What about that voice?

Each one eats to assuage his own hunger; so too, each one must discover the best way to appease his own spiritual hunger. Do not be led away by the scorn of others, or by the recommendations of others.
Contact your own reality in the silence that you create by quieting the senses and controlling the mind. There is a voice that you can hear in that silence.
The true witness of your having listened to that voice is your behaviour. The tree is held and fed by the roots that go into the silent earth; so also, if the roots go deep into the silence of your inner consciousness, your spiritual blossoming is assured.

Baba

Coming back from work I remembered last year and the time before I went to Baba. In the airplane he said it twice inside and it was about job.
It felt tired and bad, difficult to take it easy. That came up again.

What is that state of mind?
It is like day or night?
Is the understanding right or not? It feels like shame. What was it? 
It is not that easy to understand that inner voice?    
During the inner child workshop it was about shame.

I didn't expect it to be that present, still hoped it just would pass, but it was not so. The result is different than I thought it would be. 
Shame is low energy and a state which is upside down. 
One seems to be related to the body, the other to consciousness. The energy has to be in balance, too much turns into the opposite, too little too. Shame can be karma and go on over generations.
What makes it come up? What triggers it?
Shame seems to be on the level of, 'Misery seeks company'.
It is the opposite of, 'May the whole world be happy!' 
It is probably better to be ready for everything and not to be attached, whatever it is.
It just needs courage. One of the qualities is 'courage'. And I don't know, we will see. I have to think it over.