for the day made me feel better. Thinking over his words, I didn't feel when the time didn't seemed to pass by, the job stress was heavy the last years. Thinking over his words we felt it less and it changed my mind and kept me going on, it was a source of strength.
My mind was focused on something positive instead of just waiting that the day ended and after all the job situation was not great and kind of negative and lots of pressure and stress.
In Swami's words is positivity and strength. That is how he took care of positive thinking, to not feel the burden of the job pressure, it was heavy the last years. As that is finished now we get aware of how much it had been a burden, it has shifted and now it has to do with emptiness and having no job, that can also be a burden.
We should enjoy it and relax and now we have time to meditate and getting aware of it and also the tiredness, the result of those past years. Whatever, we take it as it comes and try to make the best out of it and relax.
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